27th April 2004
Shopping with Enrique last week was great but this week has been awful so
far. Robert read my diary! I couldn't believe he would do that. It went
like this, he came round to my house and we went to my room to talk. I went
out to get us some drinks and while I was gone he picked the lock on my
diary and read everything! I came in and he had just finished reading my
last entry. I dropped the drinks when I saw what he was doing. It was like
he was stepping on my heart for the fun of it. I closed the door and we
were in silence for what felt like forever.
'Why did you read my diary? A place where all my thought feelings go
besides the day's events' I asked him, he still had it in his hand.
'I don't know'
'If you don't know then why did you do it?'
'I guess I wanted to know if everything you have said to me is true'
'What do you mean?'
'If you mean it when you say you love me'
'Why don't you trust or believe me?'
'I do its just I have never had anyone truly care for me'
'I do care for you'
'Really?'
'Yes don't you know how much I love you, or did you just skim my diary?'
'Actually I did' I couldn't help it I fell over laughing! Robert put my
diary down and picked me up. I feel so safe in his arms. He gently laid me
on my bed and knelt on the floor beside me. I rolled over so I could look
him in the face. We kissed gently for a while, then he got on my bed and
lay next to me then we carried on. We were snuggling close and kissing
deeply, Roberts' a really good kisser. He leaned over me and his hand was
slowly inching its way up my leg! I gently pushed him off, what if someone
walked in!
We sat up, I realised I was very warm. My sister knocked on the door and
said it was dinnertime. She also said mum wanted me to asked Robert if he
would like to stay for dinner. I can't believe my mum sometimes! Robert
said he would stay so he could get to know my family better and see if my
parents approved of our relationship. I said he didn't have to, but he
insisted.
It was not too bad, but still really embarrassing. Robert introduced
himself to my dad; they were both really formal. My dad's face went all
weird as if he was trying to probe Robert or something. My mum didn't ask
any questions, my brothers actually behaved themselves but they still
swapped their food in trades and Karin actually ate a full meal. It amazing
she didn't just eats one forkful but her whole plateful! After dinner my
dad and Robert talked and I washed up with Karin and mum. I could only pray
that my brother had homework. Mum and Karin were telling me what they
thought of Robert.
My mum said 'He is a very nice boy Hilary'
'Yeah and good looking' I will kill Karin later
'Karin!'
'What mum?'
'And your dad seems to think his is ok'
'Either that or dad secretly hates him' I will kill her when she is
sleeping
'Karin'
'Sorry mum'
'Well Hilary me and your dad approve of Robert, his is a nice young man'
'Hills is he any' but my mum gave Karin a look which made he go to her room
'Hilary'
'Yeah mum'
'Have you and Robert ever...'
'What?'
'Have you got intimate with him?' I dropped the plate I was drying.
'No, we have agreed that we will wait till we are both ready'
'Good but Hilary if you do'
'Mum I don't want to talk to you about this stuff'
'I know dear' I hate it when she says that, because she doesn't know. How
can she know what it's like to be in love? She is married all the passion
is gone, not to mention their lives are practically over. I guess that's
why mum keeps going on we should do things as a family. They just cant bare
the fact all the kids have lives of their own and they don't have any. They
want to ruin are social lives because they don't have one.
Robert told me before he left that he enjoyed meeting my family. It wasn't
that bad but I would have liked my parent to act a bit differently then
they did. They are so embarrassing sometimes. Robert said his parents would
be home for a while and he would like me to meet them. I said I would, then
he left saying he we would look for a dress to wear to dinner when I meet
them.
I wonder what his parents are like? I hope they are nice.
Shopping with Enrique last week was great but this week has been awful so
far. Robert read my diary! I couldn't believe he would do that. It went
like this, he came round to my house and we went to my room to talk. I went
out to get us some drinks and while I was gone he picked the lock on my
diary and read everything! I came in and he had just finished reading my
last entry. I dropped the drinks when I saw what he was doing. It was like
he was stepping on my heart for the fun of it. I closed the door and we
were in silence for what felt like forever.
'Why did you read my diary? A place where all my thought feelings go
besides the day's events' I asked him, he still had it in his hand.
'I don't know'
'If you don't know then why did you do it?'
'I guess I wanted to know if everything you have said to me is true'
'What do you mean?'
'If you mean it when you say you love me'
'Why don't you trust or believe me?'
'I do its just I have never had anyone truly care for me'
'I do care for you'
'Really?'
'Yes don't you know how much I love you, or did you just skim my diary?'
'Actually I did' I couldn't help it I fell over laughing! Robert put my
diary down and picked me up. I feel so safe in his arms. He gently laid me
on my bed and knelt on the floor beside me. I rolled over so I could look
him in the face. We kissed gently for a while, then he got on my bed and
lay next to me then we carried on. We were snuggling close and kissing
deeply, Roberts' a really good kisser. He leaned over me and his hand was
slowly inching its way up my leg! I gently pushed him off, what if someone
walked in!
We sat up, I realised I was very warm. My sister knocked on the door and
said it was dinnertime. She also said mum wanted me to asked Robert if he
would like to stay for dinner. I can't believe my mum sometimes! Robert
said he would stay so he could get to know my family better and see if my
parents approved of our relationship. I said he didn't have to, but he
insisted.
It was not too bad, but still really embarrassing. Robert introduced
himself to my dad; they were both really formal. My dad's face went all
weird as if he was trying to probe Robert or something. My mum didn't ask
any questions, my brothers actually behaved themselves but they still
swapped their food in trades and Karin actually ate a full meal. It amazing
she didn't just eats one forkful but her whole plateful! After dinner my
dad and Robert talked and I washed up with Karin and mum. I could only pray
that my brother had homework. Mum and Karin were telling me what they
thought of Robert.
My mum said 'He is a very nice boy Hilary'
'Yeah and good looking' I will kill Karin later
'Karin!'
'What mum?'
'And your dad seems to think his is ok'
'Either that or dad secretly hates him' I will kill her when she is
sleeping
'Karin'
'Sorry mum'
'Well Hilary me and your dad approve of Robert, his is a nice young man'
'Hills is he any' but my mum gave Karin a look which made he go to her room
'Hilary'
'Yeah mum'
'Have you and Robert ever...'
'What?'
'Have you got intimate with him?' I dropped the plate I was drying.
'No, we have agreed that we will wait till we are both ready'
'Good but Hilary if you do'
'Mum I don't want to talk to you about this stuff'
'I know dear' I hate it when she says that, because she doesn't know. How
can she know what it's like to be in love? She is married all the passion
is gone, not to mention their lives are practically over. I guess that's
why mum keeps going on we should do things as a family. They just cant bare
the fact all the kids have lives of their own and they don't have any. They
want to ruin are social lives because they don't have one.
Robert told me before he left that he enjoyed meeting my family. It wasn't
that bad but I would have liked my parent to act a bit differently then
they did. They are so embarrassing sometimes. Robert said his parents would
be home for a while and he would like me to meet them. I said I would, then
he left saying he we would look for a dress to wear to dinner when I meet
them.
I wonder what his parents are like? I hope they are nice.