Never Again
By: Freewater
Ratings: R Male/Male relationships in this story, you have been warned
Warnings: I would have to say a lot of angst, mentions of rape.
Disclaimers: I don NOT own these characters, nor do I claim to. This story was made for the hell of it without profit.
Pairings: YAOI! Gh-Tr
Notes: These things here ooooo are for a change in time, scenery or character. And this will also be an Alternate Universe fic. Pan was never born to Videl.
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The sound of horrified screaming filled his ears, sending chills up his very spine at the sick sound, and although he knew where it was coming from and who was doing the screaming, there was nothing he could do to save the one in pain.
And it killed him on the inside knowing that he couldn't help
He was so close, so close and yet so far away.
In fact, if he were to turn around right now, he'd get an eyeful of the both the torturer and the victim.
But he didn't want to see that again. It was a sight that had haunted him for the past ten years, and no matter what he did, no matter how hard he tried to forget, those images kept on coming back to him.
His punishment he supposed.
Knowing perfectly well that there was nothing he could do to stop the horrible things going on behind him, he tried as best as he could to ignore the pleading and screaming, the grunting and moaning.
...The crying and begging.
It was just too much to bare, knowing that he was the one responsible for it all.
No wonder Trunks hated him so much.
He was only sixteen when it happened.
Looking up at he dark night sky, there were no stars out, and the moon was at least three times larger than normal. The color of blood painted on it.
Blood moon.
He snarled up at it, his shaking fists clenched at the unfairness of the situation.
Earth's moon was gone. Destroyed decades ago by Piccolo. But for some reason, the moon on Vegeta-sei would not only make itself known to the people of earth, but it would also have a terrible effect on the saiyans living there.
Every ten years or so.
Calculated right, it set the stage for the awful act going on behind him perfectly.
By the time Goku was of age, he'd already been married and chosen his mate, so it had no effect on him.
Luckily for the people of earth.
It had no effect on Vegeta, because he quickly took Bulma for a mate shortly after arriving on earth.
And as for himself? Well, he was only seventeen by the time blood moon could have any effect on him, but it was that same year that he fought against Majin Buu, so his energy was luckily directed elsewhere.
When it came back, he had nothing to direct his energy on and keep his mind focused like before, and Trunks was emitting the most wonderful scent...
Goten was of age for blood moon to work its evil on him by that time, but because they shared blood it didn't draw them to each other, but instead towards the next available saiyan.
Vegeta figured out what was happening too late, and Gohan could specifically remember the feeling of being held back as he yelled at his son to run away. Hell, Gohan had even tried holding himself back once he too figured out what was happening. But he just couldn't stop himself.
It was like he was disconnected from his body, and looking down as both he and Goten beat Vegeta into unconsciousness before going after their prey. Helpless to do anything but watch.
He was a mated saiyan, with the scent of another on him, so they didn't want him. Trunks was the one in heat, brought on by the blood moon, so it was him they were after.
They had to fight each other for the right to him while chasing after him at the same time, and when Gohan finally managed to beat his brother into a deep sleep, it wasn't long before he caught up with the teen trying to hide from him.
His scent led him straight to him.
Everything that happened afterwards, made him want to be sick. The fact that he himself was doing those things to the boy was just unbelievable, but at the same time, he believed it, because he was being forced to watch as it happened. Completely sickened with himself, and wishing to just wake up and find that it had all been a terrible nightmare.
But it wasn't, and he actually did those things.
It wasn't enough that he raped him, but he had to beat him as well. Slapping, punching, biting, scratching, slamming, and kicking, as if his screaming and crying wasn't enough. Because the louder he screamed and the harder he cried, the better it was.
He then remembers sitting beside him while it was happening, having given up on trying to shoot Ki beams at himself since they just seemed to fly right through him anyway without effect. Trunks could not see, nor hear him, but he was there, crying as well as it happened and wishing there was some way to make it stop.
To put the both of them out of their misery.
He lets out a faint, choked whisper, his face in his hand since he could no longer look. "Oh God, Trunks, I'm so sorry." He cries, hearing another cry of pain as he bit into Trunks' neck, marking him as his and bonding them together for life.
And that's where it always ends.
Gohan awoke with a giant start in his bed, panting and sweating as he struggled to remember where he was and what had happened.
It takes him a moment to realize that it had been another dream, and when he does he lays back in bed with a dejected sigh.
It had been a while since he'd had that dream, and while he knew that he wouldn't be getting back to sleep, he lay in bed anyway, staring up at the ceiling and allowing the sound of the heavy rain outside soothe his tense nerves.
Every time he had that dream, it was always a dark reminder of just why Trunks hated him so much.
Not that he could ever blame him, after what he did, he deserved his hatred.
He knew that what he took from the lavender haired man was more than just his virginity. He took his dignity, embarrassed and humiliated him, stole the last years of his life that a teen is meant to enjoy with the fear he created in him along with a pregnancy he was forced to hide.
As it turns out, when a male saiyan is in heat under blood moon, that saiyan can get pregnant.
From what he heard, Trunks luckily didn't miss out on much school since the incident had happened a couple of months before summer, and since the average saiyan pregnancy was only four or five months, he gave birth to Pan and was back in school by mid September.
People only thought that he put on a bit of weight.
But he didn't consider himself lucky. Gohan had heard it all from Goten.
Trunks wanted nothing to do with any member of the Son family after that, including Goten, whom he gave a real earful to. Hating him for trying to attack him and hating Gohan for doing what he did to him.
Ruining his life, giving him a child that he never wanted, and making it impossible for him to ever touch another human being without bringing up memories of his assault.
Because of his age, and the way Pan was conceived, she had to be hidden for the first few years of her life until Trunks was of age and could claim he adopted her to the public.
Gohan felt tears building in his eyes at the thought of Pan, and he so wished that things could be different between himself and Trunks, but they weren't, and once again he found that he couldn't blame him for it.
The only reason why he ever even had the chance to hold her, was because he was needed to help Bulma with the birth, much to Trunks' dismay and constant protests. And because Trunks simply refused to be in the same room with him by himself, Bulma had assigned him to take the little girl into the other room to clean her up while the blue haired woman worked on stapling her son's stomach shut.
He was unconscious by that time, so he made no complaints.
Gohan simply couldn't help himself at that point. When he was done cleaning her and dressing her, he couldn't help but think that she was the most beautiful looking baby he'd ever seen. So tiny, her eyes closed and fists clenched as she kicked her small legs.
He picked her up, held her for only a moment, and then bonded with her.
But then it was made perfectly clear to him how he wasn't wanted around Capsule Corp or his daughter.
So he was sent away.
Gohan brought a hand up to wipe away the tears, hating himself once more with the memory of what he'd done fresh in his mind.
Deciding that he needed something to drink, he slowly got out of bed and headed for the kitchen. Desperately wanting something to take his mind off of the dream.
He raided the fridge, and after finding that it was nearly empty, he came to the conclusion that he needed to go grocery shopping while taking the last of the milk and settling himself at the table to drink it. Looking through some of the newspaper articles he had yet to read from the day before, but he just couldn't get into it.
The fact remained that he was still worried for Trunks, it wasn't just about Pan.
Blood moon would be coming again, and they were only bonded halfway.
Goten was no longer a threat since he married that Paris girl, but he still couldn't help but be fearful that history would repeat itself if something wasn't done.
He guessed that was why he went to Pan's school the other day. He wanted to see her, but he wanted to see Trunks more, but at the sight of his little girl he broke down and crumbled. Begging Trunks to simply allow him visitation rights instead of trying to talk to him in the calm and collected way that he originally planned.
He sighed, running a hand through his black hair. He'd told Vegeta about his concerns, and thankfully for him the prince had been worried about the same thing, and told him he would try to do something about it.
He had yet to hear anything from him, but at least someone was helping him.
The very last thing he wanted to do was force Trunks to be his life mate, but it was either that or...
Gohan shivered, he didn't even want to think about losing control like that and forcing himself on him again, but what other choice did they have? And it wasn't like anything needed to drastically change.
They were already bonded halfway, and that in itself was enough to make certain feelings he had for the lavender haired man known to him, and the very last thing he wanted to do was hurt him again.
What other choice did they have?
Hopefully though, Vegeta would be able to talk a little sense into him, but he was the son of Vegeta, and therefore extremely stubborn.
The only thing Gohan could hope for, was that even if Trunks wanted nothing to do with him, he would still listen to his father.
Time was running out.
To Be Continued...............................
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A.N: Well, I guess now that you all know about how I mercilessly tortured poor Trunks I should probably be running for my life 0.o