ARRGH... Sorry for the long update. My Internet wasn't working due to a rainy/stormy days and nights. Anyway. Sorry, but I need to fit in JUST ONE MORE SONG! PLUS, I had a teeny writer's block. Since I had nothing else to do other than play Sims 2 when my Internet was down, this chapter should be my longest. Gomen.
Chapter – I'd give my all... but I can't go on...
It's all a dream... ever since I found you; I've been living in a fantasy. Wonder what it's like to be in heaven without you...
Kagome sighed deeply. It was a gloomy day, and everything was so still. She could hear the small plip-plop-plip-plop of the rain. It had been raining ever since the day she split with Inuyasha. At first, she thought it was a mere coincidence, but as the time came by, she realized that it wasn't a coincidence.
She used to always love when it rained. Everything seemed to get wet, even if you had an umbrella or not. The wind would always blow the rain towards her, making her jeans soaking wet. That is, until he came along.
It was all a blur in her memory now; she could hardly remember what she said that day. It was raining, and she was on her way home. She forgot that it was going to rain, so she didn't bring much of a jacket or an umbrella either.
FLASHBACK - Kagome's point of view
'Why didn't I listen to Ma? It's so cold... I hope I don't get hypothermia...' I shivered under my sweater. I wrapped my arms around my body, trying to keep warm. The winds blew hard against my face, and my hood was slipping from my head. I jolted out one of my hands and grabbed my hood and jammed it back on my head. My cheeks were cold and flushed. My sweater was soaking wet right about now, and my legs were starting to grow cold from my soggy jeans. My black Chucks were soaked in rain, and it was starting to leak through my socks.
I walked on, still a few feet away from my house. It was a long walk from school, and I didn't have a car, so what can I do? Mom and Souta were out shopping, and Grandpa was out on this old people resort. I didn't even know they had those things. So that was kind of shocking. I snagged one of my feet on a crack in the sidewalk, and I could feel the laws of gravity pulling me down. My now soggy clothes added on weight, and any time I was going to hit the floor. But it never came.
I felt a warm hand around my waist pull me up back on my feet. I looked in the eyes of my savior and I was suddenly lost. His gold eyes... Why didn't I see them before? He was strangely dry, and I looked up to see an umbrella. It was a big black umbrella, and it was already dripping wet. A small smile was on his face. When he showed his teeth, I could see small fangs. Fangs? Gold eyes? AND white hair? Plus, doggy ears? Since when did God make boys so cute?
I snapped out of my thoughts as I heard his voice.
"Aren't you a little too young traveling by yourself?" Oh no. Don't tell me he was too old for me! I mean, I am 13. That's old enough, right?
"No thanks. I walk by myself everyday." I brushed myself off. My hood fell back and the rain immediately made my head cold. I groaned under my breath. 'Great. NOW I'm all wet.' He held back a stifled laugh. Oh, now he's laughing. I blushed.
"On a rainy day? Surely you wouldn't mind if I walk with you?" He held his umbrella over my head. It was so large that it was big enough to keep 5 people dry. I blushed even harder, but it died down once I saw his blush. I giggled madly in my head.
"I guess so. Thanks." I smiled my warmest smile at him and watched him blush harder. I walked on towards my house.
"I used to love rainy days like this," He spoke up. I looked at him quizzically. He took notice of my look and smiled softly. "It was raining... About 10 years ago, my parents went out to this party thing. My elder brother had to watch me, plus one of our close friends. I was about 5 years old back then, and I didn't know what it was like to lose a loved one. Well, it was raining pretty hard back then. And it was really windy. When we waited for our parents to come back, they never showed up. I got tired of waiting and watched some TV. I was flipping through the channels, then I landed on the news." He took these short little pauses in between. His eyes no longer had that glint in them, but instead it was dull-like.
"What happened to them?" I whispered. We had stopped walking. The rain around us had started to fall harder.
"They couldn't see where they were going, and this big truck came by and crashed. Their car had flipped over one too many times, so many times that the car was torn apart. Pieces of the windshield had broke, and they found our parents nearly sliced up to pieces. They said the truck driver was drunk-driving." He answered my question. I suddenly felt a pang of guilt for bringing it up.
"I'm sorry," I half murmured and half whispered. He laughed softly.
"No need. It's all a small memory now." He started walking again. He needed a hug. A fool can see that. So, I decided to link my arm with this complete stranger. I could feel his body tense under my arm.
"I lost my dad kind of like that too. Except I have no memory of him whatsoever, so that doesn't really count," I said. I smiled another warm smile at him. The tension died down. I hummed softly.
"I love that song," He said suddenly. His ears had perked up. I stopped humming and looked at him.
"It is one of my favorites... I remember my mom singing it to me," I smiled again. Then, out of nowhere, I started to sing the beginning of the song.
"I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side...
"I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight..."
I was singing so softly, that you could barely hear it. Out of the blue, he started to freestyle. I was amazed at how good his voice was...
"You got me in the worst way, as soon as I look in your eyes,
I realize that these other guys, tellin you lies
I need a visualize coz I got my head in the sky
But you're buggin' my eyes cos your jeans huggin' your thighs
You don't treat me like those other guys, I touch you and you love the reply, now don't lie you know you love that as I
You tellin' me that you want me inside, and when I kiss you, I can feel you tempature rise, and that's official,
"But see, I can tell that the situation is critical because you love me and I only loved your physical
So, I tryin' to set back, and think what my kid would do because if you hurt her, she would never be forgiving you, but see she don't care, she just lettin' it go while she lovin' and huggin' me and kissin' me slow but little does she know, we didn't make that trip to the regal, until I let her find little nino, haha," He sang in this little rap, and it fit well with the song.
I didn't want to stop, so I sang the next part. I didn't know his version of the song, so I decided to go along with it.
"I'd give my all to have just one more night with you (just one more night)
I'd risk my life, to feel, your body next to mine (uh huh)
Cos i can't go on, (sing it to 'em)
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight," I sang a little louder than the other part, and he started adding in some backrounds to the verses. I could tell he knew what he was doing by the way he sang another rap part.
"Now this girl won't stop callin' me up on my phone, tellin me that she needs me because she's all alone, but I'm tryin' to tell her that I can't be a man I'm too young and it's dumb, I hope you understand,
"Now she sayin' that she can't even sleep anymore, its like I took her heart and threw it on the floor, and she sittin there cryin', just trying to learn why she listens to Usher, she's lettin' it burn, and I'm sorry I broke your heart and to this pieces I'm trying to set back and find all the reasons why I came around and clouded her sun, but the past is the past I can't change what I've done
"And she's on the phone screaming that she doesn't like me, just because I don't want to make her my wifey, I can't believe that I, made this young girl cry, I wish I could go back and wipe the tears from her eyes," He sang that last part a little softer. I wondered if this was making him think about something, but it was my turn to sing. We walked on, and the rain was starting to fall a little less. We had reached my house by then, but we didn't get to finish our song. I sang the very last part under my breath.
"I'd give my all, to have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel, you body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on, living in the memory of our song..."
"I can't go on neither." That was the last I heard of him. When we parted, the rain started to fall again, harder than ever. He disappeared behind a corner, and he was gone. He didn't even give me his name.
END FLASHBACKKagome sighed deeply. It was one of those days where she just wanted to have a good cry.
"I can't go on, Inuyasha! I can't go on..."
SOMEWHERE in Inuyasha's mansion...
"I can't go on neither." Inuyasha blurted out. Miroku looked at him puzzled.
"What was that, Inuyasha? Why can't you go on?" Miroku asked him. Inuyasha shrugged.
"It just came to me," Inuyasha said as he climbed in the driver's seat of his car. Miroku got in the passenger seat of his Hummer and buckled up. Inuyasha did the same and started the engine. "Why was Kouga throwing a party again?"
"I don't know, I think it's his cousin's birthday." Miroku shrugged.
"Well, I just hope his cousin is old enough to drink." He said as he drove off.
BACK to Kagome
Kagome dried her face from her tears. Her phone rang and she hesitated to pick it up. She let it ring for a few and then grabbed the receiver.
"H-hello?" Kagome stammered.
"Hey! Kagome? It's Sango!" Sango's voice was heard on the other end. Kagome brightened up.
"Hey! What's up?"
"Let's go party! Kouga is throwing this party, and he's inviting us. I'm here right now! See you at your door!" Kagome looked out the window and saw Sango climbing out of her car. She hung up her phone and bolted to the front door. She quickly opened it and Sango was already on her doorstep, grinning.
"Come on! Let's go pick out an outfit!" Sango grabbed Kagome's wrist and pulled her upstairs. Kagome grinned as they reached her room. The necklace around her neck bounced as she hopped up the stairs with Sango.
"Ok! Let's see what you could wear," Sango started to pull out different outfits and laid them out on Kagome's bed. She picked the outfit with the tight low cut jeans. "Ok, I'll go get a shirt." Sango walked in her walk-in closet and started whipping out different shirts with matching jackets. Kagome picked up the jean jacket with a white t-shirt.
"You can go do something while I change, just don't raid the fridge too much," Kagome giggled as she stepped in her bathroom. Sango giggled back as she walked out of the room.
Kagome pulled the shirt over her white tank top and slipped on the jeans. She put her arms through the jacket and fixed the collar. The Shikon Jewel hung at her neck, still glowing that glittery pink glow. Somehow, it went with all her outfits.
Knock-knock-knock"Kagome? Are you done?" Sango's voice was heard.
"Yeah, I'm coming right out."
"Good, because we're late," Sango laughed. "I'll be in the car." Kagome could hear Sango's footsteps fade as she went out the door. She took one last look at herself and hustled down the stairs and out her front door and into Sango's car. She cranked up the radio. It was one of her favorite singers, Utada Hikaru.
"You will always be the one I love, I hope I have that place in your heart too..."
It sounded like the situation like she was in... but it was different in some ways too.
"Kagome? Why are you so quiet? Is there something on your mind?" Sango peered at her. It was a red light, so then Sango turned her face to hers. "What's wrong, Kagome? Is it Inuyasha?"
Kagome twitched slightly. "Not really... But the rain is starting to pour, Sango. Let's hope we make it home safe, ok?" Sango understood and nodded. The light turned green and Sango drove on. Kagome stared out the window and found herself twirling her ring from Inuyasha round and round her finger. She glanced at it and watched it sparkle. Sango noticed this.
"You're still thinking of him, aren't you?" Sango said softly.
Kagome laughed under her breath softly. "Heh... nothing is more painful than realizing he meant everything to you, and you meant nothing to him."
"Kagome, you're wrong. Haven't you noticed? He hasn't come out of his room since! He didn't even bother to go to school! Kagome, you're not only hurting him, you're hurting yourself." Sango said sharply. These words seethed into Kagome. It was all true, and she knew it. She was hurting as well.
"Oretachi wa betsu ni omae ni doujou shite amacchoroi to itteru wake ja nee ze. Kagome please... just get back with Inuyasha. Everything will be back to normal," Sango said as she pulled into Kouga's street. Kagome sighed deeply under her breath.
"With Inuyasha's thick skull, he'll just act like nothing ever happened," She murmured under her breath softly. "He'll just act like he doesn't know me."
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Inuyasha whacked Miroku on the head. "Why didn't you tell me SHE was going to be here??"
Miroku guarded himself from another blow and spoke, "I thought you wouldn't care!" Miroku said back at him. Inuyasha stopped hitting him.
"You're right. We should have some fun, eh?" Inuyasha let out a nervous laugh. Miroku shook his head.
"Sorry buddy, tonight I'm going with Sango. Ja ne!" Miroku disappeared in the crowd. Inuyasha's golden eyes followed him going in and out of the big mob of kids and towards two girls. One of them was Sango, and the other was Kagome. His eyes landed on her and lingered there for a while. He was brought back to reality by a big pat on his back. He whipped around to see Kouga.
"Hey! Having fun, eh?" He let out a big laugh as he brushed past him and started walking to Kagome. He watched as Kouga greeted her and he watched her smile at him. Of course, it was a fake smile, he could tell because her smiles were always false whenever she was smiling with Kouga. She even told him so anyway. He spotted Ayame nearby and decided to go talk to her.
"Hey, Ayame!" He tapped her on the shoulder. She turned around and smiled at him.
"Hey, Inuyasha! Great party, huh?" She yelled over the loud music. Inuyasha waved his hand.
"What's up with you and Kouga? Aren't you two going out?" Inuyasha asked. She shook her head softly.
"Yeah, but we are on this... 'time out'. And to think a little argument would tear us apart! Why do you ask?" Ayame grinned at him. He just waved his hand again.
"Curious."
"Curiosity killed the cat. Or in your case, the dog." Inuyasha's ears perked up when he heard this. What did that mean? Was he going to die or something? Nah.
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Kagome smiled around her as she drank some more punch. The lights were so dark and blurry around her, and colors moved around here and there. She felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned around and giggled.
"Hello there! You're pretty tall and dark! Do I know you?" Kagome could feel the man push her out of the house and into a car. It was awkwardly warm in the car, and she could see a man in the passenger seat.
"Kagome. Long time no see. Here, have a glass of water," the man handed her an unopened water bottle. She took it carefully and twisted it open. She took a big gulp, and her vision was suddenly clear. She quickly looked at the bottle labeled, and fortunately for her, it was regular natural spring water.
"Who are you? How did you know my name, how did you know I was drunk, and where'd you get this water? It's good. Is that a bad thing?" She asked all at once. The man chuckled. She couldn't see his face at all, or any part of his body.
"Boy, you haven't really changed, huh? I'll explain things later, K'gome," The man laughed under his breath. K'gome? It sounded familiar... but she couldn't really put her finger on it.
"Why not now?"
The next thing that was heard was the raindrops on the windshield. The big man who put her in the car climbed in the driver's seat.
"Boss, shall we go?" The man in the driver's seat had a husky voice.
"No, I have a few things to say first." The man whom Kagome decided to name 'Strange Guy' spoke. "I need to refresh her memory." Kagome froze when she heard this. Strange Guy was referring to her of course, and she knew that it was trouble.
"Do you know who I am?" Strange Guy asked. Kagome shook her head.
"N-no."
"Nothing? Nothing at all? Not even a clue? Do you want a hint?" Strange Guy had this familiar voice to him. Or her.
"Nope." Kagome said. She could hear Strange Guy chuckle.
"Does the name, Naraku, ring a bell?"
"Well, not a bell but-"Kagome's eyes widened as she realized what he just said. "You...!"
"Yeah, you haven't changed. So, how about handing over that pretty necklace around you neck over to me, and I'll let you free?" Naraku asked calmly.
"If I decline?" Kagome spat out before she had time to think.
"Ooh, I love it when people say that!" Naraku turned to the big guy in the driver's seat. "Don't you?" The man nodded. Naraku turned back to Kagome and grinned.
"We get to kill you, leave you somewhere and make it look like an accident, OR push your dead body in a hijacked car and make it go in front of a rampaging truck. How does that sound?" Naraku asked cheerfully.
"Sounds brutal. I should try that one day." Kagome said bravely. Naraku cheerfully laughed.
"And to think I got the idea from you and your crazy projects." Naraku retorted, this time icily.
"Really? I think that's amazing." Kagome said back. Naraku rolled his eyes.
"Can I get the jewel and get it over with? With a rotten cherry and some bitter sugar on top?" Naraku said. Kagome scoffed.
"As if I had some cherries and sugar. Sorry, no can do." Kagome spat out again before she had time to think.
"Alright, I take that as your final answer. Driver, let's go." Naraku snapped his fingers and the driver started up the engine. Kagome quickly rolled down her window and screamed out in the rain.
"INUYAAAAAAAAASHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!"
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Inuyasha's ears perked up as he heard his name be called out in the dark rainy night. It sounded like Kagome's voice. He saw Sango and Miroku run toward him. They were out of breath.
"Kagome was kidnapped! Please, I know you don't care, but you must help! She's our friend!" Sango was near tears as she grabbed the front of Inuyasha's shirt.
"We saw her! She screamed out your name, please Inuyasha, she still loves you! There was this big man, and then this other man with long curly hair and he looked evil-"Inuyasha cut Miroku off.
"NARAKU!!"
Inuyasha ran out of the house and into the cold, rainy night.
"KAAAGOOOOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!" He yelled out in the dark night, and then he dropped to his knees. It was hard to tell if he was crying or not, because he was drenched in the cold rain.
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Kagome shuddered. It was so cold in the room that even her hair was probably shivering. She was being held captive in a large empty abandoned shipping warehouse. At least she knew now where all the shipped goods used to go. She could hear Naraku and a few other men talking low. Her hands were handcuffed, and she sat in the corner. It was so cold, that her mouth was nearly closed shut. A window was right next to her, but there were a few cracked holes in the glass. Maybe that was why it was freezing. The stars shined brightly in the rain, and the moon was as big as ever. She heard a faint call out in the dark night sky.
"Kaaaaaagooooomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!..." It was so faint, but even for her human ears, it sounded so clear in the night.
She looked away from the window and back at Naraku. He and his henchmen were no longer there, and she was all alone in the large empty room.
Alone... again...
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"Inuyasha, please wait! We need to call Sesshomaru! We still need to call Kagome's mom!" Sango and Miroku panted. They stopped and looked at Inuyasha.
"But I need to find her... I don't want to lose her again." Inuyasha said as he looked out up to the sky.
"We know. But this Naraku is dangerous," Miroku said. He took Inuyasha by the arm and led him to his house. "She'll be alright, and Naraku won't do anything to her. She'll be safe."
"I hope you're right," Sango said as she followed them to Inuyasha's mansion.
TO THE MANSION!
"Let's go look for her. Miroku, Sango, Kouga. Let's go," Sesshomaru turned around to go out the door. Inuyasha felt like smacking him.
"What about me??" Inuyasha yelled.
"We need someone to wait here! In case he decides to raid our house!" Sesshomaru retorted.
"That's why Kagome's mom is here!!!" Inuyasha yelled back. "And Rin is here too!"
Sesshomaru sighed. "Alright. Go get Tetsuaiga. And HURRY UP!" Sesshomaru said as he booted Inuyasha all the way up the stairs.
A few minutes later, Inuyasha came back down with a sword in his hands. "I found it! Ok let's go!" Inuyasha rushed out the door, leaving Sesshomaru, Sango, and Miroku gaping after him. They snapped back and ran after him.
"What's Tetsuaiga?" Miroku asked as he ran. His staff charms jingled cheerfully as he ran. Sango's giant boomerang was slung on her back as she rode on Kirara.
"It's our father's sword he inherited. It has the power to slay 100 demons with one swing. I had tried to steal it from him, but now that I have a better sword, I don't have much use for it," Sesshomaru answered. Miroku looked at the two swords at Sesshomaru's hip.
"What about the sword you got?" Miroku asked.
Sesshomaru didn't say anything. They ran on in the cold raining night, the rain starting to feel like icy knives piercing through your skin as they fell down. It was one of those nights that reminded Inuyasha about his parents.
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Kagome stared at the empty space before her. It was dark, and she was starting to smell a rather musty smell coming from a small corner in the room. There was a man in front of the door so she couldn't break out, and there was a whole bunch of other men all around the warehouse. The winds blew roughly at the windows, so it rattled every time a gust of wind blew.
The door creaked open, and she saw two figures enter the shadows. Then, the two walked calmly out of the shadows, and she wondered who they were. One took the appearance of a young girl, her white clothing made her look eerie, but the black void in the mirror she held matched the color in her eyes. The other was a pretty young woman, her kimono designed with cheerful colors. A large white and red fan was held in her right hand. Her black hair was pulled in a bun, and two feathers held it together.
"Naraku asks if you would like to be held for ransom. Agree?" The woman asked her. Kagome looked puzzled.
"Why? No one's coming anyway." Kagome said heftily. The girl spoke up. Her voice was so soft and it sounded hypnotizing.
"You are wrong. They are coming," The girl said. The woman looked in her mirror, and sure enough, an image came. It looked so real, like as if they were watching a movie. The image wasn't blurry or anything, and Kagome could see who was in the mirror.
"Inuyasha?" She blurted out. The woman let her gaze fall on Kagome.
"YOU know who this is??" The woman asked her. Kagome just looked at her.
"Yeah. But who are you?" Kagome asked. She was scared, but something reassured her that they wouldn't hurt her much.
"I am Kagura of the wind. This, is my sister Kanna of the void," The one named Kagura said. "We were created from Naraku."
"Naraku?" Kagome said. "How did-"
"Naraku has many powers, girl. I suggest you hand over the jewel and we'll let you go."
"No. I'm sorry," Kagome's head dropped down. "I can't let him get any more stronger than he is now. I need to get away. Will you help me?" Kagome asked hesitantly. Kagura's eyes widened with shock and disbelief.
"Me? Help you? Even if I tried, Naraku will kill me," Kagura said defiantly. "He is always watching us."
"Why won't you try and kill him?" Kagome asked.
"You're very curious, you know that? Well, Naraku holds our hearts in his very palms. One wrong thing, and he can kill us," Kagura laughed softly under her breath.
"I'll help you..." Kagome whispered.
"Why should you help me, a complete stranger? Didn't your mother ever tell you not to talk to strangers?" Kagura said. She arched one eyebrow at her.
"You're not a stranger! I know your name at least. And you talked to me first, so that doesn't count," Kagome said boldly. The wind started to settle down, but the rain still poured on.
"Alright... I'll help you," Kagura said so only she, Kanna and herself could hear.
Have fun with your 10 pages of pure 'SO SCANDLELOUS' material! ;)
BTW , 'Oretachi wa betsu ni omae ni doujou shite amacchoroi to itteru wake ja nee ze' means "We're not doing this because we feel sorry for you, we're doing it because we MEAN it."
ain't that cool ? :D