They both stood there stunned. Manny walked up behind Sean to the counter to see what was taking so long. She put her hand lightly on the small of Sean's back, breaking his trance.
"Hey, what's going on?" She asked Sean quietly. When Sean did not respond Manny turned and saw what he was staring so intently at.
She gasped, "Oh my God!"
"Sean…" Tracker began to say, but Sean only grabbed Manny's hand and dragged her out of the diner. "Wait, Sean!" Tracker yelled. He ran out from behind the counter and went out the door after his younger brother. He caught Sean's arm and pulled him around.
"Sean, please, can we talk?" Tracker asked him desperately. Sean violently pulled his arm free of Tracker's grip. "Fine," Sean said coldly, "talk."
"I don't really know what to say…" Tracker said, "I guess that I'm sorry…"
"For what? Beating the absolute shit outta me and then disappearing for the rest of my life?" Sean said, fourteen years of anger and hatred toward this man pulsing through his body. He had been waiting a long time to confront Tracker about this and now that he had him here Sean wasn't going to make it pleasant.
"I know, I am so, so sorry. I've thought about it everyday and the guilt…"
"The guilt," Sean interrupted, "was obviously not enough to make you come back. I mean, why didn't you? I was your brother, man!"
"I, I don't know…I guess…" Tracker rambled.
"You know," Sean began, "If Manny here hadn't of found me then I probably would have died before someone came to the house looking for me!"
Tracker rolled his eyes. "Sean, don't be so dramatic. In no way, no how, would you have died."
Manny's eyes widened in disbelief. She could not believe how lightly he was talking about this. Sean gritted his teeth. "Really. Tracker, I couldn't move, I was blacking out, there was a big gash on my head and I was loosing blood fast. You didn't just do a little damage."
Tracker stumbled over his words, "Yeah…well, all the same…I doubt that you would have died. Someone would have come looking for you. What was her name…Emma! Wouldn't she have come looking for you?" Tracker changed the subject, "How is she by the way? Still together maybe?"
Sean hated to hear Tracker say Emma's name. He didn't like how it sounded coming out of Tracker's mouth. "She's dead. She died that summer of cancer."
Tears glided down Manny's cheeks. The mention of her deceased best friend always made her eyes sting. Sean wiped a tear quickly from his cheek.
"Sean," Tracker replied in his fake concern voice, "I'm so sorry. I know that you guys were really close. But hey," he then flashed his nasty smile at Manny, "it looks like you found someone else."
"We're not dating." Manny said.
"Oh…well you're going to be a father then, huh, Sean!" Tracker said, slapping Sean on the side of the arm. Sean gave him a look of the most grotesque hate.
"No…it's not Sean's baby." Manny replied, embarrassed.
"Oh," Tracker said again, trying not to laugh. He could tell that Manny was not married. His face broke into that same nasty grin, "So what, you're just a girl who got knocked up then?" His sleazy smile made Manny sick.
"That's it!" Sean got up in Tracker's face and punched him hard in the face. Tracker fell hard to the ground and stayed down. Sean grabbed Manny's hand and pulled her to the car. Sean had not felt so good in a while. Hitting Tracker had been Sean's way of closure. Now, he would never have to think about that bastard again. He got what he had wanted since the day that Tracker left.
Once in the car driving to Manny's, Sean spoke lightly, "Manny, hey I'm really sorry about that. He shouldn't have said that to you. It was rude and uncalled for…and he doesn't know your story."
Manny waved her hand casually. "Don't worry about it. He's just like Sully. I don't listen to him anyways." Sean looked over at her profile. He could tell from her face that she was not completely okay with what had gone down, despite what she said.
"Manny," Sean began, but Manny cut him off, finally telling him what was truly on her mind.
"I know how people look at me. I'm nine months pregnant and I don't have a ring on my finger. They all make the same assumption." She looked over at him and their eyes met briefly before he turned his gaze back to the road ahead.
After some time Sean replied, "Well, they're all idiots. They don't know you or your story. It's not like you're some teen who got pregnant from your boy friend. You're an adult with a great big heart and you were married. It's not like you could have made Sully stay. Although, if you don't mind me saying, I'm glad that he's gone. You're much too good for him, Manny." He gave Manny a reassuring look. "Yeah…" Manny sighed, unconvinced.
They arrived at Manny's apartment. It was in the same building that Jimmy Brooks used to live in. "Does he still live there?" Sean asked, remembering back to a certain party that had occurred there.
"His parents do so he comes around every once in a while." They reached her door and she stuck the key in the lock. "I think that the last time I saw him was last year at Sully's reunion. You know what's weird? Even though Craig has been gone for years, I still expected to see him there. You could say I was hoping for it, I guess."
Tear leaked to the corners of Manny's eyes. "That's not weird." Sean replied, "I'm sure that I would have done the same thing."
Manny sat herself on the couch and started to cry. Sean sat next to her and put his arm around her shoulders. "It's okay." He said, trying to calm her down.
"Sorry." Manny said. "Pregnancy hormones. I cry if I put my shoes on the wrong feet these days." She gave a weak laugh.
"That's okay." Sean whispered. They looked at each other intently. Their faces were only inches apart…there was only one thing left to do. Sean went slowly in, so did Manny. Their lips met for a brief second before Sean pulled quickly away.
"I'm sorry." He said, getting to his feet and walking around to the back of the couch. Manny turned around to talk to him.
"Don't be," Manny replied, "It was nice."
"Yeah…yeah it was. But Manny your pregnant with another man's baby…and you said it before…hormones!" Truth be told was that Sean had liked that kiss way too much for his comfort.
Manny stood up, "That wasn't because of the pregnancy or hormones. It's because I wanted to. I have for a while. Trust me Sean, it's been a long time coming…for me at least."
Sean couldn't lie to himself, he had been tempted to kiss her since he first stepped off of the plane. He acted on impulse. Sean walked over to Manny and got very close. He put his hands on either side of her head and kissed her passionately. The last kiss that he had ever had that was so good was with Emma. EMMA, he thought. How could he just forget about Emma? Sean quickly pulled away again.
"I'm sorry Manny, I want to, but I can't."
"Come on, Sean, why not?" Manny asked.
"Because…because of Emma, okay. I haven't wanted to be with someone so much since Emma and…and it scares me, I guess." Sean said hurriedly.
"Sean, Emma's gone. It's been a really long time…you need to move on with your life." Manny said exasperatedly.
"What do you mean? I have moved on with my life. I have my job and…" Sean said defiantly. Manny cut him short.
"I mean with your love life, Sean. As much as it pains me to say it, Emma's not coming back…neither is Craig." Manny said sadly.
"I never said anything about Craig…" Sean said suspiciously.
"I know." Manny said quietly. "I needed to hear myself say it." There was a hint finality in her tone.
