Seifer watched Zell sitting on his bed and smiled. "What's wrong?" He asked softly.
Zell looked up and tried to smile. "Nothing."
Seifer got up, walking over the bed and sitting down. He watched Zell for a long time, wondering what the other blonde was thinking about. He knew it was about Rin or their relationship. "Please tell me." Seifer whispered, looking for a anwser in Zell's eyes. When the blonde looked away he got worried.
"It's not important..." Zell tried to shrug it off all though he did want to talk about it. But he was afraid that Seifer wouldn't be able to anwser his question. Or the anwser he would get could be the opposite of what he wanted to hear.
The taller blonde sighed and looked at his hands, his stomach turning, afraid it was about them. "Zell, you can tell me."
Zell turned to look at him again, watching him for a long time. He bit his lip, wondering what Seifer's anwser could be to his question: 'Do you love me?' He knew Seifer wouldn't say it, but he needed to hear it. Even if that meant he was selfish. "Do...do you love me?" Zell whispered.
A tense and uncomfortable silence rested between them and seemed to go on for hours.
Seifer watched the blonde, the words on his lips but he was still not able to say them. When Zell got up Seifer started to get nervous. He didn't say anything while Zell got his stuff together and put it back in his bag. Seifer received a smile from Zell who then turned to leave. "Zell..." He whispered.
The blonde turned around, dissapointment in his blue eyes. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked." He whispered, looking away. Zell needed to leave, he felt selfish for asking Seifer to anwser while he knew the blonde couldn't. "I have to go..."
Seifer got up and grabbed Zell's arm, turning him around. He said nothing while placing his hands on Zell's hips. He leaned his head against Zell's shoulder, closing eyes.
Zell closed his eyes, trying to smile. "I'm sorry for asking Seifer." Zell said after a while. He pulled away, looking at Seifer. "I have to go." He tried to smile, still upset by the stupid question.
"All right." Seifer gave him a quick kiss and then watched Zell leave. He sighed and sat down on his bed, burrying his head in his hands.
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Zell let himself fall on his bed, sighing. He didn't know why he wanted Seifer to say it, why it would make a difference. If Seifer couldn't say 'I love you' then why would he push. 'Because it means so much to you...' Zell heard a voice inside his head and tried to block it out. 'Because he has meant something to you since you were still a child.' Zell turned on his stomach and grabbed his pillow, pulling it over his head. 'Because you love him...and you wan't him to love you back.'
"But he does love him..." Zell whispered to himself. 'But you aren't sure...what if he doesn't love you?' He opened his eyes and sat up, his pillow falling on his bed. He smiled to himself. "I'll just have to deal with it..." He told himself, grinning.
When he heard a knock on the door he walked to the door, opening it. He frowned when he saw Seifer standing on the other side. "Seifer, what are you doing here?" He asked, softly, frowning.
"I don't know." Seifer whispered, biting his lip. "I'm sorry I can't say it," He started, looking at the blonde. "I don't know why I can't say that I love you, because I do!"
Zell looked at him, startled. "You...you just said it."
Seifer watched him and then started smiling. But when he heard gasps behind him his smile soon faded, knowing that he wasn't the only one who finally knew he really did love Zell.
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Rin listened to the whispers around him.
'Seifer's gay? Really?'
'Seifer told Zell he loved him...'
'That's so sick...they are faggots...'
He frowned and stopped walking. Rin turned his head to look at the one who had just called his friends faggots. "What did you say?"
The red head looked up at Rin, a sneer on his face. "I said that your friends are faggots, so what does that make you?"
Rin placed his hands on his hips. "Less homophobic then you."
The other did a step closer and grabbed Rin's collar. "Are you a princess too?" He smirked, holding Rin's chin between his finger and thumb. "So do you like sucking someone?"
Rin glared at him, thought crossing his mind. He couldn't let him know he was scared. "Let's go to your room and find you." He smirked, licking his lips. When he was pushed to the ground he let out a soft yelp.
"Fag!" The red head yelled.
Rin looked up at him and pushed himself up. "What's wrong with liking boys?" He pouted, stepping closer to the other boy. "I bet you thought about it, some sweet little fag down on his knees, taking you in his mouth..." Rin whispered in the other's ear. When he was pushed away again he started laughing.
"I'll make your life and that of your friends so miserable, princess."
Rin watched him leave, biting his lip. Somehow he was sure the boy would keep his promise...
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