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Let Me Dream: Part Nineteen - Dark Deeds

Robin waved to Beast Boy as he dropped him off in front of his house. Once he was inside he went up to his room and closed his door. He threw his jacket into the corner and flopped down onto his bed. He wasn't sure if he wanted to scream, cry, or just sink into a dark hole where he couldn't be found. He was amazed at Beast Boy's acceptance of him. True he had always been the most forgiving out of the group, but still.. there was so much to forgive. Robin ground his fist into his eyes, willing back tears.

"None of it is really pretty, and I won't sugar coat it for you." Beast boy had stated earlier that day. "If you got any questions I will answer them as best as I can, but don't ask me why you did the things you did cuz I can't explain that." Beast Boy had waited for Robin to nod before continuing. "You, Kory, and me were friends for a long time. Since we were little kids. We always wanted to be something special. Heros. As we got older and started school there were two more kids that were added to our group. Raven and Victor. Or I guess as you know him, Cyborg." Robins eyes widened as Beast Boy continued. "We did everything together. Yeah we were little but we were really close. It was maybe in 3rd grade when Victor was in a car accident. Both his parents died and he lost one of his arms. He moved in with his grandmother and it was hard on him, dealing with all that and being called Cyborg by all the piss ants in our school. We all stuck together though, at least until Slade moved to town." Beast Boy frowned and tapped his fingers on the table before continuing.

"Slade was bad news. He was always into things, bad things. I didn't like him, neither did Rae or Vic, but he caught Kory's affections pretty quick. The rest of us thought that you'd hate him for that. We all knew you loved her, heck man, anyone that looked at you two together could tell that there was something there. It didn't though. It was like you wanted to be him. You were always with him, always doing whatever he told you. You turned on Vic and Rae pretty quickly, just because Slade didn't like them. I guess I was under radar because I didn't get too much trouble from Slade, you two had your hands full tormenting everyone else." Beast Boy took a deep breath and shifted uncomfortably. "A few years down the road Terra had moved here and her and I started seeing each other pretty quickly. You could tell from the start that she was like a bird, so fragile and afraid, ready to fly off any moment. I loved her from the moment I saw her. It became pretty obvious though that there were problems deeply hidden that cast shadows over her eyes. I thought that I could help but at the time she needed much more than I could have given her. She ah, I found out that she had been doing drugs when she overdosed. I don't know if she did them before she moved here or not, but I found out that she had been getting them from Slade. In exchange for the drugs she had been sleeping with him, sort of as a payment. When I confronted him, you got in my way. You defended him, saying that Slade would never do anything like that. He stood behind you smiling smugly, as though waiting for us to fight each other. I turned my back on you and our friendship then. Terra was in the hospital, getting her stomach pumped. She was in rehab for a long time. I wasn't even sure if she would ever be allowed to come home, but thankfully she was." Beast Boy's eyes had teared up and he wiped his hand across his face quickly.

"She is doing really well right now though, and we are doing good. I love her and she loves me. I forgave her, really I mean, I should have known, I should have been able to protect her." Robin swallows a lump that had formed in his throat.

"I am so sorry Beast Boy, I wish.. I wish I could make it up to you." Beast Boy nodded.

"Hey Robin?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks for being you again." Robin nodded.

"I'm just sorry I couldn't do it sooner." Beast Boy had looked at his watch then and decided it was time to take Robin home. Things felt strained between the boys, but both of them seemed glad to have the truth out in the open.

Robin realized that we was crying freely now as he recounted the memories. He hated himself for the things that he had done to the people he cared about. He ground his teeth together in sorrow and rage as he swore an oath with only the silence of his room to bear witness.

"No matter what! I will make up for my deeds, and I will make Slade pay for his!"