Chapter 2: Crying Shame

Disclaimer: I do not own slam dunk!

Summary: Sendoh always yearns for Maki. He tried to peek on Maki on the shower room and without knowing this will be the start of his nightmare that he will burden forever.

Pairings: Sendoh X Maki X Akagi

Warnings: Yaoi rape

Sendoh scurried passed the practicing grounds with some of the awakened Kainan boys.

"Hey! Akira are you ok?", yelled his best friend Hanamichi, from not so afar. Sendoh just stopped for a second, just took a swipe then just carried on running where his legs would bring him. Tears streamed down his face, falling down horizontally as he picks up the pace.

"Hey, Sendoh is quite weird this afternoon, isn't he?" Hanamichi with the sign of worriness in his voice.

"Just ignore that man, I know his styles if he was being hassled by problems, he would just trying to solve it all by himself.", Ouzumi, came back without looking at him.

"PRRRRT", their coach signaled them by whistling, it's time for the practice.

Meanwhile, Sendoh got his car and drove towards his apartment. After a few minutes he was there at the front of his residence. He abruptly banged the door open and immediately went to the bathroom to take a shower – to wash away the filth and guilt.

He had still his clothes on when he twists the lever of the shower and adjusts the controller to a semi hot one. He gets the scrub and scours his skin tomato red. No matter how hard scouring his body is, he can't get away from the feeling of dirtiness and filthiness. He yanks his clothes and upon seeing some discharge flowing out of his 'rosebud' reminiscing the fresh memory of the incident – his rape. He can't help not to cry out loud. He was just screaming every minute and quivers violently. He can't accept the fact that he was guilty but still thinks he didn't deserve this kind of maltreatment. The fresh semen of the combined lust of Akagi and Maki keeps on flowing down between his beefy but flawless thighs. After of what seems of eternity of being streamed down by the hot water, he pulled his towel from the hook and patted his body dry. He opened snatched the hanged robe and covered his abused body. The evidences of the assault – the ripped shirt stained with his own blood and the pair of jeans he had worn when the assault occurred was decided by him to be burned out. Confounded and can't decide whether he is going to present this to the authority for some evidences of the rape "damn! The whole world will know that I was abused and I hadn't done anything to stop it" or he's going to burned it out and bury it forever – abandoning of what had happened to him, just forget about it.

While those obscene memories were keeps on swimming on his mind, he stood at the front of the mirror and scrutinized his looks. He looks so haggard and his eyes were puffed up. "God!! Why are you doing this to me!", he whispered. Those expressive blue eyes of him flooded with tears again as he remembered he was forced to suck Akagi, how he was violated, and how the two guys humiliated him using their own animalistic way. He remembered himself fantasizing of getting been gang banged but he never expected this to happen in reality and of course no sane human would ever like to be in that kind of situation. He keeps on crying but no tears coming out, all are drained out. He keeps on sobbing. This couldn't have been done if he made a good approach of his target – he wished he couldn't have decided to peek on Maki, maybe things won't turn this out but no matter how he wishes, it was too late. He should have done some thinking of good steps at the first place but it's over. It was too late.

He was so desperate of what he had gone through this afternoon. He went back to the bathroom; his eyes caught the medicine closet and settled on hollowing out something. And he found a bottle of sleeping pills. He twisted open the cap and plunged all the pills onto his palm and gulped it down. He immersed himself in the bath tub and waited there to sleep forever.

The feeling of betrayal of one's self pushes him to commit suicide.

"Very nice three points shot! Maki", roared Akagi. "It's a sure win over the Ryonan team."

"Whoah! More than ever, there's no more sen-sen to be targeted more! We had made him loose his face!", adds Maki.

Riiinggg! Riiinggggg! Riiiingggg! 20x Riiiiiinnggggg 20x beep beep beep …..

"God! What's the hell going on on that guy?", Hanamichi talked to himself while phoning Sendoh.

"Never mind that 'human'!, you need to focus more giving on your shots! They're seems as stupid as your bestfriend!", Ouzumi with his deep voice.

The Ryonan team needs more practice 'coz they're only given a two day practice to regroup themselves, especially they are going to deal with the No. 1 team in their school, The Kainan team in a few days. This could be a chance for them to take hold of that crown and rule all the way. But things might not work as what as expected. Sendoh, one of their key players was not there to collaborate with them. Their starting line up might change if Sendoh failed to oblige himself going to the practice the next day. Things are going fast this time and the two day practice was not enough for them to adjust. Hence, they need more focus. But Hanamichi was still worrying about Sendoh and the anxiety intensified as he felt something different. He can't just stand there flat footed while thinking but walking there and here and feeling very uneasy.

"I'll be here in a few!!, he decided to run after Sendoh but Ouzumi insisted not to. Despite of Ouzumi's disagreement, he failed to stop Hanamichi. Hanamichi was so determined to know what's been going on to Sendoh. He's feeling kind of a brotherly love 'coz Sendoh is always there when he is down. Maybe this is the right time for him to be there for Sendoh. (Winks..)

After several minutes…..

Knock! Knock! Knock! Then again with much force. Knock! Knock! Knock! Ten banging knocks. But still no response.

Hanamichi found out that the knob of the door was opened so he urgently twisted it open and to his surprise, the inside of the house is muddled up; scratches of papers, some tables, pills, were scattered anywhere, some parts of the floor were tarnished by dried water, probably coming from the footprints trailing from the bathroom door. He thought it is due to a robbery or whatever. Whatever it is he needs to find Sendoh as soon as possible, thinking some horrible crime that maybe had taken in that place won't help him of what he's all rummaging around. No matter of how he hardly positively assuming still, the sight of the dirty clothes – especially the shirt, a "Converse" t-shirt which he had presented Sendoh as his gift to his birthday a couple of months ago – being ripped and streaked with blood made him shed tears. He scuttled directly upstairs, going in rooms but all rooms were seemed ok. No sign that Sendoh went up there. So he scuttled down, he almost jumped the next 10 steps. His left ankle hits the corner of the last step and it made him sits in pain. He endures it by clutching it and his eyes caught the footprints to the bathroom. "Fck!", Hanamichi can't walk anymore. His injury due to torn tendons was not yet fully healed and maybe his left ankle might be suffering a greenstick fracture for it swells in a split second. He creeps towards the bathroom and his eyes wide as he saw Sendoh looks unconscious –his arms wide apart, water continuously flowing out of the tub, his mouth opened a bit with his head resting on the side wall. "Ssee…nn.do", his stomach churns.

A/n: Akagi is no longer a member of Shohoku, their team reshuffled their players and allocated it to some other teams. Meaning to say, Shohoku team was replaced by a new team, of course with a new team name. Whatever it is, I can't answer it right now but I apologize to all Shohoku fanatics there, this is part of my story and I've nothing against the team… And there we go, he was included together with Hanamichi in the Ryonan team but Akagi was expelled by their manager because of his attitude problem. He was offered by the Kainan team 'coz they are in need of a tall center.,,