Disguised Angel
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS, how many time do I have to say that?
Chapter 2: Motivation fails
It's been two days since I received the horrible news. Two days since I locked myself from everyone locked in this cold white prison. I still couldn't believe that this is happening to me. I mean what did I do to deserve this kind of thing. This is so unfair. Life is so unfair. I looked at my window outside and saw two lovebirds chirping happily in the perch of the tree. I was so engrossed on watching them that I didn't notice a single tear fell down on my face. I wish I could be just as the birds outside, free from worries, from everything. I was interrupted from my thoughts when a knock came to my door. I quickly brushed my face with my hand. The door opened slightly and my mother went inside silently with a smile on her face.
"Good morning Sakura!" I just looked at her for a moment a returned my gaze at the window. I don't know why but I just couldn't smile back to her and say, "Good morning mom, its such a wonderful day today isn't it?"
"Such a nice day today isn't it?" I didn't answer her back nor look at her. It breaks my heart to see my mother's sad face. As I see her sad face, it made me realized what a waste daughter I am. I didn't deserve to be her daughter because I brought her great pain. Touya once told me that I am an answered prayer to mom. He said that mom has been praying for a daughter for years and I came along. However, that dream of hers will be taken away because of this tumor. A tumor that took away everything I have and she has.
"I brought someone who really wants to see you." Someone who wants to see me? I wonder who could it be? My mother went to the door and ushered someone inside. I was surprised to see him.
"Hi." He said to me with a smile on his face. I just stared at him not really believing he's here. Thousands of questions are running through my head. For the first time in two days, I opened my mouth to speak.
"How?"
"I called yesterday and found everything out." Eriol Hirigisawa is my best friend when it comes to guys. In fact, he's the only guy friend I have. Eriol has a dark blue hair and blue eyes with glasses that made him look great. Maybe that's why Tomoyo loves him. If I were on my usual self I would say to him, "Hey Eriol, have you already told Tomoyo?" or "So are you and Tomoyo are a couple already?" but I'm not.
"So, how are you right now?"
"What do you think?" I said sarcastically. I looked at him straight in the eye and saw the effects that my words did to him. He quickly covered that emotion with a smile. "I'm sorry." I said to him feeling quite guilty over what I did to him. He was just only trying to cheer me up. I envied him for being normal and free. Free, that word reminds me of the birds I saw a while ago. My gaze was once again gone back to my window. I really appreciated their visit today but I really wanted to be alone for now. "I really appreciated your visit today." I said quietly.
Again, silence dawned onto us.
"I brought you some flowers." Eriol said cheerily. It was a bouquet of different flowers. It has lily, daisies, anemones, and peaches but there is one flower that caught my attention and that are peonies. "I didn't know you like peonies, honey?" my mother suddenly said to me.
"I was just intrigued because they remind me of something." I said. Little did I know a little smile was forming on my face. How could such a simple flower brought a smile to my face or is it the other way around? The man who said that he will be there when the time come? Somehow, that promise he made kept me on my sanity.
"Oh, well that's nice." My mother said while putting the flowers in the vase beside the table in my bed. "May I ask what is this something?" I don't know how to answer her because I think she might not understand or think that I am crazy.
"It's time for you, Ms. Kinimoto to get some rest." The nurse came just in time. I just nod my head in response. Then she injected something on me and slowly I beginning to feel drowsy.
"Sweet dreams Sakura." Both my mother and Eriol said.
~@~
"Thank you auntie for accompanying me today. I would have asked Tomoyo today but for some reason I couldn't reach her." Eriol said while blushing.
"It's not a big deal for me because I too am going to visit Sakura today. Fujitaka went to his office to arrange his leave for the next few days while Touya and Kaho went to have a checkup." Nadeshiko said.
"I really do hope that Sakura will be okay." Eriol said.
'I was surprised to see a different Sakura today. The Sakura I saw today is just like a stone. Her hair is disheveled and her face is pale. However, one thing that surprised me is her eyes, they are dull green. They have no emotion in it. I really wish Sakura would be back to her normal self. I hate to see her like this.'
"I'm really sorry for Sakura's lack of enthusiasm today. This is isn't like her." Nadeshiko said while her voice is in the verge of tears. "She is.my.my baby.will be all right someday right? She will be back from her cheerful self. I know it. she's never going to leave us, right. Nothing will take her from.me." Nadeshiko broke down crying on the floor while Eriol is trying to calm her down.
~@~
I opened my eyes and found myself in the fields once again. It is now filled with different sorts of flowers, not just only peonies but also lilies, daisies, carnation, and many more.
"Sakura." Someone called from behind me. I turned around and saw him standing under the cherry blossom tree. I slowly went to him hoping I could see his face much clearly. Much to my disappointment, his face is shadowed because of his messy hair. His messy chocolate hair can be seen from where I stand but not his face. At least I know what is the color of his hair. I stood in front of him looking at him curiously.
"How did you know what will going to happen to me?" I asked him demandingly.
"I will be a part of heart someday and I don't want you to give up your life and hope because of it. I want you to be prepared and be strong on what will happen someday because I care for you."
Those words took me by surprise. Those words he said to me have a truth in it. If he didn't warned me I would have committed suicide after they have left me in that room.
"I know that things haven't been going in your way but don't worry I will be here for you in every step of the way and everything will be fine." He said as he held my face in his warm hands.
"How?"
"You'll see." Then everything became bright.
~@~
"Poor girl." A voice said beside me. I pretended to be asleep to hear what are they talking about.
"Yeah, the news about the tumor came a big blow for her." Another familiar voice said which I realized is my nurse.
"Oh my, she is so young to have this. I heard she has a great life before she learned she has a tumor."
"That's right, she is a popular achiever in school."
"I see. So, what's her situation?"
"60/40. The position of the tumor is dangerous. If we attempt to take it out there might be a chance that she will be saved or not. I wonder what will happen to that girl."
"Me too." The other lady who turned out to be a nurse because I took a sneak peak on her sighed sadly. "Well I have to go to the other room, bye." Then she left quietly. Minutes later I pretended to wake up. The nurse greeted me with a smile of pity.
"Oh, good morning Ms. Sakura."
It's morning already? I didn't notice the time when I went to sleep.
"Can I go outside?" I said softly. Somehow, that conversation really dampened my good mood. I was beginning to think if the guy in my dreams is a liar. My life has turned from bad to worse.
"Sure, but you can only in the gardens."
I went to the garden and saw a bench in there. I sat in there and began to stare in the space. How could I be strong if everyone keeps on reminding me what a pitiful person I am? If this is what he meant by "everything will be all right" then I don't want it. I would rather end my life than be pitied.
"I didn't know there would be someone in here in this early." A voice broke my reverie. I turned to look who is it and tell him to go away but shock came through me. It was he, the guy in my dreams.
Author's note:
I'm sooo sorry this took me so long to update. I've been so busy with College life. It's been a killer year.
AnimeObsessionFantasy - to tell you the truth he already popped in the story.
moezy-chan - here's a new suspense for you.
Sally - Good guess in there about him. Well see about Sakura. I hope my e- mail reaches you.
Dampilleta - I'm sorry about confusing you in there. You see I really suck at English because my teacher is so boring when she teaches. Hey, it's a secret okay.
TiFfa - awww shucks you flatter me. Tnx for the review.
See yah.
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS, how many time do I have to say that?
Chapter 2: Motivation fails
It's been two days since I received the horrible news. Two days since I locked myself from everyone locked in this cold white prison. I still couldn't believe that this is happening to me. I mean what did I do to deserve this kind of thing. This is so unfair. Life is so unfair. I looked at my window outside and saw two lovebirds chirping happily in the perch of the tree. I was so engrossed on watching them that I didn't notice a single tear fell down on my face. I wish I could be just as the birds outside, free from worries, from everything. I was interrupted from my thoughts when a knock came to my door. I quickly brushed my face with my hand. The door opened slightly and my mother went inside silently with a smile on her face.
"Good morning Sakura!" I just looked at her for a moment a returned my gaze at the window. I don't know why but I just couldn't smile back to her and say, "Good morning mom, its such a wonderful day today isn't it?"
"Such a nice day today isn't it?" I didn't answer her back nor look at her. It breaks my heart to see my mother's sad face. As I see her sad face, it made me realized what a waste daughter I am. I didn't deserve to be her daughter because I brought her great pain. Touya once told me that I am an answered prayer to mom. He said that mom has been praying for a daughter for years and I came along. However, that dream of hers will be taken away because of this tumor. A tumor that took away everything I have and she has.
"I brought someone who really wants to see you." Someone who wants to see me? I wonder who could it be? My mother went to the door and ushered someone inside. I was surprised to see him.
"Hi." He said to me with a smile on his face. I just stared at him not really believing he's here. Thousands of questions are running through my head. For the first time in two days, I opened my mouth to speak.
"How?"
"I called yesterday and found everything out." Eriol Hirigisawa is my best friend when it comes to guys. In fact, he's the only guy friend I have. Eriol has a dark blue hair and blue eyes with glasses that made him look great. Maybe that's why Tomoyo loves him. If I were on my usual self I would say to him, "Hey Eriol, have you already told Tomoyo?" or "So are you and Tomoyo are a couple already?" but I'm not.
"So, how are you right now?"
"What do you think?" I said sarcastically. I looked at him straight in the eye and saw the effects that my words did to him. He quickly covered that emotion with a smile. "I'm sorry." I said to him feeling quite guilty over what I did to him. He was just only trying to cheer me up. I envied him for being normal and free. Free, that word reminds me of the birds I saw a while ago. My gaze was once again gone back to my window. I really appreciated their visit today but I really wanted to be alone for now. "I really appreciated your visit today." I said quietly.
Again, silence dawned onto us.
"I brought you some flowers." Eriol said cheerily. It was a bouquet of different flowers. It has lily, daisies, anemones, and peaches but there is one flower that caught my attention and that are peonies. "I didn't know you like peonies, honey?" my mother suddenly said to me.
"I was just intrigued because they remind me of something." I said. Little did I know a little smile was forming on my face. How could such a simple flower brought a smile to my face or is it the other way around? The man who said that he will be there when the time come? Somehow, that promise he made kept me on my sanity.
"Oh, well that's nice." My mother said while putting the flowers in the vase beside the table in my bed. "May I ask what is this something?" I don't know how to answer her because I think she might not understand or think that I am crazy.
"It's time for you, Ms. Kinimoto to get some rest." The nurse came just in time. I just nod my head in response. Then she injected something on me and slowly I beginning to feel drowsy.
"Sweet dreams Sakura." Both my mother and Eriol said.
~@~
"Thank you auntie for accompanying me today. I would have asked Tomoyo today but for some reason I couldn't reach her." Eriol said while blushing.
"It's not a big deal for me because I too am going to visit Sakura today. Fujitaka went to his office to arrange his leave for the next few days while Touya and Kaho went to have a checkup." Nadeshiko said.
"I really do hope that Sakura will be okay." Eriol said.
'I was surprised to see a different Sakura today. The Sakura I saw today is just like a stone. Her hair is disheveled and her face is pale. However, one thing that surprised me is her eyes, they are dull green. They have no emotion in it. I really wish Sakura would be back to her normal self. I hate to see her like this.'
"I'm really sorry for Sakura's lack of enthusiasm today. This is isn't like her." Nadeshiko said while her voice is in the verge of tears. "She is.my.my baby.will be all right someday right? She will be back from her cheerful self. I know it. she's never going to leave us, right. Nothing will take her from.me." Nadeshiko broke down crying on the floor while Eriol is trying to calm her down.
~@~
I opened my eyes and found myself in the fields once again. It is now filled with different sorts of flowers, not just only peonies but also lilies, daisies, carnation, and many more.
"Sakura." Someone called from behind me. I turned around and saw him standing under the cherry blossom tree. I slowly went to him hoping I could see his face much clearly. Much to my disappointment, his face is shadowed because of his messy hair. His messy chocolate hair can be seen from where I stand but not his face. At least I know what is the color of his hair. I stood in front of him looking at him curiously.
"How did you know what will going to happen to me?" I asked him demandingly.
"I will be a part of heart someday and I don't want you to give up your life and hope because of it. I want you to be prepared and be strong on what will happen someday because I care for you."
Those words took me by surprise. Those words he said to me have a truth in it. If he didn't warned me I would have committed suicide after they have left me in that room.
"I know that things haven't been going in your way but don't worry I will be here for you in every step of the way and everything will be fine." He said as he held my face in his warm hands.
"How?"
"You'll see." Then everything became bright.
~@~
"Poor girl." A voice said beside me. I pretended to be asleep to hear what are they talking about.
"Yeah, the news about the tumor came a big blow for her." Another familiar voice said which I realized is my nurse.
"Oh my, she is so young to have this. I heard she has a great life before she learned she has a tumor."
"That's right, she is a popular achiever in school."
"I see. So, what's her situation?"
"60/40. The position of the tumor is dangerous. If we attempt to take it out there might be a chance that she will be saved or not. I wonder what will happen to that girl."
"Me too." The other lady who turned out to be a nurse because I took a sneak peak on her sighed sadly. "Well I have to go to the other room, bye." Then she left quietly. Minutes later I pretended to wake up. The nurse greeted me with a smile of pity.
"Oh, good morning Ms. Sakura."
It's morning already? I didn't notice the time when I went to sleep.
"Can I go outside?" I said softly. Somehow, that conversation really dampened my good mood. I was beginning to think if the guy in my dreams is a liar. My life has turned from bad to worse.
"Sure, but you can only in the gardens."
I went to the garden and saw a bench in there. I sat in there and began to stare in the space. How could I be strong if everyone keeps on reminding me what a pitiful person I am? If this is what he meant by "everything will be all right" then I don't want it. I would rather end my life than be pitied.
"I didn't know there would be someone in here in this early." A voice broke my reverie. I turned to look who is it and tell him to go away but shock came through me. It was he, the guy in my dreams.
Author's note:
I'm sooo sorry this took me so long to update. I've been so busy with College life. It's been a killer year.
AnimeObsessionFantasy - to tell you the truth he already popped in the story.
moezy-chan - here's a new suspense for you.
Sally - Good guess in there about him. Well see about Sakura. I hope my e- mail reaches you.
Dampilleta - I'm sorry about confusing you in there. You see I really suck at English because my teacher is so boring when she teaches. Hey, it's a secret okay.
TiFfa - awww shucks you flatter me. Tnx for the review.
See yah.