TITLE: What Went On?
AUTHOR: Hayley
RATING: PG-13
DISCLAIMER: I own no one
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"Yup." She said biting her tongue.
"I'll call you when I land."
"Uh huh."
"Well I better get going. Bye Amy." He said with another quick kiss before picking up his bags and heading towards the terminal.
"Bye." She said emotion-less before getting up to leave.
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"Hey, it's Matt. Sorry I'm not in right now but leave your name and number and I'll be sure to get back to you ASAP. Thanks." Beep."Urgh!" Amy grumbled as she got Matt's answering machine. "Well, hey Matt it's Amy. Guessing that I'm talking to your machine, you're either sleeping or not home." She said stupidly. "Anywho, I was thinking maybe we could do something, go out or whatever. Call me back when you get this. Bye." Amy clicked 'end' on her cell as she focused back on the road.
She drove around aimlessly trying to kill time. Getting bored, she saw it was only 9:30am but decided to head on home.
Pulling into her driveway, she dragged herself inside feeling all gross and sweaty as the day seemed to reach impossibly high temperatures. Deciding it would be a good time for a shower, she followed through as she headed upstairs.
While in the shower, she didn't hear her phone ring.
"Hey, you've reached Amy's. Yeah I can't come to the phone right now so you know the drill and I'll call you back when I can. Thanks." Beep.
"Hey Ames..." He sounded nervous. "I got your message and all and I'd like to take you up on your offer. Maybe we could go to lunch or something if you get this message in time. Call me back. Bye." Beep.
10 minutes later, Amy stepped out of the icy cold shower and dressed herself in a pair of mini denim shorts and a pink, orange and yellow habiscus flower bikini top. Pulling her hair up so it was out of her face, she pulled on her sunglasses and stepped out onto the sunny patio heading towards her lounge chair that was poolside.
With an armful of photo albums, she picked up the first one entitled "Me and My Girlies" and admired the photo album itself. The front and back covers looked like a scrapbook as pictures torn and outlined in white plastered the front. Glitter, markers, paint and stickers loaded it as pictures from photobooths, etc. graced the album with all the girls signing their names and leaving mini messages.
Opening to the front page, it had a full sized picture of her, Nora, Steph, Victoria, Dawn Marie, Stacey, Torrie and Trish all smiles on their beach trip last year. They all looked tan and happy in their bright swim suits and the bright blue sky and white sand beneath was the back draw for the picture. Amy smiled fondly at the memory the picture brought back to her. As she continued to go through the album, it looked more like a highschool yearbook as everywhere there were words of wisdom, laughter friendship and love written all over the place.
Trish seemed to have been in the majority of pictures as Trish and her seemed to be constantly joined at the hip. Amy couldn't help but wonder how they could've been so close and then something like this happen to them tearing them apart.
Trish... Amy thought sadly.
Regardless of her feelings towards her former best friend, Amy couldn't help but wonder what she was up to, as well as the other divas. They had been her closest friends but after leaving, she hadn't kept in touch with any of them. Hence maybe one of the reasons contributing to her overthetop feelings of lonliness.
As she came to the last page of the album, it yet again was a full sized picture of the entire group at their last New Year's Eve party together. They were all dressed in nice, fancy outfits it looked like they were at prom. Across it read "Friends Forever". Amy could feel her heart melt as the realization of how much she really missed them hit home.
Closing the book, she felt the urge to call them and catch up on things but Amy knew that that was just some fairytale ordeal. She'd hurt so many of them that she couldn't blame them for being skeptical about wanting to talk to her. Sighing, she grabbed the next one and her heart slowly began to break.
"The Beginning of Forever" was the title and it was a deep red colored album with gold outlined hearts everywhere. Carefully, Amy opened it and her heart began to sink.
The cover page was a huge picture of her and Matt when they first met. He had his arms around her and Amy didn't know if she'd be able to look through this one. The recent events had resurfaced so much emotions in her that she didn't know how to feel. There was way too much history there that Amy didn't know if she was capable of dealing with it.
She traced over her brown blonde highlighted hair in the picture. She looked back down at the pile and realized that there were 6 more albums and she knew that they were all of her and Matt.
Why did we have to go and screw up everything we had going for ourselves... she asked herself sadly. Deciding she couldn't handle it, she brought all the photo albums back inside.
Going inside to check her messages she grinned when she saw a message from Matt. She pressed 'play' as she listened to his message and quickly checked what time it was.
11:21am... She grabbed the phone and pressed speed dial 1 as she waited for him to pick up. C'mon, pick up... She whispered to herself. Pick up, pick up, pick up... Just as she was about to hang up, a tired voice answered.
"Hello?"
"Hey..." She smiled. "Did I catch you a bad time?"
"Amy? No no of course not."
"I got your message. Lunch sounds great..." She twirled a piece of hair around her finger.
"Really? Alright, is there anywhere you wanna go in particular?"
"Doesn't matter to me."
They continued to talk before Matt said that he'd be by in 10 minutes to pick her up. They said their goodbyes before Amy skipped upstairs and pulled on a white halter top over her bikini top. Slipping into some tan wedges, she put on a bit of neutral makeup before heading back down to wait for Matt.
--10 Minutes Later--
She saw Matt pull up into her driveway and she went to open the door. He stepped out of his car wearing a pair of red shorts that came below the knee and a tight white muscle shirt.
"Hey." He smiled as he went up to greet her as she came down the steps.
"Hey yourself." She smiled and he casually pulled her into a hug. It was a friendly one, but to Amy if felt awkward. "Listen, we can't go on until we talk about what happened two days ago-"
Matt shook his head cutting her off. "Let's go to lunch."
"No." She said stopping in her tracks. "Not until we talk about it."
"Quit being stubborn Ames." He warned as he tugged on her arm. "C'mon..." He whined but she wouldn't budge.
"Talk first."
"About what?!"
"What happened before you left." It bothered you, please let it have bothered you!!!
"Amy I came to have lunch, not to argue." He said stuffing his hands in his pockets.
"I don't want whatever happened to ruin our fresh start." Please say it bothered you!
"And it won't. Now can we go?"
"Why are you trying to avoid this?" IT BOTHERED YOU!!! SAY IT!!
"Because I can and I will."
She looked at him seriously. She wanted to talk about it but she didn't know what she wanted to talk about. Just the way he left gave her the impression that it bothered him immensely.
"Do you like him?" She asked softly.
"Doesn't matter if I do or don't."
"That wasn't my question."
"But that was my answer."
She whipped him around frustrated. "Why are you being like this?"
"Why are you making this such a big deal?" He started to raise his voice. "Who cares whether I like the damn guy or not. I'm not the one who's dating him." He paused. "You are."
The way Matt finished off his sentence made Amy want to question him even more. She knew something about the whole thing was bothering him but he wouldn't let her know. I need to know where you stand...on this...on us...
"Lets go." Amy sighed as she headed towards Matt's car.
They drove in silence before arriving at Sally's Garden House. Taking a seat on the patio, Amy scanned her menu aware of Matt's eyes on her. Amy gave the waitress her order before Amy sat there quietly without even looking at Matt.
"Amy..." He knew things were going to be awkward until he gave her what she wanted. She still didn't look at him. "If you like him, that's all that matters." He watched her chew on her bottom lip as she stared at her placemat. "You don't need my approval or anything."
"I just..." She didn't know what to say. "I don't know, forget it." She shook her head. Just tell me what I want to hear...
"No, c'mon say it." He urged.
She couldn't help but break down. The pent up frustration was killing her inside. "That day that we spent together...to say that it didn't bring up old feelings would make me a liar." She started. "I wouldn't change any part of that day...not even that kiss." She was trembling now. "I feel awful because Joey is a sweet guy, he just doesn't give me that feeling of...someone I know who wants to be with me as badly as I want to be with him. He's just...there...or not there for that matter."
Matt listened to her intently. He felt guilty for feeling excited that she wasn't as happy with her boyfriend as he thought she would be. He wanted to comfort her the only way he knew how but knew that that was out of the question. Instead, he had to listen and be a friend. She continued to talk but the more Matt tried to focus on listening to her, the more he felt the urge to lean over and kiss her and tell her everything would be alright.
"I'm a horrible person." She finished off. "I simply deserve all the shit coming my way because I'm just getting back what I dished out." She whimpered.
"This is all my fault." Matt said shaking his head. "Quit blaming yourself for stupid shit I did. I should've just let you lead your life, coming back was a mistake and I knew it." Matt said feeling guilty. What are you saying? Be happy!!
NO!!!! Amy screamed in her head.
"I guess I just expected you to come running back to me and everything would go back to being the same. I never should've...this whole thing is wrong." Wrong? Are you crazy?
I'll come running back!!! I promise!!! Just...don't say that...its not wrong Matt...
He got up, "I'm not going to ruin what you have just because I can't stop thinking about you or imagining you with me again." He rambled on. What are you saying? WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
Don't say that! If you can't stop thinking about me, do something!!! Prove to me...convince me dammit!
"Forget being friends and everything. I don't want you and Joey to break up over me even though that's what I really want deep down." He confessed. OH DEAR GOD!
Forget being friends???? That's all we have left!!
"I gotta be a man about this. I'm an idiot and this is my consequence. If God wanted to hurt me in the worst possible way for what I did to you, taking you away would be it." Matt stood there his head down. "This isn't working Amy." He shook his head before leaving her to sit there to dwell on what just happened.
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