I was nervous as hell as Logan dropped my off at Amanda's house. I was sure he could smell my fear but I had already asked him not to ask about it. Logan truly would not understand. The last thing I needed was a male to complicate things. I greeted Amanda's parents and rushed up the stairs to her bedroom. She was sitting Indian style on her bed with candles lit all around. I saw a plastic bag next to her, but had no idea what was in it.

She motioned me over. What was this? The exorcist?

"Hey."

"Hey," I responded still unsure of what I was doing there.

"Come sit down," she patted the spot opposite her. I did although I didn't know why. I was kinda freaked out but I wasn't about to let Amanda know it.

"So my little Kitty's growing up eh? Wanting to know all about the birds and the bees?"

I snorted, "I wanna know a lot more than animals and insects." Amanda laughed curtly then her face became a mask of seriousness.

"So where should we start off? What do you wanna know?"

Oh man, a dreaded question. I hadn't really thought about what I wanted to know. I just knew I wanted to learn about love (and well sex too). I guess she saw my hesitancy, "Alright you asked me earlier how I knew I wanted to have sex with Kurt right?"

"Yep, but could you not say sex please? It sounds so…dirty."

Amanda laughed as though I had just said the funniest joke in the world. "Dirty? Sex? What do you want me to say? 'doing it' That's so grade school Kitty. No one says 'doing it' anymore. Come on."

I blushed, although the thought of sex was exciting the word seemed kind of dirty to like a cuss word or something. I mean give me a break, I didn't get my first kiss till I started dating Lance.

"Alright, the first step towards being able to have sex. Not that I'm saying you want to or anything," she added quickly. "Is to be able to call it what it is…Sex. Say it S-E-X sex."

I repeated after Amanda, S-E-X. A three-letter word either for something that could be gross or as Amanda put it 'heavenly'. I practiced saying it until I could say it with getting tongue-tied or blushing. Amanda clapped her hands in glee, "Good, now that you've got that down. I'll tell you some slang words so that you'll know them if someone says them. Um guys call it 'knocking boots', 'jumping a girls bones', hittin it, hump---"

That was a little too far for me, "Amanda I get the point."

"O.K. moving on, there are basically three man types of sex."

"What?" I wanted to shout. Heck it was like hard enough to get through the one type of sex I knew about…intercourse. How would I deal with two more? Maybe I should have actually paid attention in sex ED class instead of listening to the newest Britney spears song. Well I was here, so I was going to learn all I could before I left. I nodded.

"Everyone knows about sexually intercourse, when a man sticks his penis in a woman's—are you uncomfortable?" Oh yea, uncomfortable didn't begin to describe it. I mean this girl was sitting up her saying penis and not even flinching. Amanda sighed, "Kitty you're going to have to get over hearing these words. I mean their medical terms in the encyclopedia and stuff. How can you ever expect to have sex if you can't even stand the word penis?

"I know, it's just…my parents didn't say those when I was growing up."

"Really? What did they say?

I shrugged, "We never really talked about it. It was on a don't ask don't tell basis."

"Wow," she said sounding truly astonished. "Alright, well you know what they are so, try to bare with me. I'll try and keep it as clean and wholesome as I can for your little virgin ears."

"Oh thanks, that makes me feel much better," I said sarcastically.

Amanda smiled back sarcastically, "You're more than welcome. Now can we move on." She didn't wait for my answer. I figured it was a rhetorical question. I was right. "As I was saying after intercourse there are two other types of sex, well there are more but these are the beginning basics. Anal and Oral sex. Anal sex is when a guy put's his penis into your butt and humps you. Got it?" Ewww!

Like gross me out times ten. Now I know why I use that word so much. It was so disgusting, the thought of having a guy ride you like a horse with his thing in your butt. How anyone would ever get pleasure from that, I have no clue. But I didn't want Amanda to say I was being "grade school" again so I just swallowed the huge glob of food that was threatening to escape my mouth any second.

Although I probably already knew the answer, I decided to ask anyway, "Do you and Kurt---?"

"Of course," she said happily. "At first it's kinda hard to get use to but after you've got the hang of it, it's fun."

"You mean you let Kurt put his…penis in you and do that stuff." Nonchalantly, Amanda shrugged, "Sure. I'll try anything once and Kurt wanted to try it so I was like 'Hey why not?' I didn't like it the first two times but after a while it was on our regular schedule."

Kurt? My precious little fuzzy Kurt wanted to…uggh I couldn't say it. Now I see why that movie "The secret lives of alter boys" was so popular. I was starting to wonder what other things Kurt kept hidden. I had finally figured him out. Kurt was a closet freak.

"Devout Catholic my ass," I muttered.

Amanda looked up "what?"

"Nothing," I said quickly. "Anal sex…in the butt got it."

Amanda went on "Then there's oral sex. A lot of people have it and try to say it's not really sex but it is. Oral sex is when a person puts their mouth on any of the genitals i.e. penis, pussy…vagina, tits…excuse me breasts, etc."

I shuddered involuntarily. I'd heard about Oral sex, and to me it was worse than all the others combined. I once saw this commercial when I was flipping through late night TV and I saw it. Two people were actually having oral sex. The girl, some blonde, was on her knees in front of a Carson daily look-alike.

They were both moaning and groaning. I was just putting two and two together when my mom walked in. I'd never heard someone scream so loud. Let's just say I didn't get to finish watching it. Then my mom gave me this whole speech about it.

Saying that if I ever did I would get mouth cancer and that the woman on TV was a whore. I decided not to ask Amanda whether she and Kurt had experimented in that field. I didn't have to ask.

"And if you were wondering, yes Kurt and I do have oral sex," she said giggling. "Giving and receiving, but I must admit receiving is so much more fun." a sly grin crossed her face. Oh, T.M.I. in other words way Too much information. A mental picture of the to of them together having oral sex wormed its way into my brain. I shut my eyes. That was just sick, having a guys tongue in your…between your legs. Come to think of it, Kurt kisses me with the same mouth he…Ewww! That's it! I'm never letting Kurt kiss me again. I feel the nausea sweeping over me again, this time I want it to come.

"Thanks Amanda, you were um…informative. I gotta go, bye," I said and whipped out of the room before she could respond. I was half-way down he steps when I realized I'd forgotten to ask the most important question. Stuffing the nausea back down, I raced back upstairs. Peeking my head around the corner I found Amanda still in her same position, only she had turned on some tribal music and seemed to be meditating. Oh so the candles weren't for me. I didn't want to disturb her Zen meditation but I couldn't wait.  "Amanda, one last thing"

Slowly one of Amanda's eyes peeked open, "Yea?"

I gulped, "How do you know when you want to have sex with a guy?"

Amanda laughed good-naturedly, "I can't give you a specific Kitty. Your heart will tell you," on a second note she added "and so will another part of you." A devilish smile lit her face. "I do it because I love Kurt, you should do it because you love that person (cough lance) and they make you happy."

I rolled my eyes and pretended not to hear that last part. "Thanks," and with that I went home (finally!). It was close to 8:30.