Hey guys, I am so sorry for not updating earlier but with my exams and
everything it was hard. Plus I had a bit of a writer's block but that's
completely solved now. I have over 600 reviews!!! I am SO HAPPY about this.
I never thought my little fic could turn out so big.
A/N: You might think, ugh here she is again but please read this. I am a betareader for Meggers. I am very happy that she asked me (first time anyone asked) So please read her fic Navigation. It's under the penname Lel Vagor and I think it's really nice cause it's not your normal girl falls in ME. PLEASE READ IT!!!!!!!!!
Iluvenis: Why should I think you're annoying? You left me a review so I am happy about that! And it's never too late to start reading a fic, and I still have a few ideas so it's not over yet.
Mellon: Sorry about that, I had to make it a cliffie cause I had no idea what to write next. *snatches cookie* I never pass on cookies, I'm addicted to them.
LanierShazar: I can not guarantee that this chapter won't be bad, I love to confuse you guys ;) I'm happy you like the development between Haldir and Fioma, I thought they would be a cute couple.
Elvish princess: So many smiles, that made me feel all happy inside. Being sick did suck, but I'm all better now.
Soul: Haldir lives! Of course I love his character too much. Hope you reach this chapter soon so you can see me thanking you.
Kagome Ayla: I don't think Legolas should be all serious either so I made him a little crazy. . . good crazy though. Sorrie about the cliffie, but I updated didn't I?
The Great One: Wow!!!! You loved this chapter so much??? *blushes* Thank you, thank you thank you!!!!
Musicgrl: Happy you liked it. Did you really think it was funny? Here's an update so I hope you're happy now.
Linnie: Sorry, am I really that evil? *cowers in corner* I'll try to make this chapter extra long just to make up.
Kate: CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I knew you would do ok in the dance- competition!!! I am so happy for you, this chapter is now dedicated to you and your victory!!!!
Aurumlupi: Yeah, I know it's weird to have a day to plan the wedding but I looked in the book and there it said that they arrived and the same night they had the wedding, so I decided to stick with that. And you know me, after joy and happiness I write angst and loneliness. Just so you're warned.
Corinna: Yep, I like Fioma and Haldir together as well. Expect more development between those two in further chapters.
American Elf: You're already planning their wedding? Who said he was going to propose? ;) I just love to keep people in suspension.
Danceingfae: I have no idea about how Haldir will react to the scheme Rita and Legolas set up, so stay tuned.
Lucy: Sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry. Is this update ok?
MaverickGirl: Hihi, nervous Aragorn, it does sound weird doesn't it? But I thought it would fit with the event.
Dark_starz: You really like it every time I update? Thanks! I hope this chapter will live up to your expectations.
Prophecy: I love you enthusiasm, it just makes me all excited to write another chapter.
Sailorverystupid: Sorry about the mistakes, I'll fix the ones you pointed out cause those are just bad. I read it twice but I didn't even pick up on it. Thanks for pointing it out to me.
Shinigami29: I am truly deeply ashamed, I totally forgot to mail you. I feel all bad now cause I promised but my pc was off almost every day. I only checked my mail and some of my fav fics, so please forgive me. I'm gonna mail you after I updated ok?
Passion Lover: The reason I had Rita zone out on the wedding was because I have no idea to how a mix of Elvish and Gondorian customs would be like. And it IS a lot like Rita to feel things instead of anything else.
Tarilenea: Fioma does have a lot of time on her hands, she really is a good friend to Rita. A girl for Legolas? Hmmmm, I'll have to think about that.
The Lady Sorcha of Sevenwater: Sorry to keep you waiting for a while but I hope this chapter makes it up to you.
Lavender of the Shire: I love to write long chapters as well, but it just takes a lot of time so short chapters are an option when I have too little time.
Arwen-evenstar: I hope you're better already, but I think you are. I hope you'll like this chapter. I just checked my reviews and all and I noticed you've been reviewing since chapter 15 or so. Thank you so much for being such a faithful reviewer.
D-Chan: Hehehehe, I'm evil!!! You can't kill me cause I live in Holland and you. . . don't. Right? At least I hope so cause if you do live here I'll be afraid again. ;)
Aislin: Hey Aislin, I read your chappie a few days ago and I reviewed so that's all I have to say about that. I hope you get more ideas soon.
Blahblah: I am happy you thought this chapter was good and funny, it is always happy when I can please the ones reading your fic.
Meggers: I loved the chapters you sent me and I hope you post them soon. I advertised your fic as you might have seen cause you deserve a lot of reviews!!!
Lady of Legolas: I love that song from Shania but somehow my cd was damaged and I had to throw it out (
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Rita woke up very early the next morning, the sun hadn't even rose completely yet. The day before had been perfect.
The wedding had been nice, as had the reception. It was the moments after, the time with Elladan in the library, that made her smile on her way to the kitchen.
They had just sat together in the fluffy chair and kissed and softly talked. He had told her why Elrohir had been so anxious.
Elrohir decided to ask Atiel to marry him. It was actually quite uncharacteristic for an elf to ask such a thing so soon after courting had started. But Elrohir had figured that if he, an elf once so opposed to love, could fall so deeply with someone, marriage would be an easy thing.
She was happy for Elrohir and looked out for him just so she could tease him. Rita thought Elrohir deserved a nice girl. Sometimes she felt bad because she thought she was coming between the two brothers. Now she didn't have to feel so guilty anymore.
Rita rounded the corner to the kitchen and took an apple from the bowl of fruit. She decided to watch the city wake up from the lookout point and half jogged, half walked to the spot.
From her spot, which was the same where she and Pippin had noted the first arrival of the elves, she had the prefect view.
The city was still in ruins, it would take a long time before everything would be rebuilt. The huge difference was the vibe the city sent out.
When they had first arrived the city seemed gloomy, despite their victory, and sad. Now you could feel the liveliness come from the city, from the people.
Markets were normally again and children could safely play outside. Women walked arm in arm down the streets, stopping at the little shops that had been opened again.
In one word the city could be described as alive. The people had regained their hope for the future and they had their king to thank for that.
But beside the joy of the 'lighter days', the pain from the years of battle were still felt. Husbands, sons, fathers and brothers or just very good friends. All those who had died defending the country were still mourned daily.
Rita still had a hard time accepting she was seen as some sort of noblewoman, it was just a weird concept to her.
Whenever she would go out and talk to the people, she would be treated with the greatest respect. It was a strange feeling to be treated like a porcelain doll after all she had been through.
Of course, Rita wouldn't be Rita if she would accept this. She rebelled against being treated so gently by the people and soon the word was out on the street.
The Lady of Gondor wanted to be treated like any other. She would play and dance with the children and console those who lost someone close to them.
She was being herself, that was all, and the people knew this. It is why she was liked by almost all. There were still those who frowned upon her enthusiastic behavior and the way she dressed (she wore pants a lot) but those were in the minority.
When she had finished her apple and the sun had risen completely Rita started to make her way back to the palace.
She was lost in thought when she heard a cough behind her. she spun around only to meet the gaze of Lord Elrond. Feeling quite silly she was still so on edge, Rita smiled at the Elflord.
"Good morning Lord Elrond. I didn't see you there."
To her surprise he didn't return her smile as brilliant as she sent him and had a serious expression on his face.
"Good Morning to you as well Lady Rita. I am pleased to see you this morning for I wished to speak with you."
Quickly hiding her surprise Rita nodded and followed him as he started to lead her to a room where they could talk privately.
They ended up on a huge balcony that was open to all since it was entered through the diningroom. Rita sat down on one of the comfortable chairs as Lord Elrond sat down opposite to her.
Rita decided to stay silent, waiting on what Elrond had to say. She didn't have to wait a very long time as Elrond began to speak after scraping his throat.
"I have dreaded this conversation Rita for nothing good will come from it. Yet it is something I have to do, though I will not enjoy it."
She nodded once and he seemed to accept this since he continued.
"I have watched you from the moment you fell into our world and I must say I am surprised at how easily you managed to adapt yourself to the situation. You learned the ways of the sword and the language of the elves. You accomplished great things in such short time and I praise you for that."
"Thank you." was all Rita could say at that. She just knew that there was something else, something Elrond was not telling her.
"This is why what I have to say is so hard for me. You are a very nice and brave young lady with as much gentleness as boldness."
He sighed and massaged his temples, showing that he was quite stressed about something. "But even though you are a perfectly nice young woman I cannot accept you as a match for my son."
BANG!!! The bomb was dropped and Rita was completely shocked. *He doesn't think I'm right for Elladan. Why didn't he say something sooner?*
"You might think why I haven't told you this earlier but I have to admit that I had underestimated the feelings you and my son shared. I believed the feelings would fade as time past by, but time has learned that the time apart has strengthened your relationship. This was when I realized I had to intervene."
Rita opened her mouth to say something but was cut off by Elrond as he continued the conversation.
"The main reason for my decision is simple. My son is immortal and you are not. By staying together you will force him to give up on his family and his chance to pass to Valinor when he chooses to do so. You do not want that to happen now do you?"
After blinking a few times Rita found the right words. "Of course I do not want that to happen but it is not my choice. If Elladan wants to stay with me it is his choice to make."
Elrond shook his head. "Do not be foolish girl. Right now my son believes he loves you enough to give up on his immortality but what will happen once you grow old, once he grows old. He will hold it against you in the end. He will always regret his decision."
"But. . . "
"I say this for your own good as well as his. He deserves better than a mortal life, he deserves better than you."
Rita felt herself grow cold as the words came out of his mouth. Her inner walls, which were already half raised when the conversation started, were drawn up so high that even Haldir would never be able to read her feelings.
"So we finally come down to business." she said in a cold voice "I am not good enough for Elladan, son of the Lord Elrond of Rivendell. Excuse me for not having royal blood or something like that."
Elrond sighed; the conversation was not going like he planned it. "It is not like that though he should marry an elf from a noble family. I am merely looking out for my son's welfare. I have already lost a daughter, I will not loose my sons as well."
"Sons?" echoed Rita.
"Yes sons, as in both of my sons. They are closer than any other set of twins I have ever seen. They decided long ago that whatever choice one would make, the other would follow. So if you continue this relationship with my son you will not have one, but three deaths on your conscience."
"Three deaths?" Rita asked, even though she realized it must have sounded very stupid.
"Two deaths for my sons and one for Elrohir's mate, who will choose the same fate as her love. When they die it will be all your fault, for you are the reason they chose that path. Can you now see why the relationship between you and my son must end?"
*He keeps calling him my son instead of Elladan* Rita thought *I wonder why he keeps doing that*
"What do you want me to do?" she snapped. "I can't just turn a switch." Then her voice almost sounded pathetic. "I love him."
"If you truly love him, prove it by letting him go. Let him go to find the life he deserves, an eternal life with an elf-maiden."
With those final words Elrond left the balcony, leaving Rita to think about everything that was just said.
And thinking was what Rita did. Everything Elrond had said had struck a cord in her and she started to get lost in her memories.
~flashback~
"Get down here you worthless piece of scum. You are worth nothing, nobody wants you and even if somebody did want you, you'd never be enough. The guy would deserve better than you, hell. . . my dog deserves better than you!!!"
~end flashback~
That was one of good old dad's calm rants, the ones that were followed with a good beating. She stood on the balcony for a very long time, just thinking and remembering the past.
In the end she made a decision. *Elrond's right, Elladan does deserve better than me. I should have known better than to hope for a good ending, this is me we're talking about. I don't deserve a nice guy like him, no matter what anyone else says.*
Rita started to walk towards her room, she had no desire to run into anyone. *It's just like it always is* she thought *To all good things must come an end*
She sneaked back into her room and locked the door before she let herself fall into her bed, some lone tears escaping from her eyes.
She knew she had made the right choice, than why did it hurt so much?
A/N: I am so sorry about this but I need this twist so rest assured everything will turn out alright, it will just take a few chapters.
A/N: You might think, ugh here she is again but please read this. I am a betareader for Meggers. I am very happy that she asked me (first time anyone asked) So please read her fic Navigation. It's under the penname Lel Vagor and I think it's really nice cause it's not your normal girl falls in ME. PLEASE READ IT!!!!!!!!!
Iluvenis: Why should I think you're annoying? You left me a review so I am happy about that! And it's never too late to start reading a fic, and I still have a few ideas so it's not over yet.
Mellon: Sorry about that, I had to make it a cliffie cause I had no idea what to write next. *snatches cookie* I never pass on cookies, I'm addicted to them.
LanierShazar: I can not guarantee that this chapter won't be bad, I love to confuse you guys ;) I'm happy you like the development between Haldir and Fioma, I thought they would be a cute couple.
Elvish princess: So many smiles, that made me feel all happy inside. Being sick did suck, but I'm all better now.
Soul: Haldir lives! Of course I love his character too much. Hope you reach this chapter soon so you can see me thanking you.
Kagome Ayla: I don't think Legolas should be all serious either so I made him a little crazy. . . good crazy though. Sorrie about the cliffie, but I updated didn't I?
The Great One: Wow!!!! You loved this chapter so much??? *blushes* Thank you, thank you thank you!!!!
Musicgrl: Happy you liked it. Did you really think it was funny? Here's an update so I hope you're happy now.
Linnie: Sorry, am I really that evil? *cowers in corner* I'll try to make this chapter extra long just to make up.
Kate: CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I knew you would do ok in the dance- competition!!! I am so happy for you, this chapter is now dedicated to you and your victory!!!!
Aurumlupi: Yeah, I know it's weird to have a day to plan the wedding but I looked in the book and there it said that they arrived and the same night they had the wedding, so I decided to stick with that. And you know me, after joy and happiness I write angst and loneliness. Just so you're warned.
Corinna: Yep, I like Fioma and Haldir together as well. Expect more development between those two in further chapters.
American Elf: You're already planning their wedding? Who said he was going to propose? ;) I just love to keep people in suspension.
Danceingfae: I have no idea about how Haldir will react to the scheme Rita and Legolas set up, so stay tuned.
Lucy: Sorry, I didn't mean to make you angry. Is this update ok?
MaverickGirl: Hihi, nervous Aragorn, it does sound weird doesn't it? But I thought it would fit with the event.
Dark_starz: You really like it every time I update? Thanks! I hope this chapter will live up to your expectations.
Prophecy: I love you enthusiasm, it just makes me all excited to write another chapter.
Sailorverystupid: Sorry about the mistakes, I'll fix the ones you pointed out cause those are just bad. I read it twice but I didn't even pick up on it. Thanks for pointing it out to me.
Shinigami29: I am truly deeply ashamed, I totally forgot to mail you. I feel all bad now cause I promised but my pc was off almost every day. I only checked my mail and some of my fav fics, so please forgive me. I'm gonna mail you after I updated ok?
Passion Lover: The reason I had Rita zone out on the wedding was because I have no idea to how a mix of Elvish and Gondorian customs would be like. And it IS a lot like Rita to feel things instead of anything else.
Tarilenea: Fioma does have a lot of time on her hands, she really is a good friend to Rita. A girl for Legolas? Hmmmm, I'll have to think about that.
The Lady Sorcha of Sevenwater: Sorry to keep you waiting for a while but I hope this chapter makes it up to you.
Lavender of the Shire: I love to write long chapters as well, but it just takes a lot of time so short chapters are an option when I have too little time.
Arwen-evenstar: I hope you're better already, but I think you are. I hope you'll like this chapter. I just checked my reviews and all and I noticed you've been reviewing since chapter 15 or so. Thank you so much for being such a faithful reviewer.
D-Chan: Hehehehe, I'm evil!!! You can't kill me cause I live in Holland and you. . . don't. Right? At least I hope so cause if you do live here I'll be afraid again. ;)
Aislin: Hey Aislin, I read your chappie a few days ago and I reviewed so that's all I have to say about that. I hope you get more ideas soon.
Blahblah: I am happy you thought this chapter was good and funny, it is always happy when I can please the ones reading your fic.
Meggers: I loved the chapters you sent me and I hope you post them soon. I advertised your fic as you might have seen cause you deserve a lot of reviews!!!
Lady of Legolas: I love that song from Shania but somehow my cd was damaged and I had to throw it out (
DISCLAIMER: :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P
Rita woke up very early the next morning, the sun hadn't even rose completely yet. The day before had been perfect.
The wedding had been nice, as had the reception. It was the moments after, the time with Elladan in the library, that made her smile on her way to the kitchen.
They had just sat together in the fluffy chair and kissed and softly talked. He had told her why Elrohir had been so anxious.
Elrohir decided to ask Atiel to marry him. It was actually quite uncharacteristic for an elf to ask such a thing so soon after courting had started. But Elrohir had figured that if he, an elf once so opposed to love, could fall so deeply with someone, marriage would be an easy thing.
She was happy for Elrohir and looked out for him just so she could tease him. Rita thought Elrohir deserved a nice girl. Sometimes she felt bad because she thought she was coming between the two brothers. Now she didn't have to feel so guilty anymore.
Rita rounded the corner to the kitchen and took an apple from the bowl of fruit. She decided to watch the city wake up from the lookout point and half jogged, half walked to the spot.
From her spot, which was the same where she and Pippin had noted the first arrival of the elves, she had the prefect view.
The city was still in ruins, it would take a long time before everything would be rebuilt. The huge difference was the vibe the city sent out.
When they had first arrived the city seemed gloomy, despite their victory, and sad. Now you could feel the liveliness come from the city, from the people.
Markets were normally again and children could safely play outside. Women walked arm in arm down the streets, stopping at the little shops that had been opened again.
In one word the city could be described as alive. The people had regained their hope for the future and they had their king to thank for that.
But beside the joy of the 'lighter days', the pain from the years of battle were still felt. Husbands, sons, fathers and brothers or just very good friends. All those who had died defending the country were still mourned daily.
Rita still had a hard time accepting she was seen as some sort of noblewoman, it was just a weird concept to her.
Whenever she would go out and talk to the people, she would be treated with the greatest respect. It was a strange feeling to be treated like a porcelain doll after all she had been through.
Of course, Rita wouldn't be Rita if she would accept this. She rebelled against being treated so gently by the people and soon the word was out on the street.
The Lady of Gondor wanted to be treated like any other. She would play and dance with the children and console those who lost someone close to them.
She was being herself, that was all, and the people knew this. It is why she was liked by almost all. There were still those who frowned upon her enthusiastic behavior and the way she dressed (she wore pants a lot) but those were in the minority.
When she had finished her apple and the sun had risen completely Rita started to make her way back to the palace.
She was lost in thought when she heard a cough behind her. she spun around only to meet the gaze of Lord Elrond. Feeling quite silly she was still so on edge, Rita smiled at the Elflord.
"Good morning Lord Elrond. I didn't see you there."
To her surprise he didn't return her smile as brilliant as she sent him and had a serious expression on his face.
"Good Morning to you as well Lady Rita. I am pleased to see you this morning for I wished to speak with you."
Quickly hiding her surprise Rita nodded and followed him as he started to lead her to a room where they could talk privately.
They ended up on a huge balcony that was open to all since it was entered through the diningroom. Rita sat down on one of the comfortable chairs as Lord Elrond sat down opposite to her.
Rita decided to stay silent, waiting on what Elrond had to say. She didn't have to wait a very long time as Elrond began to speak after scraping his throat.
"I have dreaded this conversation Rita for nothing good will come from it. Yet it is something I have to do, though I will not enjoy it."
She nodded once and he seemed to accept this since he continued.
"I have watched you from the moment you fell into our world and I must say I am surprised at how easily you managed to adapt yourself to the situation. You learned the ways of the sword and the language of the elves. You accomplished great things in such short time and I praise you for that."
"Thank you." was all Rita could say at that. She just knew that there was something else, something Elrond was not telling her.
"This is why what I have to say is so hard for me. You are a very nice and brave young lady with as much gentleness as boldness."
He sighed and massaged his temples, showing that he was quite stressed about something. "But even though you are a perfectly nice young woman I cannot accept you as a match for my son."
BANG!!! The bomb was dropped and Rita was completely shocked. *He doesn't think I'm right for Elladan. Why didn't he say something sooner?*
"You might think why I haven't told you this earlier but I have to admit that I had underestimated the feelings you and my son shared. I believed the feelings would fade as time past by, but time has learned that the time apart has strengthened your relationship. This was when I realized I had to intervene."
Rita opened her mouth to say something but was cut off by Elrond as he continued the conversation.
"The main reason for my decision is simple. My son is immortal and you are not. By staying together you will force him to give up on his family and his chance to pass to Valinor when he chooses to do so. You do not want that to happen now do you?"
After blinking a few times Rita found the right words. "Of course I do not want that to happen but it is not my choice. If Elladan wants to stay with me it is his choice to make."
Elrond shook his head. "Do not be foolish girl. Right now my son believes he loves you enough to give up on his immortality but what will happen once you grow old, once he grows old. He will hold it against you in the end. He will always regret his decision."
"But. . . "
"I say this for your own good as well as his. He deserves better than a mortal life, he deserves better than you."
Rita felt herself grow cold as the words came out of his mouth. Her inner walls, which were already half raised when the conversation started, were drawn up so high that even Haldir would never be able to read her feelings.
"So we finally come down to business." she said in a cold voice "I am not good enough for Elladan, son of the Lord Elrond of Rivendell. Excuse me for not having royal blood or something like that."
Elrond sighed; the conversation was not going like he planned it. "It is not like that though he should marry an elf from a noble family. I am merely looking out for my son's welfare. I have already lost a daughter, I will not loose my sons as well."
"Sons?" echoed Rita.
"Yes sons, as in both of my sons. They are closer than any other set of twins I have ever seen. They decided long ago that whatever choice one would make, the other would follow. So if you continue this relationship with my son you will not have one, but three deaths on your conscience."
"Three deaths?" Rita asked, even though she realized it must have sounded very stupid.
"Two deaths for my sons and one for Elrohir's mate, who will choose the same fate as her love. When they die it will be all your fault, for you are the reason they chose that path. Can you now see why the relationship between you and my son must end?"
*He keeps calling him my son instead of Elladan* Rita thought *I wonder why he keeps doing that*
"What do you want me to do?" she snapped. "I can't just turn a switch." Then her voice almost sounded pathetic. "I love him."
"If you truly love him, prove it by letting him go. Let him go to find the life he deserves, an eternal life with an elf-maiden."
With those final words Elrond left the balcony, leaving Rita to think about everything that was just said.
And thinking was what Rita did. Everything Elrond had said had struck a cord in her and she started to get lost in her memories.
~flashback~
"Get down here you worthless piece of scum. You are worth nothing, nobody wants you and even if somebody did want you, you'd never be enough. The guy would deserve better than you, hell. . . my dog deserves better than you!!!"
~end flashback~
That was one of good old dad's calm rants, the ones that were followed with a good beating. She stood on the balcony for a very long time, just thinking and remembering the past.
In the end she made a decision. *Elrond's right, Elladan does deserve better than me. I should have known better than to hope for a good ending, this is me we're talking about. I don't deserve a nice guy like him, no matter what anyone else says.*
Rita started to walk towards her room, she had no desire to run into anyone. *It's just like it always is* she thought *To all good things must come an end*
She sneaked back into her room and locked the door before she let herself fall into her bed, some lone tears escaping from her eyes.
She knew she had made the right choice, than why did it hurt so much?
A/N: I am so sorry about this but I need this twist so rest assured everything will turn out alright, it will just take a few chapters.