We Make Our Own Choices
Summary: Dil and Mark have been going out for three months. Things are going good until something happens, forcing Mark to realize that he is danger to Dil. Will he end it or will he ignore it? This contains slash... Please don't read it you don't like it... I don't like flames saying crap like 'Your story is sick' and crap like that.
Warnings: Slash, harsh language, and some kissing between two dudes...
A/N: I admit, I had a really hard time writing this chapter. I couldn't figure out how the others should react. I got some ideas from the story "Gone" by Witchytara25. You people have to read that story... it seriously rocks! Uhh... I also got help from my friend Jeff, (we were discussing the reaction). Thanks Jeff! ::grin::
Dil and Mark walked back to the table and sat down. Each one lost in thoughts, and worries on how the others would react. Dil didn't know if he can stand losing friends, and Mark didn't know if he could stand being the cause of his boyfriend losing his friends. The others noticed the distracted look on each of their faces, but decided not to say anything. They would tell them after all right?
They finshed up their lunch and decided to hit the music shop. Dil and Tommy went off alone, leaving the gang behind them. They needed time to talk and discuss what was going to happen. Plus Dil needed to know that Tommy supported him, and wasn't going to run off with the others. That is if they didn't accept him and Mark, though he knew they would.
"Tommy, I'm scared," Dil told him in a small voice.
"Don't worry, bro. I'm sure they will accept it, I know I did," he brother tried to reassure, concern shining in his eyes.
"I hope so, T. I don't know what I would do if I lost my friends. I know I wouldn't leave Mark, but what if they decide that I'm not good enough. What if they decide that I'm just a sick freak. Tommy what if they don't want to hang around me anymore. Worst of all, T what if they stop hanging out with you because of me?" Dil asked close to tears.
"If they decide that you are a freak and they stop hanging out with me, then it's their problem. Dil, I'm not going to abandon you because of what they think. You are my brother, nothing is going to change that. NOTHING!" Tommy told him.
"I hope so, T. I don't think I can stand the thought of you losing friends because of me. T, we have been through a lot together and I don't want to ruin it. I don't want to lose friends," he stated as his voice started to crack.
"Don't worry little bro, you have me, and you have Mark," Tommy told him pulling him into a hug. "Plus if they have a problem with it, then they just lost one of the best friends anyone could ever have."
"Thanks, T, let's go home," he said pulling away and smiling at his brother.
"Yeah, let me just buy this cd," Tommy replied.
The two walked over to the others and paid for the stuff they wanted. They exited the store and out into the main area of the mall. They walked the through the huge place and out to the parking lot. The car was located toward the back, so typically there was complaining happening.
"When is band practice?" Dil asked.
"We can meet ten minutes after we get home," Chuckie replied.
The car ride contained jokes and Switchfoot blasting through the speakers.[1] Dil and Mark looked at each other, worry clearing shining in their eyes. They somehow knew what the other was thinking because they just nodded at each other. No one seemed to see them, except Kimi who was currently sitting in the back with them.
She looked at each of them and her mind got to thinking. 'Hmm... they disappear together, they hang out all the time. They are close... maybe to close.' she thought. 'Could they be? I doubt it. You're looking to far into this.' she concluded looking out the window.
They arrived on their street about five minutes later. Happily they got out of the car and each went their seperate ways. Tommy, Mark, and Dil all walked up the path that lead to the Pickles' household. Dil and Mark both worried about the upcoming event and Tommy concerned about the two, even scared for them. They entered the house, relieved that their parents weren't home.
"Alright you two, don't worry about the others," Tommy told them.
"T, I don't want you to lose friends if they don't understand," Dil said in a whiny voice.
"If they can't accept you Dil, than they aren't good friends. Don't worry bro, I'm with you to the end; nothing is going to break us apart," he reassured. 'I hope this will help ease the stress of telling.' Tommy thought to himself.
"Tommy, thank you for being so calm about this, Dil is lucky to have a brother as good as you," Mark told him.
"Thanks Mark, I'm happy that he is with you and not some jerk."
Dil got up and hugged his brother, happy that he had him. Happy, that someone actually understood, and didn't judge him. Happy, that the person whom he cared for the most didn't betray him. He was just happy that Tommy was his brother.
Mark stood and hugged both of them. Happy that someone understood. Happy that he was accepted. Happy that Tommy was there for him too, and just happy that Dil and Tommy were still close.
The three broke the hug alittle while later. They had to be at Phil and Lil's house in five minutes. The two were scared, nervous, worried, excited, really just a bunch of feelings. Tommy was just as bad, scared that his brother and his brother's boyfriend were going to be outcasted, hated, discrimated against, or worst of all, hurt. He wasn't sure if Dil could take that kind of emotional pain.
They walked slowly to the house, stopping every once in awhile to look at each other. To shot reassuring glances and nods. They finally arrived after three minutes. The others greeted them and they all sat around. The two guys decided to tell the others about them after practice was over, so that they could actually play, if things turned for the worst. The practice lasted about two hours and by the time it was over Dil and Mark were almost green.
Dil looked over at Mark, and Mark looked at Dil, and they nodded. They slowly moved next to each other and looked at the others. Dil spoke up.
"Guys, there is something I need to tell you," Dil said shyly.
They turned and looked at him, and fell silent noticing the serious look on his face.
"What's up man? Why so serious?" Phil asked.
"Well you see the thing it that uhh...," Dil told them.
"Come on Dil, tell us. We are friends, you can tell us anything," Chuckie urged him.
"Wellyouseeguysi'mgayandMarkandIaregoingout!" he said in one breathe.
"What was that?" Lil asked. "You were mumbling."
"What he said was, 'Well you see guys I'm gay and going out with Mark.'" Mark told them looking down.
An akward silence fell over the room. Each of the kids looked at each others, with confused looks on their faces. Phil than started to laugh, and the others joined in.
"That's... funny... awesome... joke!" Phil said in between breaths.
"It's true," Tommy told them standing next to his brother.
"WHAT???? HOW? WHEN? WHERE?" they all choked out.
"It's true guys, Mark and I have been going out for three months," he told them in a little voice.
"You're not serious," Phil said then added."You're really a little fag?"
"Come on don't be like this," Dil told him, tears shining in his eyes.
"Dil, you are gay... You are fucking gay. I hate you! God I hate you so fucking much!" Lil told him standing. "Get out of my house NOW!!!"
"P...please don't be like this," he pleaded tears rolling down his cheeks.
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!" Phil yelled.
Dil looked over at Chuckie and noticed the angry look on his face. He turned to Kimi, surprised to see understanding in her eyes. Tommy stood next to Dil, with an angry look. Tommy looked straight at Phil and Lil.
"You guys, calm down," he said.
"CALM DOWN TOMMY???? CALM DOWN?! YOU'RE BROTHER IS GAY, HE LIKES THE SAME SEX! AND YOU WANT US TO CALM DOWN?" Phil shouted.
"Yeah, Tommy, your brother is just a little fag," Chuckie told him, getting over the shock.
"Chuckie, you too?" Tommy asked in shocked.
"Yes, and to think I actually let him stay over," Chuckie said.
Dil looked at his 'friends' and ran out of the house, Mark following. Tommy turned toward his friends and glared. He to left the house in search of his brother, Kimi got up to follow.
"Where are you going Kimi?" Chuckie asked.
"With Tommy and Dil and Mark," she said in a tone that left no arguements.
Chuckie and the others looked at her as she left the house. She ran toward the Pickles' house. She entered slowly and made her way up to Dil's room. She could hear faint sobbing coming from the room and pushed open the door.
There sitting on the bed was Dil, Tommy, and Mark attempting to comfort him. Kimi walked toward them with caution, not sure what was going to happen.
"Kimi, what are you doing here?" Tommy asked surprised that she actually came.
"I knew," she said. "Well, I had a feeling that they were together."
"It's doesn't bother you?" Dil asked looking up with watery blood shot eyes.
"No, it doesn't, we have been friends for to long to let this come between us. Give the others time to get over it," she replied gently.
She sat on the bed behind him and rubbed small circles on his back. Something that her mother did, when she was down in the blues. Tommy and Mark watched amazed and happy that Kimi had understood. That Kimi didn't throw the friendship out because of it.
"Thanks," Mark told her.
"For what?" she replied confused.
"For understanding," he replied.
Dil looked up at her and smiled, a real smile. She smiled back, happy that she had made the right choice. Happy that she understood. Happy that she didn't leave him because of something as stupid as love. Most of all she was happy because she didn't let the others influnce her to make the wrong choice.
A/N: What did you think? I thought it was ok... I didn't really like the ending... I hope you enjoyed it... Did I make the characters seem believable?
[1] I like to add a lot of music in my stories... ::sigh:: Plus I got the cd yesterday...
Review Thanks:
fanfic-reader01: I feel special now! Thank you for adding me to your favorite authors list thingie! It brightened my day! ::grin:: Here's your update!!!! Thanks for the review you get a Christmas cookie!
Benji's Riot Gurl: That rocks... I want to get the Rancid cd... but I have to save my money, a guitar ain't going to buy itself you know? lol My dog got me an AFI doll for christmas... I love my doggy!! ::Grin:: I used to like NSYNC too... ::shudder:: I was young and hopeless... Which is an awesome Good Charlotte song! Well thanks for the review, you get a Christmas cookie shaped like Benji!
Corinthales: Actually yes the calling someone in Vegas was referring to you! It's your fault that I didn't get it posted sooner... how does that make you feel? Thanks for helping me with this chapter! You can have a sock!
Witchytara25: Thanks for the review! You're story helped me... It rocked!!! I'm not sure if what I wrote was believable... but I thought it was... tell me what you think? Thanks! You get a Christmas cookie!!!
A/N: Yo!!! Ok... The next chapter will be up soon I promise... I also have a feeling this is a story I'm actually going to complete! ::grin:: I have the whole plot thingie worked out and all this stuff! I hope you enjoyed this chapter! As always reviews are wanted! If you send me one I will love you forever and a day... Well I'm gonna go back to the Christmas Party that my 'rents are hosting... Fun... a lot of people who are like 20 years older than me and their stuck up kids. Well bye and MERRY CHRISTMAS.... if you don't do Christmas HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE AN AWESOME NEW YEAR... if I get lazy and don't update until after it... ::sigh, and waves::
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Summary: Dil and Mark have been going out for three months. Things are going good until something happens, forcing Mark to realize that he is danger to Dil. Will he end it or will he ignore it? This contains slash... Please don't read it you don't like it... I don't like flames saying crap like 'Your story is sick' and crap like that.
Warnings: Slash, harsh language, and some kissing between two dudes...
A/N: I admit, I had a really hard time writing this chapter. I couldn't figure out how the others should react. I got some ideas from the story "Gone" by Witchytara25. You people have to read that story... it seriously rocks! Uhh... I also got help from my friend Jeff, (we were discussing the reaction). Thanks Jeff! ::grin::
Dil and Mark walked back to the table and sat down. Each one lost in thoughts, and worries on how the others would react. Dil didn't know if he can stand losing friends, and Mark didn't know if he could stand being the cause of his boyfriend losing his friends. The others noticed the distracted look on each of their faces, but decided not to say anything. They would tell them after all right?
They finshed up their lunch and decided to hit the music shop. Dil and Tommy went off alone, leaving the gang behind them. They needed time to talk and discuss what was going to happen. Plus Dil needed to know that Tommy supported him, and wasn't going to run off with the others. That is if they didn't accept him and Mark, though he knew they would.
"Tommy, I'm scared," Dil told him in a small voice.
"Don't worry, bro. I'm sure they will accept it, I know I did," he brother tried to reassure, concern shining in his eyes.
"I hope so, T. I don't know what I would do if I lost my friends. I know I wouldn't leave Mark, but what if they decide that I'm not good enough. What if they decide that I'm just a sick freak. Tommy what if they don't want to hang around me anymore. Worst of all, T what if they stop hanging out with you because of me?" Dil asked close to tears.
"If they decide that you are a freak and they stop hanging out with me, then it's their problem. Dil, I'm not going to abandon you because of what they think. You are my brother, nothing is going to change that. NOTHING!" Tommy told him.
"I hope so, T. I don't think I can stand the thought of you losing friends because of me. T, we have been through a lot together and I don't want to ruin it. I don't want to lose friends," he stated as his voice started to crack.
"Don't worry little bro, you have me, and you have Mark," Tommy told him pulling him into a hug. "Plus if they have a problem with it, then they just lost one of the best friends anyone could ever have."
"Thanks, T, let's go home," he said pulling away and smiling at his brother.
"Yeah, let me just buy this cd," Tommy replied.
The two walked over to the others and paid for the stuff they wanted. They exited the store and out into the main area of the mall. They walked the through the huge place and out to the parking lot. The car was located toward the back, so typically there was complaining happening.
"When is band practice?" Dil asked.
"We can meet ten minutes after we get home," Chuckie replied.
The car ride contained jokes and Switchfoot blasting through the speakers.[1] Dil and Mark looked at each other, worry clearing shining in their eyes. They somehow knew what the other was thinking because they just nodded at each other. No one seemed to see them, except Kimi who was currently sitting in the back with them.
She looked at each of them and her mind got to thinking. 'Hmm... they disappear together, they hang out all the time. They are close... maybe to close.' she thought. 'Could they be? I doubt it. You're looking to far into this.' she concluded looking out the window.
They arrived on their street about five minutes later. Happily they got out of the car and each went their seperate ways. Tommy, Mark, and Dil all walked up the path that lead to the Pickles' household. Dil and Mark both worried about the upcoming event and Tommy concerned about the two, even scared for them. They entered the house, relieved that their parents weren't home.
"Alright you two, don't worry about the others," Tommy told them.
"T, I don't want you to lose friends if they don't understand," Dil said in a whiny voice.
"If they can't accept you Dil, than they aren't good friends. Don't worry bro, I'm with you to the end; nothing is going to break us apart," he reassured. 'I hope this will help ease the stress of telling.' Tommy thought to himself.
"Tommy, thank you for being so calm about this, Dil is lucky to have a brother as good as you," Mark told him.
"Thanks Mark, I'm happy that he is with you and not some jerk."
Dil got up and hugged his brother, happy that he had him. Happy, that someone actually understood, and didn't judge him. Happy, that the person whom he cared for the most didn't betray him. He was just happy that Tommy was his brother.
Mark stood and hugged both of them. Happy that someone understood. Happy that he was accepted. Happy that Tommy was there for him too, and just happy that Dil and Tommy were still close.
The three broke the hug alittle while later. They had to be at Phil and Lil's house in five minutes. The two were scared, nervous, worried, excited, really just a bunch of feelings. Tommy was just as bad, scared that his brother and his brother's boyfriend were going to be outcasted, hated, discrimated against, or worst of all, hurt. He wasn't sure if Dil could take that kind of emotional pain.
They walked slowly to the house, stopping every once in awhile to look at each other. To shot reassuring glances and nods. They finally arrived after three minutes. The others greeted them and they all sat around. The two guys decided to tell the others about them after practice was over, so that they could actually play, if things turned for the worst. The practice lasted about two hours and by the time it was over Dil and Mark were almost green.
Dil looked over at Mark, and Mark looked at Dil, and they nodded. They slowly moved next to each other and looked at the others. Dil spoke up.
"Guys, there is something I need to tell you," Dil said shyly.
They turned and looked at him, and fell silent noticing the serious look on his face.
"What's up man? Why so serious?" Phil asked.
"Well you see the thing it that uhh...," Dil told them.
"Come on Dil, tell us. We are friends, you can tell us anything," Chuckie urged him.
"Wellyouseeguysi'mgayandMarkandIaregoingout!" he said in one breathe.
"What was that?" Lil asked. "You were mumbling."
"What he said was, 'Well you see guys I'm gay and going out with Mark.'" Mark told them looking down.
An akward silence fell over the room. Each of the kids looked at each others, with confused looks on their faces. Phil than started to laugh, and the others joined in.
"That's... funny... awesome... joke!" Phil said in between breaths.
"It's true," Tommy told them standing next to his brother.
"WHAT???? HOW? WHEN? WHERE?" they all choked out.
"It's true guys, Mark and I have been going out for three months," he told them in a little voice.
"You're not serious," Phil said then added."You're really a little fag?"
"Come on don't be like this," Dil told him, tears shining in his eyes.
"Dil, you are gay... You are fucking gay. I hate you! God I hate you so fucking much!" Lil told him standing. "Get out of my house NOW!!!"
"P...please don't be like this," he pleaded tears rolling down his cheeks.
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!!!!!" Phil yelled.
Dil looked over at Chuckie and noticed the angry look on his face. He turned to Kimi, surprised to see understanding in her eyes. Tommy stood next to Dil, with an angry look. Tommy looked straight at Phil and Lil.
"You guys, calm down," he said.
"CALM DOWN TOMMY???? CALM DOWN?! YOU'RE BROTHER IS GAY, HE LIKES THE SAME SEX! AND YOU WANT US TO CALM DOWN?" Phil shouted.
"Yeah, Tommy, your brother is just a little fag," Chuckie told him, getting over the shock.
"Chuckie, you too?" Tommy asked in shocked.
"Yes, and to think I actually let him stay over," Chuckie said.
Dil looked at his 'friends' and ran out of the house, Mark following. Tommy turned toward his friends and glared. He to left the house in search of his brother, Kimi got up to follow.
"Where are you going Kimi?" Chuckie asked.
"With Tommy and Dil and Mark," she said in a tone that left no arguements.
Chuckie and the others looked at her as she left the house. She ran toward the Pickles' house. She entered slowly and made her way up to Dil's room. She could hear faint sobbing coming from the room and pushed open the door.
There sitting on the bed was Dil, Tommy, and Mark attempting to comfort him. Kimi walked toward them with caution, not sure what was going to happen.
"Kimi, what are you doing here?" Tommy asked surprised that she actually came.
"I knew," she said. "Well, I had a feeling that they were together."
"It's doesn't bother you?" Dil asked looking up with watery blood shot eyes.
"No, it doesn't, we have been friends for to long to let this come between us. Give the others time to get over it," she replied gently.
She sat on the bed behind him and rubbed small circles on his back. Something that her mother did, when she was down in the blues. Tommy and Mark watched amazed and happy that Kimi had understood. That Kimi didn't throw the friendship out because of it.
"Thanks," Mark told her.
"For what?" she replied confused.
"For understanding," he replied.
Dil looked up at her and smiled, a real smile. She smiled back, happy that she had made the right choice. Happy that she understood. Happy that she didn't leave him because of something as stupid as love. Most of all she was happy because she didn't let the others influnce her to make the wrong choice.
A/N: What did you think? I thought it was ok... I didn't really like the ending... I hope you enjoyed it... Did I make the characters seem believable?
[1] I like to add a lot of music in my stories... ::sigh:: Plus I got the cd yesterday...
Review Thanks:
fanfic-reader01: I feel special now! Thank you for adding me to your favorite authors list thingie! It brightened my day! ::grin:: Here's your update!!!! Thanks for the review you get a Christmas cookie!
Benji's Riot Gurl: That rocks... I want to get the Rancid cd... but I have to save my money, a guitar ain't going to buy itself you know? lol My dog got me an AFI doll for christmas... I love my doggy!! ::Grin:: I used to like NSYNC too... ::shudder:: I was young and hopeless... Which is an awesome Good Charlotte song! Well thanks for the review, you get a Christmas cookie shaped like Benji!
Corinthales: Actually yes the calling someone in Vegas was referring to you! It's your fault that I didn't get it posted sooner... how does that make you feel? Thanks for helping me with this chapter! You can have a sock!
Witchytara25: Thanks for the review! You're story helped me... It rocked!!! I'm not sure if what I wrote was believable... but I thought it was... tell me what you think? Thanks! You get a Christmas cookie!!!
A/N: Yo!!! Ok... The next chapter will be up soon I promise... I also have a feeling this is a story I'm actually going to complete! ::grin:: I have the whole plot thingie worked out and all this stuff! I hope you enjoyed this chapter! As always reviews are wanted! If you send me one I will love you forever and a day... Well I'm gonna go back to the Christmas Party that my 'rents are hosting... Fun... a lot of people who are like 20 years older than me and their stuck up kids. Well bye and MERRY CHRISTMAS.... if you don't do Christmas HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE AN AWESOME NEW YEAR... if I get lazy and don't update until after it... ::sigh, and waves::
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