-_- Sometimes I don't know why I bother writing. I would threaten not to
update until I receive a certain number of reviews, but as you're the only
person reading this Shaami, that wouldn't be very fair on you. I really do
enjoy reading your OTT reviews, so please do continue to write them.
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I just continue to stare at Bakura in complete shock, I can't quite comprehend that he read me so easily. How could he know that I lost someone I loved, someone that I hid from knowledge, because I felt she was inappropriate? That fact hurts me, because it must have hurt her, yet I still hide her away even now.
I wonder how she felt about our relationship, or more so, how she felt about dying in my arms while I hid her away in the dark, so no one could see I cared. I think she must have hated me for it, hated the fact that the man she loved hid her & that fact must have made her feel very unworthy & alone.
I am snapped from my reverie when I notice a hand being waved in front of my face. I meet Bakura's gaze & am once again surprised by the concern present.
"Sorry, I was thinking." I state, shrugging nonchalantly.
"About the person you lost?" He asks softly, though certainly not tactfully.
"I never said there was a person Bakura. What does it matter to you anyway?"
"I lost someone myself Malik, I know what it's like. I've never looked at another woman since."
"That was back before you got sealed?"
"Yes. I was only a minor tomb robber then, Pharaoh's guards killed her for protecting me, that's why I hated him so much."
"Hated? You don't hate him anymore?"
"No, we're even now. After Ryou's effort to save me, I had to drop the grudge."
"I see. It must have been hard for you to do though?"
"Yes, it was, but it needed to be done. What about you?"
Shimatta, I was hoping that he would have forgotten about me. I don't know that I'm ready to talk about her, yet at the same time I don't want to keep hiding her. I guess I owe him an explanation too, since he told me about his loss. This is going to be hard, I've never spoken of her before, my only hope is that I don't start crying.
"Go & fetch Marik, then I'll talk." I state eventually.
Bakura nods & leaves. I don't really want to explain it to one person, let alone two, but I know Marik really wants answers & as I said, I have to return Bakura's trust.
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I still can't believe what that idiot thief did, I swear, if he upsets Malik any further, I'm going to kill him, despite the fact that he's my best friend. After being locked out of my hikari's room, I decided to come downstairs, initially to sulk & plot the tomb robber's demise, but I decided that destroying things on one of our many games was a better idea, as I'm at least working off some anger that way.
Unfortunately, gaming makes me think about me 'crush', I wonder if that fact would give away who it is? It's funny; I would've laughed at the concept of caring for someone not long ago, especially if I'd been told whom I'd fall for. Irony is a strange thing. I can't help but wonder if he could ever feel the same for me, or if I could ever admit how I feel, to anyone, let alone him.
Now my thoughts return to hikari, or rather, the girl I saw him crying over. Before that night, I had never even seen Malik acknowledge her during his meetings, or rather, when he gave out instructions as a group, they couldn't really be called meetings, as Malik spoke & they obeyed. Though, if she was a secret Malik hid, as emotional attachment would have been deemed as a weakness, I suppose they could have met up at night, when I stopped watching.
Still, I know nothing of his relationship with her, I have always assumed that it was sexual & still do, but honestly, I can't even be sure of that, he's hidden all knowledge of her far too well. I don't even know the girl's name because she was so ignored in public, even though she was a superb duelist, I believe the problem was that her morals were too high, so they didn't like her to know too much.
"Marik?"
I don't need to turn around to know that it's Bakura; I wonder what the baka wants? He better not be here because he made Malik cry.
"Nan desu ka?" I snap.
"I convinced Malik to talk, he said to get you first though."
"Hikari said he'd tell you about her?"
"I told him about someone I lost, then asked him who he lost. He said to collect you then he'd answer me."
"He doesn't want to talk about her, he doesn't want to remember."
"He's agreed to explain Marik, so quit arguing & get moving."
I glare at him, but do as he said none-the-less. I want to know what happened, so if Bakura's managed to convince him to explain, I can't ignore the opportunity. I turn the TV & console off, before heading upstairs, closely followed by Bakura. Hopefully, Malik will answer all of my questions.
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I hear Marik & Bakura coming towards my room & begin to seriously regret saying that I'd explain. I don't want to talk about her anymore, I just want to run & hide. Unfortunately, they'd both kill me if I backed out now, especially Marik, because I know he's extremely interested about this.
"Okay Malik, we're both here, so get talking." Bakura practically orders.
I growl slightly. "This isn't easy for me you know."
"Let's start this off easily then hikari. What was her name?" Marik's attempt to help is actually welcomed for a change.
"Kaldea Quin, she was one of my Rare Hunters & a very good duelist. Most of the others were afraid she'd betray Gurus, because of moral convictions, but they respected her regardless."
"Were you lovers?" Trust the thief to ask me that, he really is tactless.
"Not exactly. She was, 'innocent', & we both decided to leave it that way."
"In other words, you made out, but never slept together?" What did I just say about him being tactless, because I think it was an understatement.
"Something like that, yes." I reply, holding back a blush, & the urge to throttle him.
"How did you get to know her hikari?" At least Marik has tact.
"I got angry one night & she happened to find me. She made me talk through the problem & gave me advice once I was done, from then on, I used her as a confidant, & things progressed from there."
"I know you won't want to answer this hikari, & I'm sorry for being so blunt, but, what happened that night?"
The question I've been dreading finally rears its ugly head. I wonder if I'm ready to answer this question, & if I can honestly tell the truth.
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Well, there you go Shaami, another chapter done for you & still, I have no idea what I'm doing. At least with the others I had some idea at least for a conclusion; this one is just completely ambiguous. Being an authoress is such a pain sometimes. Anyway, please review & I hope you're enjoying the fic. Ja ne.
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I just continue to stare at Bakura in complete shock, I can't quite comprehend that he read me so easily. How could he know that I lost someone I loved, someone that I hid from knowledge, because I felt she was inappropriate? That fact hurts me, because it must have hurt her, yet I still hide her away even now.
I wonder how she felt about our relationship, or more so, how she felt about dying in my arms while I hid her away in the dark, so no one could see I cared. I think she must have hated me for it, hated the fact that the man she loved hid her & that fact must have made her feel very unworthy & alone.
I am snapped from my reverie when I notice a hand being waved in front of my face. I meet Bakura's gaze & am once again surprised by the concern present.
"Sorry, I was thinking." I state, shrugging nonchalantly.
"About the person you lost?" He asks softly, though certainly not tactfully.
"I never said there was a person Bakura. What does it matter to you anyway?"
"I lost someone myself Malik, I know what it's like. I've never looked at another woman since."
"That was back before you got sealed?"
"Yes. I was only a minor tomb robber then, Pharaoh's guards killed her for protecting me, that's why I hated him so much."
"Hated? You don't hate him anymore?"
"No, we're even now. After Ryou's effort to save me, I had to drop the grudge."
"I see. It must have been hard for you to do though?"
"Yes, it was, but it needed to be done. What about you?"
Shimatta, I was hoping that he would have forgotten about me. I don't know that I'm ready to talk about her, yet at the same time I don't want to keep hiding her. I guess I owe him an explanation too, since he told me about his loss. This is going to be hard, I've never spoken of her before, my only hope is that I don't start crying.
"Go & fetch Marik, then I'll talk." I state eventually.
Bakura nods & leaves. I don't really want to explain it to one person, let alone two, but I know Marik really wants answers & as I said, I have to return Bakura's trust.
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I still can't believe what that idiot thief did, I swear, if he upsets Malik any further, I'm going to kill him, despite the fact that he's my best friend. After being locked out of my hikari's room, I decided to come downstairs, initially to sulk & plot the tomb robber's demise, but I decided that destroying things on one of our many games was a better idea, as I'm at least working off some anger that way.
Unfortunately, gaming makes me think about me 'crush', I wonder if that fact would give away who it is? It's funny; I would've laughed at the concept of caring for someone not long ago, especially if I'd been told whom I'd fall for. Irony is a strange thing. I can't help but wonder if he could ever feel the same for me, or if I could ever admit how I feel, to anyone, let alone him.
Now my thoughts return to hikari, or rather, the girl I saw him crying over. Before that night, I had never even seen Malik acknowledge her during his meetings, or rather, when he gave out instructions as a group, they couldn't really be called meetings, as Malik spoke & they obeyed. Though, if she was a secret Malik hid, as emotional attachment would have been deemed as a weakness, I suppose they could have met up at night, when I stopped watching.
Still, I know nothing of his relationship with her, I have always assumed that it was sexual & still do, but honestly, I can't even be sure of that, he's hidden all knowledge of her far too well. I don't even know the girl's name because she was so ignored in public, even though she was a superb duelist, I believe the problem was that her morals were too high, so they didn't like her to know too much.
"Marik?"
I don't need to turn around to know that it's Bakura; I wonder what the baka wants? He better not be here because he made Malik cry.
"Nan desu ka?" I snap.
"I convinced Malik to talk, he said to get you first though."
"Hikari said he'd tell you about her?"
"I told him about someone I lost, then asked him who he lost. He said to collect you then he'd answer me."
"He doesn't want to talk about her, he doesn't want to remember."
"He's agreed to explain Marik, so quit arguing & get moving."
I glare at him, but do as he said none-the-less. I want to know what happened, so if Bakura's managed to convince him to explain, I can't ignore the opportunity. I turn the TV & console off, before heading upstairs, closely followed by Bakura. Hopefully, Malik will answer all of my questions.
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I hear Marik & Bakura coming towards my room & begin to seriously regret saying that I'd explain. I don't want to talk about her anymore, I just want to run & hide. Unfortunately, they'd both kill me if I backed out now, especially Marik, because I know he's extremely interested about this.
"Okay Malik, we're both here, so get talking." Bakura practically orders.
I growl slightly. "This isn't easy for me you know."
"Let's start this off easily then hikari. What was her name?" Marik's attempt to help is actually welcomed for a change.
"Kaldea Quin, she was one of my Rare Hunters & a very good duelist. Most of the others were afraid she'd betray Gurus, because of moral convictions, but they respected her regardless."
"Were you lovers?" Trust the thief to ask me that, he really is tactless.
"Not exactly. She was, 'innocent', & we both decided to leave it that way."
"In other words, you made out, but never slept together?" What did I just say about him being tactless, because I think it was an understatement.
"Something like that, yes." I reply, holding back a blush, & the urge to throttle him.
"How did you get to know her hikari?" At least Marik has tact.
"I got angry one night & she happened to find me. She made me talk through the problem & gave me advice once I was done, from then on, I used her as a confidant, & things progressed from there."
"I know you won't want to answer this hikari, & I'm sorry for being so blunt, but, what happened that night?"
The question I've been dreading finally rears its ugly head. I wonder if I'm ready to answer this question, & if I can honestly tell the truth.
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Well, there you go Shaami, another chapter done for you & still, I have no idea what I'm doing. At least with the others I had some idea at least for a conclusion; this one is just completely ambiguous. Being an authoress is such a pain sometimes. Anyway, please review & I hope you're enjoying the fic. Ja ne.