A/N
Well, there weren't that many reviews which kinda bummed me out. Reviews make this oh so much better. And again if you have any comments or suggestions please tell me, I need some guidance sometimes. Oh I'm going on holiday on the 16th of December so I'm sorry if I don't update it for ages.
Chapter Eight: The Others.
"Eddie? Hey what are you doing here?" Ryan said stepping outside and closing the door behind him.
"Well…I was looking for Theresa, her mum said she was working up here, and I heard from your bro that you were living up here now…" Eddie explained.
"Trey?" Ryan asked.
"Yeah I saw him last week, sucks he is still doing time…"Eddie said.
"Yeah…so you and Theresa are?" Ryan asked awkwardly.
"Engaged…" Eddie said matter-O-Factly.
"Engaged…dam man that's…that's great…" Ryan said slightly shocked.
"Yeah, so you seen her? She hasn't tried to look you up?" Eddie asked.
"Nah man…" Ryan says uncomfortably. Eddie turns around and to get into his truck.
"I just can't be leave she would run off like that with out saying anything…" Eddie said getting in.
"Me either…"Ryan said softly. Eddie pulls out of the driveway. Ryan turned quickly back into the house and ran straight into Sandy.
"Oh, hey…what's the rush…"Sandy said regaining his balance.
"Ohhh, can I borrow the car…I really need to talk to Theresa…" Ryan said.
"It's late Ryan; can't it wait till after school tomorrow?" Sandy asked.
"I really think it should be now…her….boyfriend just stopped by…"Ryan said bluntly.
"Boyfriend?" Sandy asked.
"Eddie…an old friend…can I borrow the car?" Ryan asked again.
"Yes but if your not back within the next hour and a half then you will loss your car privileges and remember you will be meeting with Dr. Peters, after school tomorrow." Sandy said handing Ryan some keys.
"Thank you…" Ryan said turning and running out of the house.
"Sandy where is Ryan going?" Kirsten asked with suspicions.
"He needed to work something out with Theresa, don't worry he'll be back in an hour…" Sandy said confidently.
Ryan jumped in the car and drove quickly to the hotel where Theresa's staying. He jumped up the stairs and banged on the door. It was whipped opened by a frazzled Theresa.
"Ryan hey, what are you doing here?" Theresa asked.
"We need to talk…" Ryan said.
"Come in then…" Theresa said letting him in.
"You used me…" Ryan accused.
"Excuse me?' Theresa asked confused.
"Eddie…your fiancé…he stopped by, wants to know where you are?" Ryan said harshly. Theresa sat down on the bed.
"I'm sorry…" Theresa started tears welling in her eyes, "I…Eddie loves me…but I can't marry him right now…" She explained.
"Then why sleep with me?" Ryan asked.
"I donno…it just happened all so quickly…" Theresa said.
"Hey it wasn't that quick…" Ryan said trying to lighten the mood, Theresa choked a laugh. "But I can't believe you didn't tell me…Theresa all this time."
"I know, I was stupid, I was just so glad to see you again…you left, one day all your stuff was there then it was gone. You don't know how that felt." Theresa said.
"I can't be here…I think some time apart would be good… You need to talk to Eddie work out what ever is happening in your life…" Ryan said leaving.
"Ryan wait…" Theresa called out. But Ryan just continues out side, Theresa lies on her bed and cries.
Ryan storms down to his car and jumps in and slams the door shut. How could I be so stupid! He thinks to himself. He whacks his hands hard on to the steering wheel, turns the ignition on and drives off. He pulls into the Cohen drive way and parks the car, he jumps out and storms gruffly into the house. He leaves the keys on the kitchen bench and goes up to his room. He shuts the door behind him, and walks to the bathroom, he feels like crap. Used once again he said to himself. He closed the bathroom door and looked at himself in the mirror. His eyes were red and his face tiered. Flipping up the toilet seat he sunk to his knees and through up. Once the food was gone he started to dry heave, the pain seared through his chest. Finally he stood and swallowed some water from the tap. He splashed himself with water and opened his door to find Seth sitting on his bed.
"Hey man, I thought you were Ok…" Seth said concerned.
"Nah, yeah I'm fine…" Ryan replied walking over to his desk.
"So how'd it go with Theresa??" Seth asked breaking the silence between them.
"Not so good…" Ryan said sitting down.
"Why what happened?" Seth pushed.
"I don't really want to talk about it…" Ryan said.
"Come on man…let me in…" Seth pleaded, there was a pause before Ryan spoke up.
"She's engaged…" Ryan said quickly.
"Wha…who…when…" Seth spluttered.
"Eddie…and old friend, he stopped by tonight to ask if I had seen her." Ryan explained.
"So are you too…?" Seth asked.
"No, well not anymore…Do you mind I think I just want to sleep, today was good…right up until Eddie came, but still…" Ryan said sleepily.
"Yeah…I know, I'll let you sleep…" Seth said leaving.
"Thanks man…" Ryan said watching him leave. When he was gone he pulled off his pants and jacket and switched off the lights. He climbed into bed and fell asleep.
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The morning sunlight filled the Cohen kitchen illuminating everyone inside. Ryan trudged down and silently got some coffee, he ate half a bagel and no one said anything. Finally Seth spoke up.
"So Ryan, Summer is going to pick us up today, so grabbed your stuff cause she will be here soon…" Seth said folding the part of the newspaper he was reading. Ryan nodded and got up from the bench and went upstairs grabbed his bag and went downstairs. Sandy was waiting by the door.
"How'd it go last night?" Sandy asked.
"Not so well, I don't want to talk about it…" Ryan said.
"Well, after school I will pick you up and we will go to Doctor Peters ok…" Sandy said.
"Do I have a choice?" Ryan asked.
"Not really no." Sandy said bluntly. Ryan nodded and walked outside, and found Seth already in Summers car.
"Morning Chino…" Summer said. Ryan tossed his head in her direction and hopped in the back. The car ride was filled with a silence loosely covered by music. They pulled up to Harbor and all jumped out of the car.
Ryan was lucky he had avoided Marisa and Luke for half the day, he sat in the Student lounge sipping a coffee when his luck ran out.
"We should talk…" Luke said. Ryan looked up and saw Marisa.
"About what…?" Ryan asked annoyed.
"About what you did…Man we can talk here but there are people here, and believe me I will talk…" Luke said.
"Fine…" Ryan said closing his book and shoving it in his bag. The three walked out to the fields and sat on the bleaches, no one was around. "So talk…" Ryan said sitting down.
"Why didn't you tell us?" Luke asked.
"And how would that conversation go…hey Luke what up? Hey guess what I did two nights ago…Slashed my wrists!" Ryan said sarcastically.
"Were your friends…you're supposed to tell us..." Marisa said softly.
"Well I didn't I couldn't…but now you know…" Ryan said standing.
"Why'd you do it?" Luke said suddenly. Ryan just looked at him.
"Luke…I cant not now…" Ryan said leaving. They watched him make his way back to school and didn't see him for the rest of the day.
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Ryan sat in a waiting room drumming his fingers on his legs. Sandy sat next to him with a magazine.
"You know you don't have to stay…" Ryan said.
"I know…I don't mind…" Sandy said flipping the page.
"Ryan, good to see you come into my office…" Doctor Peters said opening his door. Ryan followed and Sandy stayed behind. The Docs room was not your classic shrinks office. On the back of the door was a small basketball hoop, and there bean bags around the room. Ryan took a seat in front of Doctor Peter's desk.
"Do you want to sit in the bean bags?" Daniel asked.
"No, I'm fine…" Ryan said.
"Well, Ryan do you have any questions?" Daniel asked.
"No…" Ryan said looking around the room.
"Well, how have you been since we last talked?" Daniel asked, taking his seat, on the couch to the left of Ryan.
"Fine…" Ryan said.
"Care to elaborate?" Daniel asked.
"How so Doctor…"Ryan started.
"Dan, please call me Dan…" Dan interrupted.
"Well how do u mean Dan?" Ryan asked.
"Well, your overall time back, positive or negative…" Dan asked.
"Both…" Ryan said.
"Elaboration would be nice…" Dan said.
"Well, two of my….friends found out about what I did and there was yelling…" Ryan confessed.
"You didn't tell them?" Dan asked.
"No, they saw…the scars…" Ryan said softly.
"But at least now they know…" Dan said.
"I guess…but it wasn't the best way for them to find out…" Ryan countered.
"How about your family…how are they taking it all?" Dan asked.
"The Cohen's?" Ryan asked
"Yes, you don't think of them as family?" Dan asked.
"Well, I guess I do…but I do have two families and I donno…" Ryan said his eyes cast down.
"Well, the Cohen's how are they taking it?" Dan asked again.
"They're…taking it well, I guess…Seth is just Seth and Sandy and Kirsten I'm not too sure…" Ryan confessed.
"Why?" Dan asked.
"Because…I've been avoiding the topic…" Ryan said.
"Why?" Dan asked again.
"What are you six?" Ryan asked exasperated.
"Apparently…Why?" Dan answered with a smile.
"Who wants to talk about it…It's awkward and complicated. So I avoid it." Ryan stated.
"Ok, but don't you think it would be easier if you talked about it and got it out of your system." Dan asked.
"You tell me, you're the shrink…" Ryan said slightly pissed off.
"Fine, Ryan talk to your parents, Sandy and Kirsten, you need to talk other wise you will bottle it all up. Talking is what keeps us sane. Some are better than others, that's a no brainier but you can learn."
Ryan was in there for another thirty minuets, in that time he had talked more than he could have ever imagined. He told Dan about everything, about Theresa about Eddie, about his mother and brother. He had emptied his soul.
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A/N
Sorry if its crap or badly edited, I don't have much time cause I'm going away for holidays for over two weeks and I wont be able to update it…so I'm sorry about how short this chapter is too so I will see you when I come back…Please review the story cause I love the feed back!