25th September 2004
Well it turns out I'm not pregnant, that's the last time I trust a test that cost one euro. Robert seemed disappointed, I asked him why; he said he was sort of looking forward to being a father. I said after we're married we can talk about having a family. Robert's mother has cooled down; well actually she is pleased I'm not pregnant. Johnny keeps looking at me with those puppy dog eyes of his. He makes me think, am I doing the right thing? I am very young and what's the rush? He's not been himself since the announcement party. I don't think I'm ready for this, it's happening too fast!