Disclaimer: Albus, Minerva and their wonderful world of Hogwarts belong to JKR.
A/N: Well here we go a few notes before we get on with chapter 2.
Review replies. First I want to say a big thank-you to all who reviewed.
Minni: On I meant to write the angst. This fic is supposed to be about the gut wrenching, heart stopping pain sometimes involved in loving someone.
I am a big fan of Star Trek Voyager and I borrowed the name Katarina from an episode of that series.
Liz O'Brien: Your right Katarina does have the McGonagall temper. But she is very different from Minerva.
Evilwoman: I can't say too much. But I am a hopeless romantic. However the story has a life of it's own; I don't even know the ending yet.
Nerweniel: I love the AD/MM ship more than anything. I should be updating about once a week as I have just started a new job and don't have much spare time to write. I'm glad you like the name Katarina.
Stoneygem: I'm glad you're interested. I hope I can keep you interested.
Minerva'sQuill: I plan to finish this story if it kills me. I'll do my best to fulfil your request. But I make no promises.
Griselda La Fay:I'm glad you like it. I will be continuing this story wherever it leads me.
To all, your words of wisdom, hope and interest brought smiles to my lips and lifted my heart. Please review the second chapter whatever you may think of it. Ta lots Morgana_Alex
Sorry about the length of the A/N but this is my first chapter fic and I got carried away.
Now on with: -
Risking my sisters wrath or what have I done?
Chapter 2:
It's Thursday morning and it seems as if we are avoiding each other. We have talked of school matters. But little else, there have been no late night chats, chess games or marking sessions. He has made only one personal remark to me. It was about my hair, he said that it looked more vibrant, whatever that was meant to mean. However he had said it in the safe and secure environment of a staff meeting. He knew I would not reply and that I could not make a scene.
Perhaps he is just giving me space to think things through? Space to decide what it is I want. I've wanted Albus Dumbledore since my 6th Year at Hogwarts. I never told him how I felt. I just kept journal after journal of every thought, every feeling, every word spoken, every action witnessed.
It was those journals that Katarina found, read and decided to use against me.
My dear sister had perfected the use of the Imperuis curse using me as a guinea pig. The first time she used it on me she had made me tidy her room the muggle way, small things in the beginning, to make certain the spell worked. She progressed of course, to some things I cannot bear to think about they were so degrading, some even criminal.
But on the day before the summer holiday of my 6th year, it seemed at least to me as if she had been saving her strength for the most appalling act I could imagine.
FLASHBACK
I was called from my charms lesson and asked to report to headmaster Dumbledore's office. The gargoyle was already aside and the stairs already in place when I reached them. However I paid my nagging doubts No heed, I welcomed any excuse to speak with Albus. The last thing I expected was for Katarina to be standing at the top of the spiral staircase, holding my journal in her left hand and her wand in her right. Before I could run, scream, even move a muscle, she had me under the Imperuis curse, I was a slave to her will.
Katarina told me what she wanted me to do. I can remember every detail if it were yesterday. I stepped into Albus's office crossed to his desk and began to execute my orders. I asked him if he thought of me as more than just a pupil? Did he consider me a friend? Could he possibly even love me? The answer to all 3 was YES. As instructed I proceeded to laugh in an evil tone and to tell Albus that he was foolish to think that I could ever want him, ever love him, that he was much too old, ugly and unattractive to me. That such a beautiful and powerful witch like myself could never be interested in him the stupid old man that he was.
He was crushed, it was safe to say he was devastated and so was I. The last thing Katarina had me do was leave his office without looking back. I could hear his sobs. But I could do nothing of my own free will, no matter what I felt on the inside, my heart screaming in pain, I was powerless. It had been my voice and my body that had caused his heartache no matter who was pulling the strings.
Katarina smiled as I closed the door to his office, she changed in to her Animagus form, a Spider and disappeared as if she had never been there. I felt so ashamed that for the whole of my 7th year and for the first 5 years of my teaching career I made sure I was never alone with Albus Dumbledore. In my naiveté I thought she only meant to hurt me, to make sure she caused me pain. I never dreamt she wanted Albus for herself or that she would pursue him and finally win him. But that is what she did, the first day of the summer holiday after my 7th year at Hogwarts Katarina became Mrs. Albus Dumbledore.
END OF FLASHBACK
It would be almost 10 years - in my 5th year teaching at Hogwarts - before Albus would see me as a human being instead of a hate filled teenager.
Before I knew where the day was going it was 6 O'clock and already dark. I looked in the mirror to assure myself that I was presentable and I started the walk to Hogsmead.
On the way my mind was going over and over the events of the night we had spent together. But please do not mistake my contemplation for regret. Not for one moment do I regret my actions. I have thought better of them, yet when I ask myself if I'd go back in time and change my decision the answer is always no. That night I had gotten the one thing I had always wanted, I had given in to my desires, given myself to the only man I have ever loved and for one night I had been loved in return.
How could that be wrong? My mind shouted! Nevertheless it was; Albus is a married man; for Merlin's sake he is married to my sister. That is what makes it immoral and fundamentally wrong. Yet I the strict, stern, Professor Minerva McGonagall walked in to the Three Broomsticks fully prepared to become "The Other Woman" if Albus wanted "us" to continue…
A/N: I sincerely hope that you like this chapter. Sorry I ended on a note that leaves you hanging. But it made sense to have a chapter break here. The next chapter will explain what happened in Minerva's 5th Year teaching at Hogwarts and Albus's feeling on where things between them are going.
Please review and let me know what you thought. Good or bad I can take it. Many thanks Morgana_Alex