21st June 2004
Last night I went with Johnny to his school's formal event. I wore a short
emerald dress with a golden veil shawl and matching sandals. I also put a
green butterfly clip in my hair and some light make up. Johnny picked me up
in his limo. He looked good in his kilt; I didn't know why he was
embarrassed. It was ok, but the conversation was so dull and Johnny has to
put up with this all the time! We almost fell asleep!
Johnny was so embarrassed he was the only Scottish person wearing a kilt;
actually he was the only person wearing a kilt. I tried to make him feel
better by saying we could train tomorrow.
It was a bit too hot so we went out for some air. It was a lovely night,
the starts were out and it was a full moon shining on the lake near the
garden we were in. We had a talk,
'Hilary'
'Yes?'
'Thanks for coming, I mean after what I've put you through'
'So does this mean you've found someone?'
'No, I still love you'
'Oh Johnny'
'I meant what I said, I will always love you'
'Please find someone, because if you don't you will always feel this way'
'I know but Hilary can you answer me this question truthfully and from the
heart'
'Yes or course'
'If you weren't with Robert, would I even stand a chance?' What was I meant
to say; yes because right now I think I have a crush on you? Tell him that
sometimes I scare myself when I am sad because I want to run to him for
comfort not Robert. I feel so vain that my mind thinks those things; I
shouldn't think those things at all.
'I can't answer an if because I don't know the answer'. After that it was
announced that students had to return to their rooms and take their
partners home. Johnny drove me home the entire journey I kept thinking 'am
I truly happy with Robert? Or am I lying to myself?
I am so confused, especially when Johnny hugged me. Usually I would have
hugged quickly back and say bye. But I didn't; I wanted to stay there
longer and let him hold me. I feel so wrong and so guilty; I hate myself
for what I am feeling. I want to scream to Johnny I don't love him and for
him to get a life. No I don't want to do that, and that's why I am mad at
myself because I want to do the exact opposite.
I think I am in love with Johnny McGregor.
AN: Is Hilary really in love with Johnny? Will so break up with Robert?
What do you think she should do?
Last night I went with Johnny to his school's formal event. I wore a short
emerald dress with a golden veil shawl and matching sandals. I also put a
green butterfly clip in my hair and some light make up. Johnny picked me up
in his limo. He looked good in his kilt; I didn't know why he was
embarrassed. It was ok, but the conversation was so dull and Johnny has to
put up with this all the time! We almost fell asleep!
Johnny was so embarrassed he was the only Scottish person wearing a kilt;
actually he was the only person wearing a kilt. I tried to make him feel
better by saying we could train tomorrow.
It was a bit too hot so we went out for some air. It was a lovely night,
the starts were out and it was a full moon shining on the lake near the
garden we were in. We had a talk,
'Hilary'
'Yes?'
'Thanks for coming, I mean after what I've put you through'
'So does this mean you've found someone?'
'No, I still love you'
'Oh Johnny'
'I meant what I said, I will always love you'
'Please find someone, because if you don't you will always feel this way'
'I know but Hilary can you answer me this question truthfully and from the
heart'
'Yes or course'
'If you weren't with Robert, would I even stand a chance?' What was I meant
to say; yes because right now I think I have a crush on you? Tell him that
sometimes I scare myself when I am sad because I want to run to him for
comfort not Robert. I feel so vain that my mind thinks those things; I
shouldn't think those things at all.
'I can't answer an if because I don't know the answer'. After that it was
announced that students had to return to their rooms and take their
partners home. Johnny drove me home the entire journey I kept thinking 'am
I truly happy with Robert? Or am I lying to myself?
I am so confused, especially when Johnny hugged me. Usually I would have
hugged quickly back and say bye. But I didn't; I wanted to stay there
longer and let him hold me. I feel so wrong and so guilty; I hate myself
for what I am feeling. I want to scream to Johnny I don't love him and for
him to get a life. No I don't want to do that, and that's why I am mad at
myself because I want to do the exact opposite.
I think I am in love with Johnny McGregor.
AN: Is Hilary really in love with Johnny? Will so break up with Robert?
What do you think she should do?