Why would I do such a stupid thing? The one thing Micheal and I fear most in life-- abandonment. I can't believe I left him like that. Sure, I was pissed off, who wouldn't be, but I never should have left.
And I went to the worst place of all times-- my mother's house. She didn't want me and Micheal together from the beginning, but she had to let us because of our three children.
I walked downstairs and grabbed a mug, filling it up with coffee. "Mornin', Ria. Since when do you drink coffee?" asked Kyle.
"Since I had children," I mumbled. "Where's my mom?"
"She's been cleaning the attic all morning."
"Oh, god," I cried and layed my head on the table. "You know what that means, don't you?"
"That she's upset about something or she's really pissed," Kyle put simply.
"Yes, and in this case, I'm pretty sure it's both," I sighed. This is going to be a sucky day.
"Mornin', Maria. How'd ya sleep?" Jim came down the stairs with a smile on his face and a baby in his arms, followed by my mother who carried the other two.
"I slept just fine, thank you," I replied and I got up, taking one of the boys from my mother.
"Well, Maria, I hope you plan on getting all your belongings today while Micheal's working," my mother said and I wasn't suprised.
"Well, Mother, since I have no plans on moving out, I won't be doing any of that," I said simply and sat back down.
"Living with that man is not the option, Maria. I raised you on my own and now look at you. Your a beautiful young lady-"
"-With 3 kids under her belt. I'm sick of you trying to tell me how to do everything, mom. Stop trying to tell me how to live, who to love, and how to raise my children!" I screamed. I stood up and kissed both Kyle and Jim saying, "Sorry about this, but I have to go home."
"Home? You are 'home', Maria," mother said and I turned to look at her.
I walked up and got right in her face. "Home is where the heart is. I haven't had my own heart for 3 years, Micheal does. He is my home, whether you like it or not," I said coldly and I took my son from her arms. I handed both of them to Kyle and ran upstairs to gather our things. I brought them out to the car and ran back inside to get the boys. Kyle and Jim carried them outside and put them in their carseats. I kissed them goodbye and drove off.
I reached our apartment in 10 minutes. I got out of the car and opened the back door. I unbuckled the carseats and started to take Mikey out of his. "Let me help you," Micheal said quietly from behind me. I gave him a small nod and he grabbed Nathan and Brandon, bringing them both inside.
We took them into the nursery and layed them down for a nap, closing the door as we left the room. "Listen, Maria-"
"Micheal I-" we started at the same time and I gave him a small smile. "Me first, please?" I asked and he nodded. "I am so sorry. I was really stupid and I hope you can forgive me. It's just-I-" I started to get choked up and he led me to the couch and we sat down. I grasped his hand. "When my mom had me, she never married my father. Having a kid sure didn't tie him down, so I figured if they would have gotten married, he would have stayed. I thought that if I got you to marry me, then I would always be able to keep you with me. I don't want to lose you! I love you and it was stupid of me to think you would leave if I didn't marry you," I finished and tears streamed down my face.
Micheal put a comforting hand on my back. I looked up and took his face in my hands. "I'm sorry if I made you feel like I was abanding you. I never ment for you to feel like that. It must of been awful and I feel like the worst person in the world."
"It did feel like that at first. But I guess I knew you wouldn't do that to me. You've been the one constant thing in my life, Maria DeLuca. You deserve to get married. You deserve to have everything you've always dreamed of. And I want to marry you...but when the time is right, I'll ask you. It may not be today, the next day, or even the next month, but I'll ask you," Micheal said and he leaned in to kiss me.
I pulled back about 2 minutes later. "I just have to ask...is it gonna be soon, Micheal?" I smiled, rubbing his cheek with my hand.
Micheal mated his forehead to mine and said, "When the time is right." and kissed me again before I had the chance to ask.