10th October 2004
I can't go through with this! I can't marry Robert! One thing I'm not ready and another thing, I'm in love with Johnny! There I said it. Well actually wrote it. Anyway I was pacing my room when Johnny came it, he's got nice eyes. Focus, he came up to me and before I got a word out he pulled me into a deep kiss. For all he knew I could have been chewing gum! I kissed back, so thank god the door was closed. It took me until I almost collapsed from lack of oxygen to realise what I was doing and with whom. I pulled back to breath, he is a really good kisser, did I write that?
Again before I could say a word he interrupted, 'Hilary, I love you so I can't let you marry Robert' then he went on reason why. To make he stop I kissed him, that caught his attention.
'Johnny, I was going to call of the wedding anyway and I' but then I covered my mouth.
'You what?' I still had my hands on my mouth when I said
'I love you' he took away my hands and kissed my nose.
'I love you too' then he held me. How am I going to tell Robert we're through?