TITLE: What Went On?
AUTHOR: Hayley
RATING: PG-13
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"This wasn't supposed to be how you found out..." Amy said softly. "I swear this wasn't how it was supposed to be."
"Well how did you want it to be?" He asked angrily moving towards her bedside. She grabbed and held his hand, looking deep into those all too familiar chocolate brown eyes.
"Matt please..."
"No. How was I supposed to find out? Did you want me to see you guys kissing at the mall? Or having sex in your car? ?? What?! How did you want me to find out?? ?" He asked raising his voice.
Amy swallowed down the urge to cry. Her hand trembled as she held his and he noticed.
"Matt please don't yell, you're scaring me." She whispered. "I wanted to tell you, me. Not Jeff, not Beth, I wanted to."
"Too late."
"Please, I'm so sorry-"
"I don't give a shit if your sorry or not." Matt said quickly pulling his hand away. Amy wiped away tears as Matt's heart froze and turned to stone. His eyes were harsh and cold, his face red with anger.
"Matt listen to me-" She pleaded.
"No! You never listened to me so why the hell should I listen to you?!"
"I'm so sorry-"
"Does it look like I care?"
"Don't be like this-"
Matt gave a bitter laugh, "Now you know how it feels trying to explain yet the other person won't listen. How does it feel Amy? Hmm?? Bitch ain't it."
"Will you-"
"No! I cannot believe you! Why would you do this to me? Did the 4 years we spent together mean nothing to you? If you ever loved me, you would've waited a bit before dating again. But nooooo, you go and pick up a guy as soon as you kicked me to the curb. Did you not cry at night wondering where I was? If I was okay? Did you not drive yourself into a deep depression because the one person you loved the most slipped away? I did! Amy me, I did! I cried and cried and cried when I thought you'd be doing the same. Turns out you were out with your stupid boyfriend instead!" Matt yelled shakily.
"Matt it's not like that!" She cried.
"Yes it is! You don't love me and you never did! I can't believe I wasted 3 fucken months crying my heart out for you when you had already moved on to the next guy in line. I can't believe I spent 24 hours a day, 7 days a week praying that you'd let me explain myself to you. I tried so hard to figure out how to make up for what I did, and for what? This? What's the point in trying if there's no chance that I'll ever get to be with you again? Are you happy now? You got what you wanted! You wanted to hurt me to make me feel what you went through and well here it is! Only this time, it hurts twice as much. What I did was an accident, what you did was just spiteful."
Matt stormed out of the room as Amy unhooked herself from the monitors and got up to run after him. Her ribs hurt like hell but she didn't care. She wasn't going to let him go like this.
"Matt!" She cried running down the halls after him. "Please let me explain!"
"Explain what?!" He said whipping around. "That you don't love me like I love you? I thought you loved Amy, I really did. Guess I just fell for the trap and put myself through unnecessary pain when you were able to enjoy life. I was going through the darkest moments in my life and you were out being able to feel someone kiss you and hold you when you were sad. I had nothing and no one! I suffered alone and in the dark. And was it really worth it Amy? Huh? You know what I could've been doing those past 3 months? Sleeping around just like you!" He growled maliciously.
"Matt don't be like this!" Amy pleaded tugging on his arm. "Please, listen to me-"
"I DON'T WANT TO FUCKEN LISTEN TO YOU!"
"Yes you do!"
"NO I DON'T!"
"Matt!"
"Fuck you." He said in repulsion.
"This wasn't how this was supposed to be." She cried.
"Well how the fuck was it supposed to be then?? ?" He waited as Amy tried to speak through her tears.
"I-I don-"
"Fuck this. I've had enough of you." He spoke in bitter remorse.
"Matt but I love you!" She whimpered.
"Do you?" He asked towering over her shaking body. "Do you really love me?" Matt inquired through clenched teeth.
"Y-yes o-of course I do Matt, do you really think I'd be this upset if I didn't love you?" She asked.
"Well do I look upset?" He asked seriously.
"Y-yes..." She replied slowly.
"Shocker. I shouldn't and you know why?"
"No..."
"That's because I don't love you like I thought I did. Not anymore. Not again." He spat coldly shaking his head.
"Matt-"
"Stop it alright?! Move on Amy, forget about me and whatever the fuck we had. It's apparent it was meaningless to you anyways. You don't love me, you don't want me and I can't be with someone like that. Not someone I don't love anymore." His words pierced through Amy's heart.
'Not someone I don't love anymore...'
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Are you that stupid you can't figure it out?" He retorted impatiently.
"Matt...what do you mean you don't love me anymore?"
"What do you think I mean?" He snapped.
"But...you have to love me-"
"I don't have to anything for you."
"You love me! I know you do! You're lying! I can tell, your hands are shaking and everything. Don't tell me you don't love because I know you do!!!" She cried in agony.
Matt looked at her anguished cries and her shaking figure.
"You're despicable. Look at yourself. I'd hate to be the sorry son of a bitch who has to put up with you." He growled vulgerly.
Amy looked up at him, her eyes breaking through the ice in his. His heart was bleeding and flowing a river of denial and anger. The love in his heart was flooding away and out of his body as Amy couldn't help but not recognize the man before her. The Matt she knew would never say the hateful things this man before her did. He could never become so heinous and cold. But this stranger before her, gave off nothing but outrageous pain and anger towards her.
"Matt don't talk like that."
"I'll talk to you however the hell I want. You don't mean shit to me. You're nothing but some scared shitless bitch to me now. I don't need someone like you in my life. Never again do I want you in my life." He said softly yet it was the most painful thing for Amy to hear. "You happy now? You didn't want me in your life anymore, now you're finally going to get your wish." He finished before walking out of the hospital into the pouring rain leaving Amy to cry her millions of tears by herself.
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