Chapter 4: Escaping Everything
The guy I met a while ago is moving from our house. I couldn't believe it. As I was looking at him, he somehow noticed me and looked at my direction. At first, he seems to rack his brain on where he saw me then realization dawned on him. He waved at me and went inside. The moment I saw him I felt something inside me. It is as if something has just awoken from a deep slumber. My musings were cut short by my mother.
"Looks like we will going to have a new neighbor." She said as she walked beside me. I just ignored because my full attention is on the boy whom I just hours ago. My mother seems to notice this too that's why she gave a remark about him. "He's a cute guy."
That really took me by surprise. "You're right I mean.what makes you say that I'm looking at Li."
"Oh so you know his name." She seemed amused about it. "One thing, I didn't say any particular person you just jumped to the conclusion. Who knows I might be talking about the driver in the truck." She said slyly. My mother is such a sly one on that. I just ignored her reply but I could feel my cheeks burning up.
"That reminds me, would like to come with me to welcome them?"
"No."
~@~
I don't know how did my mother did it but here I am standing in front of their house alone. I slowly pressed the doorbell then waited for a while. A girl I also saw a while ago answered the door. "Hi!"
"Hi, my mother wants me to give you this as a welcome gift."
"Really?" I gave her the dish, which is strawberry cheesecake. Suddenly she became hyperactive. "Oh my god! Strawberry Cheesecake, my favorite." She squealed happily. I was just standing here looking at her in an amused way. "Oh my, I'm so sorry. My name is Shiefa Li. Would you like to come in?" she suddenly blushed looked at me in a shy way.
"Would it be a bother to you guys, I mean you might be fixing your stuff?" Now it's my turn to blush. I am not really used to this kind of thing.
"Oh no, besides my stuff are already fixed in my room. Come in." She ushered me inside their house. The place is really magnificent and huge. What Shiefa told me is true everything is in place. We went to the living room, which is breathtaking. "How did you fix everything up so fast?
"Well, some of the furniture in here were already placed and arranged yesterday. The truck you saw a while ago is just a few of our furniture." So, that explains everything. "I will leave you here for a while coz I still have to fix this cake."
"Okay." Then she left me to wander around the place. The stuff in here is so cool. I looked at the glass figurines when one really caught my eye, an angel figurine. It is made of crystal that shines on the sun. This is no ordinary figurine because it is a male one. Its majestic wings were protecting something or someone. I squinted to look more closely and figured out it was a girl. So, this figurine is a guardian angel. This figurine really caught my eye.I don't know why but it seems to remind me of something special. I just can't seem to remember but the more I think about it the more my head hurt really badly. My vision is blurring slowly before me and I feel like the room is turning around. I feel like this has happened before. Back at Tomoyo's room.no.no please not here. Anywhere but here. When I heard some faint footsteps coming down the pain is going away slowly but not fully, because I can still feel it a little.
"Hey sis, can I borrow this for." that voice sounded a lot familiar. I whirled around to see the speaker. It's Syaoran Li. "Hey, what's up!" he said with a questioning glance.
"Fine." I said in an uncertainty and coldness in my voice because I got surprised. I guess he is thinking what am I doing in here.
"So what brings you here?" he said while clutching a CD. I couldn't find my voice at that moment because I was so busy looking at him. He is wearing a black cargo pants and a blue sweatshirt. Why does he have to look so.so.sexy? After that, his question entered into my mind, that's when I noticed I looked must have looked embarrassing. "Umm.visiting."
"Oh, your name is Kinimoto right?"
"Yeah." Wow, he even remembered my name, "and yours is Li?" he just nodded. I don't know why but the pain in my head just came back. I tried to keep myself in balance so that he wouldn't know anything. He mustn't know, nobody must know. All of the sudden Li is beside me looking at me with those concerned eyes. "Are you okay?" as I said, nobody must know.
"I'm just fine. It's just only migraine."
"Wait here while I get you a medicine." He stood up and was about to go the kitchen when I stopped him.
"Really I'm fine it's just only a minor headache. Besides, I've already took one back home. Believe me I'm fine." I said firmly and coldly. This guy is getting on my nerves. How much "fine" have I had to say just to make him understand? However, the truth is I'm not fine. The pain is killing me. Just then, Shiefa came in with the cake.
"Oh this cake really looks delicious." She said while laughing. She stopped at her tracks when she saw me with Li. "I see you have met my little brother." She said still smiling. Slowly, that smile was wiped off her face. "Are you okay? You look a little pale right now." She asked in a concerned voice.
"I'm fine." I said with a smile that wavers a bit. I really need to get out of this place before they could derive a conclusion. I glanced at the clock and an idea began to pop in my head. "Oh my I just remember I need to buy a.yarn. Mother really need it to.to.knit a socks." That was so lame but I am so desperate. "So bye." I didn't wait for them to reply because I know they will just insist on me staying here until I get better but the sad part is I don't. I went to the door and saw that my vision just couldn't get still for a moment. Good thing I still know how to open it. I went out and I felt like my head is going to explode any moment now. I was about to cross the road when everything around me is slowly turning to black. The last thing I saw before going into the dark world is those warm and concerned amber eyes that are looking back at me.
~@~
Everything has changed in my dream. The fields are gone it is now replaced by total darkness. Why couldn't I see anything in here? Where is he? I waited for a moment hoping that everything would dissolve and it would change into the fields that I like most. The scene really did change but not the fields that I was expecting to see, instead it showed me the hospital, the place that I hated to see. I saw Tomoyo walking right through me I was surprised because not only did she just walk through me but also she didn't even took notice of me.
"Tomoyo!" I shouted but she doesn't hear me. Am I a ghost? No let's not think about that. I followed her inside and stopped right outside a door. She was about to knock but decided not to. Then Eriol came with a sad look in his face. The moment Tomoyo saw him she began to run into his arms and cry. Eriol hugged her tight and looked at the door.
"Why.why does she have to go through this? I thought it is over now that she have found happiness with him but." Tomoyo said while crying. I break my heart to see her like this.
"Sakura wouldn't like to see you crying my dear. It would break her heart to see you in this state," Eriol looked into her eyes and brushed away the tears with his thumb, "I know how you feel right now because she too is my friend but you know what I wouldn't like to see a beautiful face like yours filled with tears." Tomoyo blushed at his comment. "The only thing that we could do for Sakura is to be there for her and stay strong." Tomoyo smiled at him. The door opened after that and I saw myself coming out in that room looking pale and weak but I'm still smiling.
Is this the future? Is the reason why Tomoyo is crying is that I am going to die? No, this can't be happening. I wouldn't let this happened. Just then, everything turned white. I know I am going to wake up any moment now. Pain and denial is stirring in my heart. Dreams aren't real.
~@~
"She's waking up." I heard a voice beside me said. I adjusted my eyes on my surroundings. "Hi sweetie, how are you feeling right now?" another voice said which I noticed is my mother. How did I end up here? Flashes of images appeared inside my head then I remembered what had happened. I fainted outside but how did I end up in here. Wait am I back in the hospital? Panic was starting to build inside my heart. I couldn't be back, that place is so horrible. I looked around saw I didn't saw the same four walled prison. Instead, I saw my old room. Relief came after panic. I didn't know what would I do if I were back in that place. I vividly remembered my dream and that's the reason why I don't want to be in that place.
"Fine." I said weakly. If I fainted outside how did I end up here?
"I decided to visit you today to have a chat and I found out what had happened. I was so scared at that moment I thought.I thought." Tomoyo said beside me. I never let her finish her sentence because I know what is it that she will going to say and I don't want to hear it.
"Hey, I'm okay and nothings bad had happened right so you don't have to fret over it." I really hoped this would make them feel all right. At that moment, my father rushed in my room breathing heavily. It looks like he just ran a mile from a marathon race. The moment he saw me he crushed me in his arms. "Good thing your fine. God, I was so worried when your mother called me from work and told me that you fainted. I thought the worst, didn't you know that." I was too speechless to talk because after that he cried. This is the first time I ever saw my father cry and it is because of me. I am really a worst person alive.
~@~
I woke up at around 12:45am. I had this sudden urge to get a glass of water. I silently went outside and tiptoed downstairs. I was about to cross my parents room silently when I heard my mom crying. I stopped dead because I was wondering why my mother is crying at this time of night.
"It's all my fault. If I hadn't brought her out in the hospital, none of this would had happened." I heard my mom said.
"Don't blame yourself my dear, in or out of the hospital she would even faint like this afternoon." My dad said softly to my mom. I flattened my back to the wall while listening to them. I was on the verge of crying while listening to them.
The guy I met a while ago is moving from our house. I couldn't believe it. As I was looking at him, he somehow noticed me and looked at my direction. At first, he seems to rack his brain on where he saw me then realization dawned on him. He waved at me and went inside. The moment I saw him I felt something inside me. It is as if something has just awoken from a deep slumber. My musings were cut short by my mother.
"Looks like we will going to have a new neighbor." She said as she walked beside me. I just ignored because my full attention is on the boy whom I just hours ago. My mother seems to notice this too that's why she gave a remark about him. "He's a cute guy."
That really took me by surprise. "You're right I mean.what makes you say that I'm looking at Li."
"Oh so you know his name." She seemed amused about it. "One thing, I didn't say any particular person you just jumped to the conclusion. Who knows I might be talking about the driver in the truck." She said slyly. My mother is such a sly one on that. I just ignored her reply but I could feel my cheeks burning up.
"That reminds me, would like to come with me to welcome them?"
"No."
~@~
I don't know how did my mother did it but here I am standing in front of their house alone. I slowly pressed the doorbell then waited for a while. A girl I also saw a while ago answered the door. "Hi!"
"Hi, my mother wants me to give you this as a welcome gift."
"Really?" I gave her the dish, which is strawberry cheesecake. Suddenly she became hyperactive. "Oh my god! Strawberry Cheesecake, my favorite." She squealed happily. I was just standing here looking at her in an amused way. "Oh my, I'm so sorry. My name is Shiefa Li. Would you like to come in?" she suddenly blushed looked at me in a shy way.
"Would it be a bother to you guys, I mean you might be fixing your stuff?" Now it's my turn to blush. I am not really used to this kind of thing.
"Oh no, besides my stuff are already fixed in my room. Come in." She ushered me inside their house. The place is really magnificent and huge. What Shiefa told me is true everything is in place. We went to the living room, which is breathtaking. "How did you fix everything up so fast?
"Well, some of the furniture in here were already placed and arranged yesterday. The truck you saw a while ago is just a few of our furniture." So, that explains everything. "I will leave you here for a while coz I still have to fix this cake."
"Okay." Then she left me to wander around the place. The stuff in here is so cool. I looked at the glass figurines when one really caught my eye, an angel figurine. It is made of crystal that shines on the sun. This is no ordinary figurine because it is a male one. Its majestic wings were protecting something or someone. I squinted to look more closely and figured out it was a girl. So, this figurine is a guardian angel. This figurine really caught my eye.I don't know why but it seems to remind me of something special. I just can't seem to remember but the more I think about it the more my head hurt really badly. My vision is blurring slowly before me and I feel like the room is turning around. I feel like this has happened before. Back at Tomoyo's room.no.no please not here. Anywhere but here. When I heard some faint footsteps coming down the pain is going away slowly but not fully, because I can still feel it a little.
"Hey sis, can I borrow this for." that voice sounded a lot familiar. I whirled around to see the speaker. It's Syaoran Li. "Hey, what's up!" he said with a questioning glance.
"Fine." I said in an uncertainty and coldness in my voice because I got surprised. I guess he is thinking what am I doing in here.
"So what brings you here?" he said while clutching a CD. I couldn't find my voice at that moment because I was so busy looking at him. He is wearing a black cargo pants and a blue sweatshirt. Why does he have to look so.so.sexy? After that, his question entered into my mind, that's when I noticed I looked must have looked embarrassing. "Umm.visiting."
"Oh, your name is Kinimoto right?"
"Yeah." Wow, he even remembered my name, "and yours is Li?" he just nodded. I don't know why but the pain in my head just came back. I tried to keep myself in balance so that he wouldn't know anything. He mustn't know, nobody must know. All of the sudden Li is beside me looking at me with those concerned eyes. "Are you okay?" as I said, nobody must know.
"I'm just fine. It's just only migraine."
"Wait here while I get you a medicine." He stood up and was about to go the kitchen when I stopped him.
"Really I'm fine it's just only a minor headache. Besides, I've already took one back home. Believe me I'm fine." I said firmly and coldly. This guy is getting on my nerves. How much "fine" have I had to say just to make him understand? However, the truth is I'm not fine. The pain is killing me. Just then, Shiefa came in with the cake.
"Oh this cake really looks delicious." She said while laughing. She stopped at her tracks when she saw me with Li. "I see you have met my little brother." She said still smiling. Slowly, that smile was wiped off her face. "Are you okay? You look a little pale right now." She asked in a concerned voice.
"I'm fine." I said with a smile that wavers a bit. I really need to get out of this place before they could derive a conclusion. I glanced at the clock and an idea began to pop in my head. "Oh my I just remember I need to buy a.yarn. Mother really need it to.to.knit a socks." That was so lame but I am so desperate. "So bye." I didn't wait for them to reply because I know they will just insist on me staying here until I get better but the sad part is I don't. I went to the door and saw that my vision just couldn't get still for a moment. Good thing I still know how to open it. I went out and I felt like my head is going to explode any moment now. I was about to cross the road when everything around me is slowly turning to black. The last thing I saw before going into the dark world is those warm and concerned amber eyes that are looking back at me.
~@~
Everything has changed in my dream. The fields are gone it is now replaced by total darkness. Why couldn't I see anything in here? Where is he? I waited for a moment hoping that everything would dissolve and it would change into the fields that I like most. The scene really did change but not the fields that I was expecting to see, instead it showed me the hospital, the place that I hated to see. I saw Tomoyo walking right through me I was surprised because not only did she just walk through me but also she didn't even took notice of me.
"Tomoyo!" I shouted but she doesn't hear me. Am I a ghost? No let's not think about that. I followed her inside and stopped right outside a door. She was about to knock but decided not to. Then Eriol came with a sad look in his face. The moment Tomoyo saw him she began to run into his arms and cry. Eriol hugged her tight and looked at the door.
"Why.why does she have to go through this? I thought it is over now that she have found happiness with him but." Tomoyo said while crying. I break my heart to see her like this.
"Sakura wouldn't like to see you crying my dear. It would break her heart to see you in this state," Eriol looked into her eyes and brushed away the tears with his thumb, "I know how you feel right now because she too is my friend but you know what I wouldn't like to see a beautiful face like yours filled with tears." Tomoyo blushed at his comment. "The only thing that we could do for Sakura is to be there for her and stay strong." Tomoyo smiled at him. The door opened after that and I saw myself coming out in that room looking pale and weak but I'm still smiling.
Is this the future? Is the reason why Tomoyo is crying is that I am going to die? No, this can't be happening. I wouldn't let this happened. Just then, everything turned white. I know I am going to wake up any moment now. Pain and denial is stirring in my heart. Dreams aren't real.
~@~
"She's waking up." I heard a voice beside me said. I adjusted my eyes on my surroundings. "Hi sweetie, how are you feeling right now?" another voice said which I noticed is my mother. How did I end up here? Flashes of images appeared inside my head then I remembered what had happened. I fainted outside but how did I end up in here. Wait am I back in the hospital? Panic was starting to build inside my heart. I couldn't be back, that place is so horrible. I looked around saw I didn't saw the same four walled prison. Instead, I saw my old room. Relief came after panic. I didn't know what would I do if I were back in that place. I vividly remembered my dream and that's the reason why I don't want to be in that place.
"Fine." I said weakly. If I fainted outside how did I end up here?
"I decided to visit you today to have a chat and I found out what had happened. I was so scared at that moment I thought.I thought." Tomoyo said beside me. I never let her finish her sentence because I know what is it that she will going to say and I don't want to hear it.
"Hey, I'm okay and nothings bad had happened right so you don't have to fret over it." I really hoped this would make them feel all right. At that moment, my father rushed in my room breathing heavily. It looks like he just ran a mile from a marathon race. The moment he saw me he crushed me in his arms. "Good thing your fine. God, I was so worried when your mother called me from work and told me that you fainted. I thought the worst, didn't you know that." I was too speechless to talk because after that he cried. This is the first time I ever saw my father cry and it is because of me. I am really a worst person alive.
~@~
I woke up at around 12:45am. I had this sudden urge to get a glass of water. I silently went outside and tiptoed downstairs. I was about to cross my parents room silently when I heard my mom crying. I stopped dead because I was wondering why my mother is crying at this time of night.
"It's all my fault. If I hadn't brought her out in the hospital, none of this would had happened." I heard my mom said.
"Don't blame yourself my dear, in or out of the hospital she would even faint like this afternoon." My dad said softly to my mom. I flattened my back to the wall while listening to them. I was on the verge of crying while listening to them.