8th April 2004
I don't think I will ever leave my room after what happened today. Robert
says it's not my fault, but I still think it is.
I was training with Johnny, Robert was still sick in bed. Anyway as we were
clearing up, I rested against the wall. Johnny came and stood in front of
me and told me I have been improving. I closed my eyes to take a breather.
I have been feeling rather strange around him lately. I think I may have a
little crush on him. As I had my eyes closed I felt two hands on my hips. I
thought he must think I have fainted so I opened my eyes to prove I was ok.
When I opened my eyes I was face to face with Johnny staring into his eyes.
He grinned, I could tell because he eyes changed. They smile when he
smiles. He whispered, close to my lips 'I really like you Hilary'. I was
too shocked to move, before I could say anything he kissed me! He was
really soft and gentle. He tried to pull me closer to him but I pulled
away. I got my blade and ran up to Robert's bedroom.
When the butler opened the door I was all ready in tears. Robert told me to
come in, he looks really ill. He sat up in his bed and asked me what was
wrong. I felt so guilty; I practically threw myself at him and bawled out
exactly what had happened. He held me and told me it would be ok and it was
not my fault. I cuddled close; he is so sweet and loving. Robert told the
butler to get Johnny and bring him to the bedroom.
While he was gone Robert kissed me and said he didn't blame me for what
happened. I just held onto him, afraid of what was going to happen. He told
me that he would ask Johnny why he did what he did. When Johnny came he
said he couldn't say why he kissed me. I hid my face from him in Robert's
arms. I have never felt so bad, even though I didn't kiss back. Robert said
Johnny should leave and call him when he had a better explanation. When he
left, Robert said he was sorry. I asked why, he told me that he couldn't be
a very good boyfriend if other guys thought that they could get away with
anything. I told him he was a great boyfriend and I didn't want any other
guy but him. We just held each other for ages. I didn't want to leave but
it was getting late. I will some how manage to drag myself out of bed
tomorrow and see Robert. To make up for what happened, I will take care of
him until he gets better.
I don't think I will ever leave my room after what happened today. Robert
says it's not my fault, but I still think it is.
I was training with Johnny, Robert was still sick in bed. Anyway as we were
clearing up, I rested against the wall. Johnny came and stood in front of
me and told me I have been improving. I closed my eyes to take a breather.
I have been feeling rather strange around him lately. I think I may have a
little crush on him. As I had my eyes closed I felt two hands on my hips. I
thought he must think I have fainted so I opened my eyes to prove I was ok.
When I opened my eyes I was face to face with Johnny staring into his eyes.
He grinned, I could tell because he eyes changed. They smile when he
smiles. He whispered, close to my lips 'I really like you Hilary'. I was
too shocked to move, before I could say anything he kissed me! He was
really soft and gentle. He tried to pull me closer to him but I pulled
away. I got my blade and ran up to Robert's bedroom.
When the butler opened the door I was all ready in tears. Robert told me to
come in, he looks really ill. He sat up in his bed and asked me what was
wrong. I felt so guilty; I practically threw myself at him and bawled out
exactly what had happened. He held me and told me it would be ok and it was
not my fault. I cuddled close; he is so sweet and loving. Robert told the
butler to get Johnny and bring him to the bedroom.
While he was gone Robert kissed me and said he didn't blame me for what
happened. I just held onto him, afraid of what was going to happen. He told
me that he would ask Johnny why he did what he did. When Johnny came he
said he couldn't say why he kissed me. I hid my face from him in Robert's
arms. I have never felt so bad, even though I didn't kiss back. Robert said
Johnny should leave and call him when he had a better explanation. When he
left, Robert said he was sorry. I asked why, he told me that he couldn't be
a very good boyfriend if other guys thought that they could get away with
anything. I told him he was a great boyfriend and I didn't want any other
guy but him. We just held each other for ages. I didn't want to leave but
it was getting late. I will some how manage to drag myself out of bed
tomorrow and see Robert. To make up for what happened, I will take care of
him until he gets better.