9th April 2004
I wore my black mini skirt and a light pink button up shirt when I went
over to see Robert today. He spent the whole day sitting in bed. Poor guy,
he is really pale. He said I was his little angel, taking care of him. I
basically babied him all day. He didn't try to hide liking it! He tried to
convince me I needed to feed him! I know he is sick but not that sick. He
said he was really weak. Here is how the conversation went
Robert: Hilary I am so weak. Please feed me
Me: (In a baby voice) Oh, my poor Robbie. My sick baby. I guess I have to
take care of you and do your every wish.
Robert: Please, I am so tired
Me: (Still doing the baby voice) Robbie, my little sick boy. I know how to
make you fell better.
Robert: How will you do that my love?
Me: (Baby voice) - I have put my hands on my face trying to cover my
'blush'- Robbie
Robert: Yes Hilary
Me: (Same as before, seeing a pattern?) – I walk over to his bed, sit on it
and wriggle closer to him- Robbie, how about we
Robert: Yes
Me: We
Robert: Yes, yes
Me: Take you outside for some fresh air
Robert: Not what I was hoping for
Me: Oh and what were you wanting? –Lay my head on his shoulder-
Robert: Nothing out the ordinary
Me: Robert
Robert: Yes
Me: You were hoping for something else. Something outs the ordinary.
Robert: What ever gave you that idea?
Me: Was it the 'Yes, yes' or the grin on your face or maybe it was the look
of disappointment?
Robert: Sorry if you were offended.
Me: Its ok Robert. Maybe one day. You know
Robert: (Blushes) You really mean that?
Me: (Red as a beet) –Cuddle closer to him- Well yeah, if you really love
me. And you want to.
Robert: Hilary, there are no ifs. I love you.
Me: I love you too.
Robert: One day when we are ready then can we?
Me: Maybe.
I thought about our discussion. Would Robert and me really get 'that'
intimate? I love him so much, but I don't think I want to, you know the
first chance I get. Robert is my first boyfriend. I will have to see how
things go and anyway I am 15 so I have a year to legally wait. Ant even
then it's my choice if I want to. It a very big maybe, hopes he doesn't get
his hopes too high.
I wore my black mini skirt and a light pink button up shirt when I went
over to see Robert today. He spent the whole day sitting in bed. Poor guy,
he is really pale. He said I was his little angel, taking care of him. I
basically babied him all day. He didn't try to hide liking it! He tried to
convince me I needed to feed him! I know he is sick but not that sick. He
said he was really weak. Here is how the conversation went
Robert: Hilary I am so weak. Please feed me
Me: (In a baby voice) Oh, my poor Robbie. My sick baby. I guess I have to
take care of you and do your every wish.
Robert: Please, I am so tired
Me: (Still doing the baby voice) Robbie, my little sick boy. I know how to
make you fell better.
Robert: How will you do that my love?
Me: (Baby voice) - I have put my hands on my face trying to cover my
'blush'- Robbie
Robert: Yes Hilary
Me: (Same as before, seeing a pattern?) – I walk over to his bed, sit on it
and wriggle closer to him- Robbie, how about we
Robert: Yes
Me: We
Robert: Yes, yes
Me: Take you outside for some fresh air
Robert: Not what I was hoping for
Me: Oh and what were you wanting? –Lay my head on his shoulder-
Robert: Nothing out the ordinary
Me: Robert
Robert: Yes
Me: You were hoping for something else. Something outs the ordinary.
Robert: What ever gave you that idea?
Me: Was it the 'Yes, yes' or the grin on your face or maybe it was the look
of disappointment?
Robert: Sorry if you were offended.
Me: Its ok Robert. Maybe one day. You know
Robert: (Blushes) You really mean that?
Me: (Red as a beet) –Cuddle closer to him- Well yeah, if you really love
me. And you want to.
Robert: Hilary, there are no ifs. I love you.
Me: I love you too.
Robert: One day when we are ready then can we?
Me: Maybe.
I thought about our discussion. Would Robert and me really get 'that'
intimate? I love him so much, but I don't think I want to, you know the
first chance I get. Robert is my first boyfriend. I will have to see how
things go and anyway I am 15 so I have a year to legally wait. Ant even
then it's my choice if I want to. It a very big maybe, hopes he doesn't get
his hopes too high.