Hey everybody, guess what. . . I did ok on my oral exam thingy. I even
spoke within the time limit (usually I'm always under it) so now I'm a
happy camper. Plus it's weekend!!!!!!
Lel Vagor/Meggers: I love it that you reviewed twice, it makes me feel all special. I know last chapter was different but I thought that it would take ages when I would follow Rita in battle and back. I'm happy you liked my flashback though.
Blahblah: I hate school too!!!!! It limits me from typing out my ideas. Grrrrr stupid math teacher for assigning so much work.
Passion Lover: I'm so happy you liked my chapters. Lucky me I don't have to share my pc or else there would be less updating. I'll do some explaining about why Rita went into battle, so hang on for the ride.
Arwen-evenstar: Thanks for the luck, it really helped. Anyway your friend D- Chan tells me you have been promoting my fic and I really have to thank you for that. I always love new readers but never expected my fic to be discussed at school or something. Thank you!!!!!!
D-Chan: See, I didn't forget you this time. I'm happy everything went ok with that exchange student. Anyway let me know what you think about this chapter.
Kate: I love shopping, though I didn't understand half you were saying. What, or better question, who is Good Charlotte??? Never heard of her before. And what's shibby???
Horsegrl: Not all the chapters are long but I try to type long chapters whenever I can.
The Lady Sorcha of Sevenwaters: Thanks for the luck, and I'm happy you liked the chapter.
Blackstardust: I don't think Rita will ever tell anyone about her entire past. She tells bits and pieces but the majority of her past she keeps hidden, with reason. Elladan almost exploded when he heard about a few things, but that was just the tip of the iceberg. The way I see it Rita wants to spare those around her.
Dancingfae: Yep just like Rita, she really should take better care of herself, but hey just read this chapter and find out some stuff. You haven't read RotK yet??? Do it, it's the best part!!!
LanierShazar: Yeah I'm happy as well that my writer's block is over, that was just a pain. And I know the school stuff is important, I have another round of finals in two weeks *shudders*.
Musicgrl: I had a flash during math so I am getting more and more ideas.
Elvish princess: You liked the flashbacks??? Now I'm happy because I thought people would hate that part.
Aislin: So happy you liked the chapter and don't worry, there will be no killing Rita as of yet. Depends on my ideas.
Lady of Legolas: I'm typing I'm typing, it's hard to keep up with my brain. It thinks much faster than I can type.
Shinigami29: I updated, hope you like. Oh I mailed you again so forgive me for not doing that for a few days.
MaverickGirl: You really loved them??? Now I'm all mushy and happy.
Zayn: Hope you catch up soon and see me thanking you, thanks for the nice comments!
Aurumlupi: You liked the ending, I was going to end it differently but since I was in a jam I just cut it off. Hope you'll like this chapter, it's a sad one again.
Kagome Ayla: Wow, I am so happy that you liked it. Thank your friend for me for pointing my fic out to you, I always love it when I have new readers and they let me know that they actually like my ramblings.
The Story Weaver: Here it is, the new chapter. Hope you didn't have to wait too long.
Sailorverystupid: Where did that thought come from, I hadn't thought of it yet. Just pretend hair growing is not happening ok.
Anime Elvengirl: Addictive, really? Wow here's your shot of fanfic, hope you like.
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, you have come this far so you should recognize my characters by now.
Rita woke up when she heard a scream. To her surprise she could see the form of someone who had been lying next to her and she supposed it was Elladan.
When she heard the screaming again she jumped from the bed, ignoring her protesting ribs, and ran as quickly as she could to the source of the sound.
In a healing room lay a soldier from Gondor, one of the men who had been injured during the attack she had lead. He was screaming in agony and Rita remembered he had been struck by an arrow.
Elladan and Aragorn were standing over him, trying to ease his pain, but Rita could see in their eyes that this man was not going to live on.
Suddenly the man's eyes turned on her and he began to call out for a woman called Leia. Not knowing what to do she neared and the man started to talk to her, lucky for her he spoke in Common.
"Leia, what are you doing here? You're suppose to be safe in the city." The soldier's voice sounded weak and raspy.
Rita knew immediately that the man was having hallucinations and thought her to be someone else. At that moment she decided to ease the man's sufferings and took his hand and started to speak with him.
"I just knew you were in danger love, I could not abandon you."
She pushed his hair out of his face and was shocked at how warm his head was, he had a burning fever.
"But. . . you shouldn't. . . " A coughing fit interrupted his words.
"It doesn't matter anymore now. I'm here now."
When the coughing subsided the man started to talk again. "I think I'm going to die Leia, it hurts so much. I am only sorry I have to break the promise to you. I know you wanted me to come back safely."
"Of course I wanted you to come back but what you did in battle was very brave, and I can't be mad at you for protecting our people's interest. I am very proud of you."
The man's eyes started to close. "I'm so tired Leia, I think I have to sleep for a while."
"Yes, sleep now. Everything will be better after you wake up I promise you." Rita held the man's hand until his eyes closed and he stopped breathing.
After the man had died Rita folded his hands on his chest and turned to leave the room only to find Elladan and Aragorn staring at her.
"That was very kind of you to do that Rita." Said Aragorn.
Rita almost glared at him, but quickly locked the emotion away. "I led him into the battle that got him killed, it was the least I could do. Now if you two can excuse me, I have to do some stuff."
She started to walk away from the room in a brisk pace, her emotions carefully hidden behind her walls. To everyone else she was a pillar of strength as she moved past the wounded and spoke with each of them for a few minutes. To everyone. . . but Haldir.
He had studied her from the minute she almost stormed into the room and saw the pain and anger she was hiding.
As soon as she moved to the balcony, the same one they had cried on together, he slipped onto it as well, unnoticed by anyone.
When he saw her she was clutching her hands in fists, struggling an inner battle. She didn't hear him approach so she jumped when he started to speak.
"What happened to upset you so?"
She spun around on her heels and stared in his eyes before answering. Haldir was caught in her gaze, her eyes seemed to radiate pain, anger and also confusion. In fact it was very like the look she had when Tiruvor died. Then she turned away from him again.
The moment Rita heard Haldir's voice she knew she couldn't hide from him, not like she and for Elladan and Aragorn.
"A man died today" she said her tone was calm and emotionless. Rita still didn't look at Haldir however. "He thought I was someone else and called out for me. I held his hand and stayed with him until he died."
Haldir didn't say a word for which Rita was extremely grateful. He just put his hand on her shoulder and stood beside her until Rita looked up at him.
"When do you think I'll be able to ride out again?" Rita asked. "Tomorrow or in another day or two I hope, those orcs are still a threat. They'll scatter so we'll have to strike fast and hard."
The elf looked at her in disbelief. Somehow he managed to find his voice again. "What do you mean when can you ride out again? You just got back and were injured, you need time to heal."
"I'll heal on the way, right now we need to get those orcs."
Haldir shook his head. "Men will be sent to kill every last orc but you won't be accompanying them. You will remain here and heal."
"Remain? No way I'm gonna stay here while others put themselves in danger. You can't order me around Haldir, I am my own person."
Haldir glared at her before he spoke again. "So you are your own person?"
"Yes"
"And you feel completely responsible for yourself?"
"Yes" gritted Rita, she was getting annoyed.
"So you think it is responsible to go into another battle while you are wounded."
Now Rita was silent, she pushed her head up in a stubborn way and didn't answer. At this Haldir nodded and spoke softer now, more gentle.
"You know yourself that this is foolish, yet you want to go. Why Rita, why do you want to go to battle again? Does it have something to do with the soldier you told me about?"
"It's just something I feel I have to do." Rita was being very stubborn, but in the back of her head she knew Haldir could be more stubborn than she could. After all, he could wait an eternity.
He made this known as well. "Don't try those tricks on me Rita, I mastered them long before you were born. Now answer me and I want an honest answer, not a fabricated one like you gave Elladan and the members of the fellowship."
Rita knew he was being serious and fought to get the words out. "It's just. . . I mean. . . It really is something I have to do Haldir. You don't understand, for so long I have been hiding from my feelings, locking them away as far as I could."
She turned away from his intense gaze and looked at the sky again. "For thirteen years I have been strong and I sacrificed everything to keep my sister safe. I am used to pain and a burden, it feels natural to take the burden from as much people as I can."
"Do you not understand that the burden is not only yours to bear, there are more who are willing to share the burden with you." Haldir was calm as always and Rita felt her high-strung nerves calm as she searched for an answer.
"I know, I do but still. . . I'm confused Haldir. For so long I locked things away, and it always succeeded. But now I'm here in Middle Earth. . . I can feel them slipping away Haldir. My walls are crumbling and I find that it is harder and harder to keep the feelings inside."
She started to pace back and forth and Haldir only observed as he listened to her. "I used to take it all in, the emotions I mean. I would take the pain and the anger and the sorrow and I would stuff them in the dark spot of my mind. Reminding myself my time would come and that everything would turn out ok."
"But now. . . " she continued "now my walls are nearly gone I aren't able to push the feelings away. I have to deal with it, be it in a conversation or in a nightmare. But that would mean I would have to bother others with my petty struggles. The only way to sort it out for myself is keeping myself busy. Especially battle helps. While slaying orcs I can let go of the anger and I feel useful. Ugh, am I making any sense here?"
"Yes Rita." Was all Haldir said because he knew there were still some things she needed to say.
"The members of the fellowship, Elladan, they all think they understand me but they don't. Sure, I told them about my past but not all, not even close to telling everything."
For a moment she hesitated, could she trust this elf with one of her most guarded memories. *Of course you can trust him you fool* her mind screamed *This is HALDIR, he is so much like you he would understand everything you would tell him* She slid down the wall and sat on the floor before she started to speak again. She noted he had followed her example and sat on the ground as well, still looking at her.
"I gave them the short and edited version of my past and that upset them already. I never told you did I?"
Haldir shook his head and motioned for her to continue.
"Well here's the short version. My dad is a drunk who can't keep his hands to himself and my mother left us a few weeks after my little sister was born. I protected her from him even if it meant getting hurt. Beatings were normal and I toughened up."
"That's pretty much what I told the fellowship and Elladan. They don't know about the fear of not making it to my room in time to escape dad's wrath. They don't understand why I push them away when I'm in pain or when I'm just confused. I've always been alone Haldir, always. I'm not used to consider other people when I make decisions, besides my sister of course."
"Correct me if I'm wrong but you speak about your sister as if. . . "
Rita finished his train of thought for him. "As if she's dead. Yeah she is Haldir. She died a few weeks before I mysteriously ended up in Middle Earth. That's another thing why I want to go into battle. I have no idea why I'm here, I mean it has to be an accident I'm here right cause if they wanted somebody special they would have gotten a warrior right?"
She looked at Haldir with questioning eyes and Haldir thought for a moment before answering. "I do not know whether you are here by accident or not. All I know is that you ARE a warrior, a good one at that. Besides, you have compassion and respect for those who deserve it. From my point of view, you were a perfect choice if you were actually chosen and your landing here wasn't an accident like you believe it was."
That was the most Rita had ever heard Haldir say in one breath and she was touched by his words. She gave him a small smile. "So you now understand why I have to go?"
"NO, all you told me does not give enough reason for you to go. Have you thought about what leaving for battle again will do for those who care about you?"
Rita was lost in thought once again as she remembered the looks she was given the first time she rode out to battle. Confusion and sadness, but most of all fear. Fear she wouldn't come back.
Haldir smiled as he saw the emotions go over her face (Now remember he knows exactly what to look for, it's not like Rita is an open book), he knew he had made her think about this.
"I can see you are now starting to understand what I'm talking about. When you weigh the reasons for going against the reasons for not going, do you see the reasons for not going are far heavier and outweigh the reasons for going?"
She let a huge sigh out and nodded dejectedly. "I see Haldir, but that doesn't mean it's easy. Fighting was such an outlet for me, I'm just not used to opening up to others. Though I've been doing more of that in the past few months than I have the past years."
"If it is ever needed, I'll lend you my ear."
Rita chucked at this. "The same goes for you, you know. I can see you have issues, I'm not that blind. I can see past your walls as well as you can see past mine."
"Lets save my problems for another time." Haldir joked. "I think we had our fair share of those today."
Rita grinned. "Your right, ugh I hate it how you are right all the time."
Haldir helped Rita up and the two walked back to where the others were, this time Rita had a sincere smile and was no longer troubled by her thoughts.
A/N: I am soooo sorry for stopping it here but once again my muse has left me. I don't know if I'll be able to update tomorrow, I'm going to spend the day with a friend. We're going to check out a university and after that we're going to shop. Oooh, guess what I just did. . . I just ordered books from bol.com. I ordered the English version of the Lord of the Rings, the Hobbit, the Silmarillion and the Unfinished Tales. It cost me less than I had thought but I am going to see if my aunt will sponsor me. Anyway, this is a long author note. Please let me know what you think about this chapter.
Lel Vagor/Meggers: I love it that you reviewed twice, it makes me feel all special. I know last chapter was different but I thought that it would take ages when I would follow Rita in battle and back. I'm happy you liked my flashback though.
Blahblah: I hate school too!!!!! It limits me from typing out my ideas. Grrrrr stupid math teacher for assigning so much work.
Passion Lover: I'm so happy you liked my chapters. Lucky me I don't have to share my pc or else there would be less updating. I'll do some explaining about why Rita went into battle, so hang on for the ride.
Arwen-evenstar: Thanks for the luck, it really helped. Anyway your friend D- Chan tells me you have been promoting my fic and I really have to thank you for that. I always love new readers but never expected my fic to be discussed at school or something. Thank you!!!!!!
D-Chan: See, I didn't forget you this time. I'm happy everything went ok with that exchange student. Anyway let me know what you think about this chapter.
Kate: I love shopping, though I didn't understand half you were saying. What, or better question, who is Good Charlotte??? Never heard of her before. And what's shibby???
Horsegrl: Not all the chapters are long but I try to type long chapters whenever I can.
The Lady Sorcha of Sevenwaters: Thanks for the luck, and I'm happy you liked the chapter.
Blackstardust: I don't think Rita will ever tell anyone about her entire past. She tells bits and pieces but the majority of her past she keeps hidden, with reason. Elladan almost exploded when he heard about a few things, but that was just the tip of the iceberg. The way I see it Rita wants to spare those around her.
Dancingfae: Yep just like Rita, she really should take better care of herself, but hey just read this chapter and find out some stuff. You haven't read RotK yet??? Do it, it's the best part!!!
LanierShazar: Yeah I'm happy as well that my writer's block is over, that was just a pain. And I know the school stuff is important, I have another round of finals in two weeks *shudders*.
Musicgrl: I had a flash during math so I am getting more and more ideas.
Elvish princess: You liked the flashbacks??? Now I'm happy because I thought people would hate that part.
Aislin: So happy you liked the chapter and don't worry, there will be no killing Rita as of yet. Depends on my ideas.
Lady of Legolas: I'm typing I'm typing, it's hard to keep up with my brain. It thinks much faster than I can type.
Shinigami29: I updated, hope you like. Oh I mailed you again so forgive me for not doing that for a few days.
MaverickGirl: You really loved them??? Now I'm all mushy and happy.
Zayn: Hope you catch up soon and see me thanking you, thanks for the nice comments!
Aurumlupi: You liked the ending, I was going to end it differently but since I was in a jam I just cut it off. Hope you'll like this chapter, it's a sad one again.
Kagome Ayla: Wow, I am so happy that you liked it. Thank your friend for me for pointing my fic out to you, I always love it when I have new readers and they let me know that they actually like my ramblings.
The Story Weaver: Here it is, the new chapter. Hope you didn't have to wait too long.
Sailorverystupid: Where did that thought come from, I hadn't thought of it yet. Just pretend hair growing is not happening ok.
Anime Elvengirl: Addictive, really? Wow here's your shot of fanfic, hope you like.
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, you have come this far so you should recognize my characters by now.
Rita woke up when she heard a scream. To her surprise she could see the form of someone who had been lying next to her and she supposed it was Elladan.
When she heard the screaming again she jumped from the bed, ignoring her protesting ribs, and ran as quickly as she could to the source of the sound.
In a healing room lay a soldier from Gondor, one of the men who had been injured during the attack she had lead. He was screaming in agony and Rita remembered he had been struck by an arrow.
Elladan and Aragorn were standing over him, trying to ease his pain, but Rita could see in their eyes that this man was not going to live on.
Suddenly the man's eyes turned on her and he began to call out for a woman called Leia. Not knowing what to do she neared and the man started to talk to her, lucky for her he spoke in Common.
"Leia, what are you doing here? You're suppose to be safe in the city." The soldier's voice sounded weak and raspy.
Rita knew immediately that the man was having hallucinations and thought her to be someone else. At that moment she decided to ease the man's sufferings and took his hand and started to speak with him.
"I just knew you were in danger love, I could not abandon you."
She pushed his hair out of his face and was shocked at how warm his head was, he had a burning fever.
"But. . . you shouldn't. . . " A coughing fit interrupted his words.
"It doesn't matter anymore now. I'm here now."
When the coughing subsided the man started to talk again. "I think I'm going to die Leia, it hurts so much. I am only sorry I have to break the promise to you. I know you wanted me to come back safely."
"Of course I wanted you to come back but what you did in battle was very brave, and I can't be mad at you for protecting our people's interest. I am very proud of you."
The man's eyes started to close. "I'm so tired Leia, I think I have to sleep for a while."
"Yes, sleep now. Everything will be better after you wake up I promise you." Rita held the man's hand until his eyes closed and he stopped breathing.
After the man had died Rita folded his hands on his chest and turned to leave the room only to find Elladan and Aragorn staring at her.
"That was very kind of you to do that Rita." Said Aragorn.
Rita almost glared at him, but quickly locked the emotion away. "I led him into the battle that got him killed, it was the least I could do. Now if you two can excuse me, I have to do some stuff."
She started to walk away from the room in a brisk pace, her emotions carefully hidden behind her walls. To everyone else she was a pillar of strength as she moved past the wounded and spoke with each of them for a few minutes. To everyone. . . but Haldir.
He had studied her from the minute she almost stormed into the room and saw the pain and anger she was hiding.
As soon as she moved to the balcony, the same one they had cried on together, he slipped onto it as well, unnoticed by anyone.
When he saw her she was clutching her hands in fists, struggling an inner battle. She didn't hear him approach so she jumped when he started to speak.
"What happened to upset you so?"
She spun around on her heels and stared in his eyes before answering. Haldir was caught in her gaze, her eyes seemed to radiate pain, anger and also confusion. In fact it was very like the look she had when Tiruvor died. Then she turned away from him again.
The moment Rita heard Haldir's voice she knew she couldn't hide from him, not like she and for Elladan and Aragorn.
"A man died today" she said her tone was calm and emotionless. Rita still didn't look at Haldir however. "He thought I was someone else and called out for me. I held his hand and stayed with him until he died."
Haldir didn't say a word for which Rita was extremely grateful. He just put his hand on her shoulder and stood beside her until Rita looked up at him.
"When do you think I'll be able to ride out again?" Rita asked. "Tomorrow or in another day or two I hope, those orcs are still a threat. They'll scatter so we'll have to strike fast and hard."
The elf looked at her in disbelief. Somehow he managed to find his voice again. "What do you mean when can you ride out again? You just got back and were injured, you need time to heal."
"I'll heal on the way, right now we need to get those orcs."
Haldir shook his head. "Men will be sent to kill every last orc but you won't be accompanying them. You will remain here and heal."
"Remain? No way I'm gonna stay here while others put themselves in danger. You can't order me around Haldir, I am my own person."
Haldir glared at her before he spoke again. "So you are your own person?"
"Yes"
"And you feel completely responsible for yourself?"
"Yes" gritted Rita, she was getting annoyed.
"So you think it is responsible to go into another battle while you are wounded."
Now Rita was silent, she pushed her head up in a stubborn way and didn't answer. At this Haldir nodded and spoke softer now, more gentle.
"You know yourself that this is foolish, yet you want to go. Why Rita, why do you want to go to battle again? Does it have something to do with the soldier you told me about?"
"It's just something I feel I have to do." Rita was being very stubborn, but in the back of her head she knew Haldir could be more stubborn than she could. After all, he could wait an eternity.
He made this known as well. "Don't try those tricks on me Rita, I mastered them long before you were born. Now answer me and I want an honest answer, not a fabricated one like you gave Elladan and the members of the fellowship."
Rita knew he was being serious and fought to get the words out. "It's just. . . I mean. . . It really is something I have to do Haldir. You don't understand, for so long I have been hiding from my feelings, locking them away as far as I could."
She turned away from his intense gaze and looked at the sky again. "For thirteen years I have been strong and I sacrificed everything to keep my sister safe. I am used to pain and a burden, it feels natural to take the burden from as much people as I can."
"Do you not understand that the burden is not only yours to bear, there are more who are willing to share the burden with you." Haldir was calm as always and Rita felt her high-strung nerves calm as she searched for an answer.
"I know, I do but still. . . I'm confused Haldir. For so long I locked things away, and it always succeeded. But now I'm here in Middle Earth. . . I can feel them slipping away Haldir. My walls are crumbling and I find that it is harder and harder to keep the feelings inside."
She started to pace back and forth and Haldir only observed as he listened to her. "I used to take it all in, the emotions I mean. I would take the pain and the anger and the sorrow and I would stuff them in the dark spot of my mind. Reminding myself my time would come and that everything would turn out ok."
"But now. . . " she continued "now my walls are nearly gone I aren't able to push the feelings away. I have to deal with it, be it in a conversation or in a nightmare. But that would mean I would have to bother others with my petty struggles. The only way to sort it out for myself is keeping myself busy. Especially battle helps. While slaying orcs I can let go of the anger and I feel useful. Ugh, am I making any sense here?"
"Yes Rita." Was all Haldir said because he knew there were still some things she needed to say.
"The members of the fellowship, Elladan, they all think they understand me but they don't. Sure, I told them about my past but not all, not even close to telling everything."
For a moment she hesitated, could she trust this elf with one of her most guarded memories. *Of course you can trust him you fool* her mind screamed *This is HALDIR, he is so much like you he would understand everything you would tell him* She slid down the wall and sat on the floor before she started to speak again. She noted he had followed her example and sat on the ground as well, still looking at her.
"I gave them the short and edited version of my past and that upset them already. I never told you did I?"
Haldir shook his head and motioned for her to continue.
"Well here's the short version. My dad is a drunk who can't keep his hands to himself and my mother left us a few weeks after my little sister was born. I protected her from him even if it meant getting hurt. Beatings were normal and I toughened up."
"That's pretty much what I told the fellowship and Elladan. They don't know about the fear of not making it to my room in time to escape dad's wrath. They don't understand why I push them away when I'm in pain or when I'm just confused. I've always been alone Haldir, always. I'm not used to consider other people when I make decisions, besides my sister of course."
"Correct me if I'm wrong but you speak about your sister as if. . . "
Rita finished his train of thought for him. "As if she's dead. Yeah she is Haldir. She died a few weeks before I mysteriously ended up in Middle Earth. That's another thing why I want to go into battle. I have no idea why I'm here, I mean it has to be an accident I'm here right cause if they wanted somebody special they would have gotten a warrior right?"
She looked at Haldir with questioning eyes and Haldir thought for a moment before answering. "I do not know whether you are here by accident or not. All I know is that you ARE a warrior, a good one at that. Besides, you have compassion and respect for those who deserve it. From my point of view, you were a perfect choice if you were actually chosen and your landing here wasn't an accident like you believe it was."
That was the most Rita had ever heard Haldir say in one breath and she was touched by his words. She gave him a small smile. "So you now understand why I have to go?"
"NO, all you told me does not give enough reason for you to go. Have you thought about what leaving for battle again will do for those who care about you?"
Rita was lost in thought once again as she remembered the looks she was given the first time she rode out to battle. Confusion and sadness, but most of all fear. Fear she wouldn't come back.
Haldir smiled as he saw the emotions go over her face (Now remember he knows exactly what to look for, it's not like Rita is an open book), he knew he had made her think about this.
"I can see you are now starting to understand what I'm talking about. When you weigh the reasons for going against the reasons for not going, do you see the reasons for not going are far heavier and outweigh the reasons for going?"
She let a huge sigh out and nodded dejectedly. "I see Haldir, but that doesn't mean it's easy. Fighting was such an outlet for me, I'm just not used to opening up to others. Though I've been doing more of that in the past few months than I have the past years."
"If it is ever needed, I'll lend you my ear."
Rita chucked at this. "The same goes for you, you know. I can see you have issues, I'm not that blind. I can see past your walls as well as you can see past mine."
"Lets save my problems for another time." Haldir joked. "I think we had our fair share of those today."
Rita grinned. "Your right, ugh I hate it how you are right all the time."
Haldir helped Rita up and the two walked back to where the others were, this time Rita had a sincere smile and was no longer troubled by her thoughts.
A/N: I am soooo sorry for stopping it here but once again my muse has left me. I don't know if I'll be able to update tomorrow, I'm going to spend the day with a friend. We're going to check out a university and after that we're going to shop. Oooh, guess what I just did. . . I just ordered books from bol.com. I ordered the English version of the Lord of the Rings, the Hobbit, the Silmarillion and the Unfinished Tales. It cost me less than I had thought but I am going to see if my aunt will sponsor me. Anyway, this is a long author note. Please let me know what you think about this chapter.