23rd October 2004
I know now I defiantly want to marry Robert. I love him!
I went shopping for my dress. It's gorgeous! It's white with gold trimming and there's a split in the middle from my waist to the bottom. It has white frill petticoats. I have a little gold crown with my veil attached to it. I've also got gold glove that go past my elbows with gold trimming. And to top it off I've got a white fur cloak with a hood, gold trimming and fastenings.
It a winter wedding so that's why I have a fur cloak, well it practical.
Enrique, Oliver and my mother were with me when I tried it on. When I came out of the dressing room they were all in tears. They said I looked like a winter angel. Enrique hugged my saying 'look at our little girl, she's grown up!' my mother had to correct him that was what she was meant to say.
I'm growing my hair so I can have it up in an elegant style. My, shoes, which I've forgotten to mention, are white with little crowns sewn on the front and white fur around my ankles.
My bouquet will be white roses. My dress isn't puffy at all, it's sleek. At the bottom its bell shaped though. I have to have this frame under my dress, I feel like a building under construction.
Robert keeps pinning for sex, I keep saying no. Is that all he wants? I said 'if you're a very good boy, I'll give you a very special wedding present' he was practically drooling!
Well I' am getting a corset, it will help hold back any sneaky weight I might of put on! I probably will go will the whole thing, stockings etc. Well Robert would of gone three months without. I don't want our relationship to revolve around the bedroom.
I think Robert sensed this because he took me for a moonlight dinner on his yacht on the lake near the castle. He can really be romantic sometimes.
We talked about having a family. We don't want to rush into it. Because we want to spend a few years of married life just the two of us.
Robert won't tell me where he is taking me on our honeymoon. I wonder where he's taking me?