AN: Sorry I have left this so long but I have been very busy with various other things… Anyway, this chapter is using a song by Anastacia: "Left outside alone…"
Danny- I mentally screamed at this. I got the answer to my proposal. It's not what I expected…
TURN BACK TIME
By Cat
Left outside alone
Danny sat down on the couch with a heavy sigh; he placed his head in his hands and refused to look Mary in the eye.
"Why?" He asked with a sad edge to his voice which made Mary feel sympathetic. "Why 'no?'"
Mary also sighed and looked at him with sadness in her eyes and she took a deep breath. "Danny?" She let a sorrowful tear slide down her face without warning. "I've been waiting since year four for you to realise that I love you, I've told you my feelings, my dreams and most of all I wanted you to love me back. It's only now that you seem to realise. Why now? Why not back then?"
The emotion in Mary's voice was too much for Danny to handle. He'd been under a lot of stress lately and the thought of the event was more than he could handle, all he wanted to do right now was get it over and done with.
"What does this mean? It's not ok Danny!" She shouted. "You know how I feel; you've known how I've felt for years!"
All Danny could do at this particular moment was shake is head in utter sorrowful. "Mary, I-I'm sorry." Was the only thing he could say and a slam of the door alerted him to the fact that she had left. He hung his head in a sorry manner and then took a deep breath. He leaned back and whispered to himself. "I'm so sorry Mary," he whispered after the, now gone, love of his life. "I love you so much…"
-All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not ok, I don't feel safe -
Mary let the tears fall onto the pillow and there she cried for hours, she hadn't wanted to say 'no' but something had told her that it would be just like the last time he returned. He had ignored their relationship then and what was to say that he wasn't going to do it again?
After a while Mary sat up and brushed the tears away from her eyes. She grabbed a tissue and wiped away the remaining make-up and tears and then she took a deep breath.
After a moment she leaned over and grabbed the phone from her bedside table and dialled a number.
"Hello? Yes," She said as the person on the other line picked up. "I was thinking, how about you and I go out for coffee sometime?"
-I don't feel safe (oooh)-
Danny lay down upon the bed and looked at the ceiling for a few moments before closing his eyes in pain. His wounds from the marines had been painful, but not as painful as this. It seemed as if they were returning in full force just to punish him. Danny rolled over to avoid the pain but then gasped in agony.
He lay back, taking deep breaths. His vision became fuzzy and his head started spinning. Danny closed his eyes tiredly and gasped for air. The blackness brightened and a light appeared, Danny gasped at the heavenly figure dressed in white which appeared.
"Mary?" He gasped at the redhead who appeared. "I'm sorry."
-Left Broken, empty and in despair
Wanna breathe, can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way -
Mary looked out the window; the stars looked beautiful this very night. Mary sighed and looked at her feet with a sad look. It was true that he hadn't exactly been the best boyfriend ever, but he had been a great friend.
She shivered and went to the wardrobe and retrieved a jacket.
After returning to her bed she sat and looked at the picture covered wall. She sighed when she saw the photos of the two of them having heaps of fun at many events and celebrations. She sighed and happy childhood memories filled her head. She had always blocked out the sad ones, she couldn't handle those with out bursting into tears.
-And I wonder if you know
How it really feels,
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone -
All through her life, ever since year four Mary had told Danny that she liked him, loved him in fact. Danny had repeated the things the same sort of things back to her. Multiple times, but Mary had never felt that he really meant most of the things he said. There had been many events during their lives that had prevented them from doing anything about it though. Mary truly believed that it was now, she felt that there was nothing between the two anymore.
-I tell you, -
She'd been waiting multiple years, and when she was in grade four it seemed worth the wait. She had always dreamed of the whole white-picket fence thing, now it just seemed like a dream, an impossible dream. A perfect fantasy, a perfect reality.
But everything had changed once Danny's mother had died. He had become distant, he had blocked the reality from himself and he didn't like to admit it. But he was scared, it was easy for Mary to see and she understood what he was going through.
Her mother had died also, when she was younger though. She had needed to be saved from her father as well. She had little to no family. Danny and his father were great though. They had always made sure that she had done the right things and helped her with problems. Her sanctuary was their house and she spent endless days at their house, avoiding going home to her father and avoiding the things he did to her.
-All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not ok, I don't feel safe -
Mary sighed and knelt before her bed in silence to do something that she hadn't done in years. Not since she had made refuge in Danny's house. Closing her eyes in absolute silence, she began to pray. For understanding, that everything would fix itself and that she knew why she was doing this now, and not before?
-I need to pray... -
Looking back on it, Mary felt that she had been played. Ever since year four; they were on, they were off and then often back on again. And the question she had often asked herself was: 'what were they?'
Danny had always seemed like a play boy but when it came to real relationships he was a couple of French fries short of a happy meal. He knew a lot about it, but he had never really got it down-pat. Mary had never really understood his ethics of relationships, whenever another man had come along; he had always claimed that she was 'his girl' but they had never done anything about it.
-Why do you play me like a game?
Always someone else to blame
Careless, helpless little man
Someday I might understand
There's not much more to say
But I hope you find a way -
Mary lay down on her bed without much remorse for her thoughts. But she couldn't help but think that something was wrong. She closed her eyes briefly and took a deep breath.
Meanwhile Danny was taking deep breaths as he lay on his bed in a state of mock sleep. Danny looked through the eyes of his alternative dream personality. He saw visions of Mary and himself as kids. His mind watched and reminisced his life.
An image popped out from the rest and for the first time in a while he saw the time when he and Mary were in year two. It had been a cold day and they had just been let out of class, for recess.
"Where's your coat Mary?" Danny remembered having asked her.
"Daddy won't buy me one." She had replied. Danny had remembered her shivering like mad.
"Here you go," he replied, while taking his jacket off. He handed it to her and after having it pushed back by Mary, he placed it upon her shoulders. "Come on Mary, I don't want you freezing to death…" After a consoling glance to her, she complied.
"Thankyou Danny," she said to him quietly.
"It's ok," he said back. "I'm not going to leave you all by yourself."
-Still I wonder if you know, how it really feels
To be left outside alone, when it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know, just how it feels,
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone -
With a hopeless glance outside the window her gut annoyed her once more, something was wrong. At least her gut said so. With a distant glance at the ceiling she suddenly grabbed her car keys; she had to check whether everything was alright.
-I tell you, -
After a ten minute drive she parked in a rush outside Danny's house. She ran up the steps hastily and rang the doorbell. After receiving no answer she repeated the action.
-All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not ok, I don't feel safe -
Using the key Danny had given her, she opened the door to his house. "Danny?" She called out worriedly. She walked into the kitchen and took a tour of the house, in quite a rush.
"Danny?" She called out in a very concerned voice. "Oh my lord!" She exclaimed as soon as she entered the master bedroom and saw her best friend writhing in pain upon the bed. She put hand to his forehead and gasped, he was covered in cold sweat, yet a fever had risen.
-I need to pray...
Ooh Pray
Heavenly father (oooh)
(Please)Heavenly father (Save me) Oh save me
Oooooh... -
Mary looked at Danny carefully; he had been in a coma for just over a day. The doctors had told her that the coma was brought on by stress, lack of sleep, and Danny's lack of a healthy diet. For the most part, she felt very guilty, thinking that she had caused most of this.
Right now, she wished that she hadn't said all that stuff to him. At the moment, she felt like she didn't mean most of it. But what had happened was fate, now perhaps she could try and talk sense into him. Perhaps now he would change, try talking to her instead of hiding it all away. Perhaps he would ask her to marry him under different circumstances now.
It was what she had always wanted, wasn't it? A life with Danny, where he'd tell her what was on his mind. Mary knew that Danny was willing to give her everything she asked for. But at the moment, she just wanted him to learn something from it all.
-And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone -
"Danny?" She said to him gently. "Danny?"
Danny opened his eyes and blinked as the bright light hit his pupils. He lifted his head for a moment, only to be pushed back down by one of Ed Deline's strong hands.
"Wha-what happened?" He stuttered as his eyes got used to the light.
"You passed out and fell into a coma." Mary said to him gently. "You should try and rest."
-All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not ok, I don't feel safe -
Danny looked away, refusing to look Mary in the eye. He felt bad about what he had done in the past and how Mary had felt that she needed to go back to his house to see if he was alright. He was a little guilty about how it always seemed like she was the one taking care of him these days. He missed when they were young, spending days running around in the park, Taking long walks on weekends, and going to the pool with Greg.
Danny looked up after a moment. "I'm sorry that it's been like this Mary," he said after another minute of silence, "I do love you though: always and forever."
-I Need to Pray....-
To be continued…