My Choice
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My initials are KMJ not JKR so no I do not own anything put the plot then again what plot is there?
Summary"He would never forgive himself if she died... He would not just sit there and let the one person he ever cared about be murdered, even if she did not love him back." This is my version of why Severus turns from the darkness and becomes a spy. One Shot
Story begins...
He would never forgive himself if she died. She may not belong to him, she may have picked that arrogant, egotistical, bigheaded, self-important Gryffindor over him, however he would not just sit there and let the one person he ever cared about be murdered, even if she did not love him back.
He still dreamed of her when he was alone. He tried to fight his own mind, the images of her bewildering emerald green eyes or her wild ruby red hair would enter his mind without his permission.
He knew he was obsessed.
Severus left the Dark Lord's meeting a new man. Unwilling to see his secret obsession die he made a choice, of which he knew, would change his life from that moment on.
Severus shuddered. He knew what he had to do, but standing in this mans office was terrifying him beyond anything that he had ever felt before. He new that if his plan were to fail, he would die. She could die. He was damned if he would just let that happen.
As a full-grown man standing in Dumbledore's office knowing what he knew, he was ready; he was scared immensely, but nevertheless he was ready to risk everything.
"Ah Severus, what brings you here, have you changed your mind about my offer?"
"No Professor, I come for reasons of which I'm not proud of. I come for forgiveness."
Dumbledore considered the dark man before him for a moment before asking him to sit. He waited for Severus to speak first.
"I have done something terrible Professor, I have made some appalling decisions, which will one day claim my life I am sure" he paused "I have come to rectify my mistakes not for my own life but to safe another. Professor I…I…" his words failed him so he rolled up his sleave and showed Dumbledore the mark which burdened his soul from the moment he received it.
"You're a Deatheater" it wasn't a question.
Severus nodded, he was unsure what Dumbledore was thinking, he could not tell if he was angry, disappointed or both.
"Why are you here?" Dumbledore asked softly.
Severus released a breath he did not know he had held. So Dumbledore wasn't going to kill him... yet. "I have information on a plan involving the Potters that could save their lives, if prevented."
"How can I believe you?"
Severus expected this.
"It was a foolish mistake I made as a youth, I can't expect to be forgiven for what I have done and there is no excuse, but I can no longer live with the knowledge of what I have done and what I maybe forced to do…"
There was a deafening silence, which lasted a few minutes, but to Severus it was an eternally. There he sat wondering what would now become of him, what would his life now be like.
Dumbledore's question broke the silence and Severus' pondering.
"What information do you have?"
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this is dumb i think anyway i posted it so what do you think...