. Blessed By A Nightmare .
This chapter is a bit longer, sorry for those that were disappointed with chapter 2's length. And sorry for the long wait! More Anastasia and Kurando conflict for ya all!
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Anastasia - A Bitter Retreat
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I walked downstairs, after leaving Kurando to look over my acceptance letters, and headed for the phone only to be intercepted by my Aunt Lilliya. Rolling my eyes, I stopped and looked at her.
"What?" I asked annoyed.
"How are you feeling, dear? Want to talk? Is Kurando giving you any trouble?"
I forgot to mention that my Aunt is a Psychologist who's famous in Petrograd and makes it her mission to psycho-analyze every person that comes within fifty meters of her.
"Yes," I sighed heavily. "I'm feeling fine. No I don't want to talk and no, Kurando is not giving me any trouble. Now, will you please move out my way?"
Instead of moving, she started tsking away like I had done something wrong.
"Now what?" I asked.
"Nothing dear just that, if you ever do need to talk, I'll be here for the next four weeks…"
"Unfortunately," I muttered under my breath.
"…so feel free to come and find me okay?"
"Not likely," I said moving past her and towards the phone. Picking it up, I rang Lucia.
"Speak," she answered.
"Don't you mean, 'Hello this is Lucia'?" I said, rolling my eyes.
"If I had meant that, I would have said that," she replied. "Now what can I do you for?"
"Is Carla home?"
"No. Just me and the annoying one," she said referring to her younger apprentice dancer, who wanted to be exactly like her. Lucia found it frustratingly annoying. I found it amusing.
"Mind if I come over? I need to see a friendly face."
"That bad huh?"
"You have no idea," I sighed.
"Okay, I'll call Karin too."
"Right. See you soon," I said hanging the phone up. Then, walking into my mother's quarters, I said to her, "I'm going over to Lucia's. I won't be late."
"Anastasia," she said following me to the front door. "The whole point of Christmas is to spend time with your family. And you can't spend time with your family if you're off doing god knows what with your friends."
"Well, I've got news for you mother," I started, opening the door. "Firstly, I'm seventeen years old, which makes me almost an adult and responsible for my own actions. Secondly, if you hadn't have gone behind my back and cancelled all the plans I had organized with my friends, I wouldn't be going to see them right now. And thirdly, if I'm forced to give up the comfort of my own room to someone you know I don't get along with, then the least you can do is butt out of my life and stop treating me like a ten year old."
And without giving her the opportunity to reply, I closed the front door in her face and walked out on the street.
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"You did WHAT?" Karin asked walking back into the lounge room. We were all sitting in there munching on popcorn and cookies when I told them about my little outburst. "And you're still alive?"
"For now," I mumbled.
"God, if I had said that to my parents, I would have been shipped off to live with my great Aunt in Germany. You know, the one who lives in the mansion and has guards in every room, including the bathrooms?" Karin said sipping her coke.
"You mean the one that doesn't trust any of her own servants and watches them constantly to see if they're stealing anything from her?" Lucia asked. Karin nodded and bit into another cookie.
"Yeah well, everyone I know in my extended family is currently residing at my house so she can't send me anywhere," I said.
"Yeah, but she can lock you in your room with Kurando for his entire duration or until one of you goes insane and tries to kill the other," Lucia added.
"Not helping," I said throwing popcorn at her.
"Hey! Watch the carpet missy! You know Carla will kill me if she finds one speck of dirt on this carpet!"
"Then why are we sitting in here?" Karin asked.
"Makes life interesting," Lucia shrugged. I rolled my eyes and laughed. "Anyway, back to Ana, how is the whole Kurando-living-in-your-room going?"
"Well, two minutes after arriving at my house, he proceeded to tell me that I was immature, that I didn't have a heart and that if I did have one, it would be as cold as ice. Then he did a complete one-eighty on me and actually acted civil towards me."
"Civil how?" they asked in unison.
"Well after having a little discussion with my father, he found out that I had not yet accepted any offers the universities were throwing at me. So he then came up to me and asked me why I hadn't made a decision yet and asked where I got accepted."
"Wow," Karin said admirably. "That is civil."
"It won't last," Lucia added.
"What makes you say that?"
"Well you two have way too much sexual tension it's enough to drive me insane." She shrugged casually and stuffed her mouth with more popcorn, while I choked on the popcorn that was currently in my mouth. Karin just sat there dumbfounded.
"I'm serious. It's so obvious. I think you two should just get it over with already."
"Are you even listening to yourself?" I shouted. "You're talking about me and Kurando having…sex," I whispered the last part because I knew her little apprentice was lurking around somewhere listening in.
"Hey, it's nothing to be ashamed of. It's completely natural," she reasoned throwing her hands up.
"Not when it concerns me and Kurando it isn't. It's completely unnatural." I cringed at the thought. "He's my brother for god's sake!"
"You're not blood related so it's not incest if that's what you're worried about."
I looked at her incredulously. I couldn't believe what I was hearing!
"Are you serious about this Lucia…?" Karin questioned.
"No, I'm just saying it because of all the fun involved," she replied sarcastically.
"I think I'm going to throw up," I said leaning my head back and closing my eyes. "Can we please change the subject?" I asked.
"Why? This subject is interesting," Lucia said grinning.
"For you maybe," I answered. "For me, it's nauseating."
"Okay then, what did you have in mind?" The red head asked.
"Anything as long as it takes my mind off my family," I shrugged.
"Have you seen Joachim's brother? His name's Keith, he baked the entire class a big chocolate cake!" Lucia asked looking at me.
"No," I said shortly. "Nor do I want to."
"Ana, you have to get over this. It was a long time ago," Karin said.
"Easier said than done," I replied.
"Do you still have feelings for him?" Lucia asked leaning forward. "Because it's okay if you do. I mean, it's understandable if you do."
"I don't know," I sighed. "I mean, I still care about him. Whether that's love or like a lot, I have no idea. Besides, we were never in a relationship. We were just friends."
I turned to my companions and found them staring at me. "What do you guys think?"
"Well," Karin started looking uncertainly at Lucia. "I think that deep down you do still have feelings for him but they're not genuine feelings."
"Meaning?"
"What I think Karin is trying to say," Lucia interrupted. "Is that maybe you feel like you have to have feelings for him and no one else because he was such a huge part of your life."
"So, I'm preventing myself from not having a complete friendship because I don't want to betray him even though I can't betray him?" I rephrased.
"Umm…more or less," Karin said.
"That doesn't make any sense," I replied shaking my head.
"In a weird way it does," Lucia said. "He was your first everything, Anastasia. First friend, first kiss, first…" she hesitated slightly. "First guy you slept with. It's understandable if you still feel some sort of connection with him. A connection you don't want to break or jeopardize. But the fact of the matter is; he isn't yours anymore. And that connection isn't really there anymore either. You just think it is."
I looked from Lucia to Karin and saw that she agreed with what Lucia was saying.
Deep down I agreed with what she was saying too.
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After watching a couple of silent movies at Lucia's, we decided to go back over to my house because we couldn't go to Karin's as her grandmother was in a cleaning frenzy and had told her to get out of the house for the rest of the day.
We arrived at my place ten minutes later and found Kurando and my five cousins (all below the age of ten) getting ready to play kick ball in the street. As we got out of the car, Kurando jogged over to us, much to my annoyance.
"Well, well, look what the cat dragged back," Lucia said looking him up and down. "What brings you back to this neck of the woods?" she asked suspiciously.
I stared at Lucia with a big smile on my face. "What?" she asked looking at me.
"Lucia, we don't live in the woods," I pointed out.
"It's a figure of speech," she said trying to sound intelligent.
"I haven't been back in three years so I thought it was time to come home," Kurando answered.
"Liar," I mumbled.
"What was that?" he asked.
"I said, liar. Why don't you just tell them you dropped out of the university in Japan?" I asked.
"Well now I don't need to, do I?" he replied. He turned to my friends and asked them if they wanted to play a game of soccer with them.
"No thanks, I'm going to go inside and find Lillya," Karin said walking away. "I want to ask what she thinks of where I'm going to university."
"How about you Lucia?" Kurando asked coyly. "Or are you afraid of a little competition?"
Lucia looked at me and smiled. "Sure, why not," she shrugged. "I haven't got anything better to do."
"Ana?"
"No thanks," I said. "I'd rather shoot myself."
"Well by all means, go right ahead," he said.
"Hey, who's referee?" Lucia asked frowning. Kurando turned to look at me with a smile.
"No," I said quickly knowing what that smile meant.
"You're not doing anything," he reasoned.
"No. The last time I refereed a game, you accused me of cheating!" I said hotly.
"Because you were!" he snapped. "A blind man could have seen I was tripped!"
"Come on Ana, please?" Lucia begged tugging on my arm.
"Oh alright!" I gave in. "But this time I don't want to hear any complaining from anyone!" I warned looking pointedly at Kurando. He held his hands up in defeat.
"Not a peep," he assured me.
They pulled me out into the street despite my protests that playing on gravel was not the safest thing to do, and I soon found myself standing in the middle of the road surrounded by five feral children and two adults who only wanted to hurt each other.
I must be nuts.
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Look I finally updated this. Okay the part when Anastasia was talking Joachim kind of made me sick, I was going to make her "first everything" Yuri. But Anastasia and Joachim are close buddies in the game... so I guess this makes more sense? I don't know. :P I know why no one reviews this, it's too weird! I get lot's of nice reviews on my other fics, but this? No. Haha
I don't care really, I'm just writing this because it's interesting and it's for my dear Tiger. – hugs her- Here's to my reviewers!
michelle – Glad you liked it… and sorry for the long wait. I'm sorry for everyone!
aegis – Yes Kurando quit because... he's weird like that. And I hope you didn't look up John Barrymore. He's UGLY!
Rhea - I didn't find your review flamish at all. I mean, it wasn't aimed at me. So don't worry.
Vi3t Girl MOMO – This one is a bit longer. Sorry for the wait for you too!
Tiger5913 – Heeey look I updated just for you!!! I hope you're happy with this chapter. I decided to write it because I mean, it IS your gift fic. You're writing mine, I finish writing yours. I hope you're not disappointed with this chapter. Doesn't have much Kurando. Just Anastasia and her problems. But I know you're happy anyway cuz I updated. Love ya!
Kaparzen – The new school is fine, I actually made a few friends. I'm still glad you're reading this fics even though you don't have much SH knowledge. Ha, silly. I appreciate you reading this though!
llYuniell – I myself, haven't decided what Anastasia picks for a university. Haha. But I'll figure it out.
Rikainiel - Yes, I love this couple too! And me and Tiger are "homegirls" so of course we both obsess over Kurando and Anastasia. My idea is original I know, but I hope it's not too weird. Because I think it is. Thank you reading!
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