4th May 2004
I am not pregnant! But it was a close call; we will have to be more careful
in the future. I now share a bed with Robert, his head is currently on my
shoulder and he is hinting for us to repeat the night of May the 2nd. I
have just told him no, not until he uses protection. I was so scared what
if I was pregnant? Would I keep the baby? Or would I have an abortion? I
don't want to think about being pregnant until I want to start a family.
Robert has gone to the bathroom with a grin on his face, what is he up to?
I told Oliver about my scare this morning, he has promised that he will
tell nobody. I told him he is an extremely good friend, as I don't want
everyone to know about it. I still cant help but wonder what would of
happened if the test was positive. What would I tell my family and friends?
Would Robert leave me or would he stand by me and the dissuasion I would
make? I will be prepared from now on. I was so scared I couldn't look at
the test, Robert had to tell me. Speaking of Robert he has come back and
has put his head on my lap, I will have to see what he wants. As if I
didn't already know.