This is the first fan fic that I've written. More worrying; this chapter is longer than anything that I ever wrote for my GCSEs or A-levels! So anyway, if you think this is awful could you try to put it nicely.

Rating: R (I haven't got a clue how the ratings work; but it's definitely closer to R than PG)

Disclaimer: Characters; settings and the whole magic thing belong to JK Rowling. The events and dialogue belong to me.

A/N: This isn't the stories official ship in this chapter; it's more of a prologue.

Latent Feelings

I was surprised that I even got served. I certainly didn't think I looked eighteen; but then I'm a witch so maybe that helped or they just wanted the business. I don't really know why I wanted to drink alcohol; but it seemed like something I had to try before I returned to Hogwarts. Unfortunately it turned out to be a mistake. I drank far too much; I couldn't think straight and I definitely couldn't walk straight.

I soon ran out of muggle money and I was starting to feel a bit ill. I should've probably stopped drinking then but I felt like I needed the alcohol. I was sure that was the one thing that completed me; and as people were offering me drinks it would have been rude to turn them down.

I felt strong; I felt as though nobody could have beaten me. I was top of the world and in control of everything. I think I was dancing or something as suddenly I fell over and brought three chairs down with me.

"Oops," I giggled; as I started trying to haul myself up.

"She's pissed," somebody said.

"What? No. The floor's slippery." I felt the need to protect myself. I was still trying to pull myself up. It was proving trickier than expected. I held on to some railings and used them to pull myself up.

"Why don't you go outside love. Get some fresh air." I don't know who said it but my mind was swirling. It seemed like a good idea so I half walked, half stumbled out of the pub. I sat on a low wall feeling sorry for myself.

I heard footsteps approaching so I looked up. There was a blurry figure stood in front of me.

"What do you want?" I barked; still trying to focus on the person before me.

"I might ask you the same thing," the figure drawled. I recognised the voice and I started racking my brain. This was no easy task as my mind was so foggy, but it slowly dawned on me. 'Shit,' I thought to myself, 'Draco Malfoy.' I felt my cockiness come back and I didn't want to appear drunk. I jumped up and tried to think of something clever to say.

"So what are you doing here?" It wasn't a witty comment, but it was too late to change it now.

"Just out taking a walk. Getting some fresh air. Thought I might see someone I know. Seems like I got lucky." He looked at strangely and it was started to make me feel uncomfortable. I started shuffling my feet but instead of reassuring me; I managed to fall into a wall.

"Steady there," Draco said. He put his hands on his shoulders and leaned in as if to kiss me. Even though I was shocked, I managed to dodge back; but he still had hold of my shoulders. "Come back to mine."

Now I was confused. Did he remember who I was? Maybe he was drunk. I looked up at him; his eyes looked blank and empty. I'd never got this close before though so maybe they were always like that. His forehead was sweating; was that a sign that someone had been drinking?

"Come back with me;" he repeated. I shook my head and said, "No; I can't."

"Why not," he asked. I wasn't sure. I knew that all he wanted was sex. I'd never slept with anyone before and I didn't want him to him to be my first time. On the other hand though, if I didn't do this now then I might not ever get another chance.

He leant in to kiss me again. This time I didn't resist; I didn't have the energy left. I didn't enjoy it; I just let my mind wander. I tried to count how many units I'd had; but I didn't really know what a unit was, so I just tried to remember how many drinks I'd had. Then Draco pulled away.

"So; you're coming back to mine then?" I hesitated. I still didn't want to go but I'd led him on now. It would look bad if I said no. I decided to try and put him off instead; that way he wouldn't be offended and we could all go home happy.

"Nah; you don't want me."

"Sure I do babe."

"What, but I'm ugly. The girls in there are much prettier."

"Its okay, you're fine," and then he started kissing me again. Now I really couldn't say no without looking like a tease. He'd tell everyone and I would get a bad reputation. "My taxi will be here soon. Why don't we sit on the wall while we wait?"

I stumbled over to the wall with him. I knew it was a bad idea but I couldn't think of a way to get out of it. I sat next to him and he put his hand between my legs and started rubbing the inside of my thigh. It didn't feel nice. If anything it felt sleazy; but then what was I expecting?

It didn't take long for the taxi to arrive. I climbed into the backseat. I was starting to feel really tired so I closed my eyes and fell into some kind of semi-conscious state. I could still feel Draco caressing my leg and I knew that he was muttering stuff under his breath to me but I didn't know what. We arrived at his house quicker than I thought we would; maybe it was a magic taxi. I doubted that Draco actually lived near me or I would have seen him about more often.

I clambered out of the taxi. It had driven all the way up the driveway and stopped right outside the large, daunting front doors. They were even bigger than the doors at Hogwarts and I wondered how we'd be able to open them. Maybe we wouldn't and then I could go home without anything happening. This hope was short-lived though; as Draco started to lead me around the side of the Manor to a small side door. Once we were through the door we went up a couple of flights of stairs.

We went into a bedroom; I don't know if it was his or not. He told me to get ready and then he left the room. I took off my coat, jumper and shoes and then I laid down on the bed. I closed my eyes and started to doze off. When I opened them again Draco was back again, except now he was naked. He got on the bed next to me and started kissing me.

He coaxed off my jeans and underwear. He started feeling me. I had never felt so uncomfortable in my life. I closed my eyes and tried to block it out, hoping for it to stop.

When I opened my eyes again he was on top of me; pushing into me. I wondered when that happened and if I'd been asleep. I wished that it would stop. It hurt so much and I didn't think I could bear the pain for much longer.

Eventually he got off me and started kissing me again. He put his hand down to start feeling me again; but this time it hurt so much that I thought I might cry with the pain if he continued. I pushed his hand away.

"Aww; go on babe. It'll be fine."

"No; it hurts too much."

"No it won't. I'll be gentle."

"Just stop it. It hurts," I was almost wailing by this time, but at least he stopped trying. He carried on kissing me but I just wanted to get out of there. I pushed him away and got up.

"What you doing babe," Draco asked me. I started putting my clothes back on.

"I've got to go now," I replied. I was dressed now.

"No; stay the night." He pulled me down on to bed and started kissing me again. I still felt drunk and started kissing him back; but then his hand started creeping down my trousers again. I came to my senses and pushed him away again.

"No. My mum will worry where I am." I picked up my bag and left the room. Once I was out on the landing I started heading for the stairs but they didn't seem to be there. Draco stepped out of the room. He had pulled on a pair of trousers and also looked slightly amused.

"The stairs are that way," he said pointing in the other direction from the way I'd gone. I headed that way. Draco walked me down the stairs and back to the side door; presumably to check I didn't get lost again.

I walked out his house and carried on walking until I got to the end of the driveway. I looked up and down the road and realised I didn't have a clue where I was or the way home. I started to head down the road in the hope that I might get lucky and see a road sign. Hopefully I lived within walking distance.

After a few minutes walking I remembered that although I had run out of muggle money, I still had some proper money on me. I called the knight bus and I got home within a few minutes.

So that's the end of the first chapter. If you've got this far then you might as well review it. If you're going to say something nasty then please give a reason why. Thank you.

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