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college student.
Chapter 17 uses "Big Big World" by Emilia. Okay everyone, this song is supposed to be read as if she's saying it and not meaning it. I think you'll see what I mean when you read it.
Chapter 17: Big Big World
"I said ANSWER ME!" Ephram said shaking Bright back and forth. Still no answer.
"God, Bright, just answer him!" Amy shouted between sobs.
"Because I'm envious of the two of you okay?!" he said lowering his voice. "You and my sister honestly, deep down love each other. I'm 18 and I still haven't found someone I can truthfully say I loved."
"I . . . I haven't either," Tommy spoke up, and coughed nervously.
Amy and Ephram fell silent. Ephram slowly dropped his hand from Bright's shoulder, releasing the hold he had put on him that was so forcefully he was shoved against the wall. He knew Bright was serious; everyone knew. So once again, Ephram was left feeling like the ass.
"I didn't know, I'm sorry man." Ephram said, setting his hand back on Bright's shoulder, this time out of care.
"Bright, this still doesn't excuse what you did you know," Amy responded gently.
"I guess I was just sick of seeing you guys so happy. I want to be happy like that, and, I never have."
"Tommy, what do you have to say to all of this?" Ephram asked, still angry with Tommy for complying with Bright's dare.
"I'm not trying to take your girl, man," he said raising his hands as if being accused. A cocky look spread over his face.
"How'd it feel to kiss her then? Feel good? It's been what? A few weeks since you have? Bet you missed it, didn't you? DIDN'T YOU?!" he yelled now.
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much.
I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside"
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"Don't make him out to be the bad guy here, no one is," Amy said, facing Ephram with her feelings for the first time. "I'm sick of people judging him."
Ephram's feelings were twisting and turning inside of him. One minute he sympathized with Bright, the next he was angry with Tommy. He didn't need to add Amy to the list of things to worry about.
"Don't do this, Amy, you don't have to," Ephram replied, gently sitting her back down on the couch. "This is between Tommy and me,"
"No it's not!" Amy said standing up in protest.
"Amy . . ." Tommy said calmly.
"No, it's okay Tommy. This needs to be said anyway," she started. She turned to Ephram and smoothed out her skirt, as if getting ready for a speech.
"I don't like where this is going," Bright said getting up,
"Sit your ass down, you started all this!" Amy said pointing at the couch. He obeyed. No one was about to defy Amy right now, she looked pissed. "Ephram, there's something that's been bothering me lately,"
"Let's do this in private, huh?" Ephram said trying to brush Amy's hair away from her neck. She pulled away.
"No, we're doing this now." Ephram sat down, "Tommy and I are FRIENDS. Friends. Nothing more, nothing for you to worry about."
"Yes, so I've been told," Ephram responded.
"Don't you trust me, then?" she asked starting to tear up. She knew this was the wrong question to ask.
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it all have to happen
why did it all have to end"
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"Trust you? I'd love to, if you'd make it possible," he explained.
"This isn't like you, Ephram! Making harsh responses. What's happened to you?"
"Ask this guy," he said pointing at Tommy. "I want you to stop hanging around him,"
"Absolutely not, you cannot tell me what I can and can't do. You can't tell me who to hang out with and who not to."
"CAN'T you see he's bad news? I'm not just being jealous, I love you." He said seriously, trying not to lose his temper with her.
"If you love me then let me make my own decisions,"
"Tommy, back to you now. How'd it FEEL, huh? Kissing my girlfriend."
"You already asked that," Tommy said seriously.
"You didn't answer,"
"I don't know . . ." he started; Amy closed her eyes in defeat. He continued, "kissing my best friend. . ."
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone..."
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Ephram walked up to him, "best friend?"
"Yes," Tommy responded seriously. "Amy's my best friend," Bright made odd "oooooo" noises in the background until Amy shot him a death glare.
"Amy, I thought I was your best friend," Ephram said defensively turning toward Amy.
"I . . . I love you, Ephram, with all of my heart . . . I . . ." she said starting to cry again.
"I know you do," he said rubbing her cheek with the back of his hand, gliding gently across her salty skin. "But I need you as my best friend too,"
"Ephram, I can't help how I feel. Tommy and I connect, not romantically, but friendly we do. We need each other and I can't give him up, you shouldn't ask me to,"
Tommy looked uncomfortably at Ephram, who seemed to be growing with anger.
"Why are you so scared of Tommy and I being friends?" she asked looking him right in the eye. "You weren't afraid of you and me becoming friend when I was dating Colin,"
"Yes, well look what happened. I fell in love with you,"
"Is that what you're afraid is going to happen? You think I fall in love with everyone I become friends with? Yes, I fell in love with Colin, yes with you . . . but there's no pattern . . ."
"I need to leave," he said, feeling sad and jealous and angry, "thank you for having me," he kissed Amy on the cheek, "I'll see you around then,"
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much..."
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"Ephram, wait!" she said as he made his way to the front door. Bright and Tommy stood in the distance watching.
"No, Amy, I can't do this anymore. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe you are. I don't know right now. Maybe I'll never know. I can't stand to see you with him. Maybe I'm the worst boyfriend in the whole world, and that's why I have to do this. Because I'm a jerk and I'm not being fair to you, I love you, you shouldn't have to deal with me being this way."
"I can deal with it, please, Ephram, I'm sorry," she said crying. "Just don't be jealous,"
"I can't do that right now," he said trying to break away from her.
"Where are you going?" she shouted after him.
"I don't know,"
"I'll call you tonight, we'll go out,"
"I don't think so." He said as he continued to walk. Amy ran into the house, tripping over her tears as they seemed to come down so forcefully. She bumped into Bright and then ran into the living room, wiping away the rivers that flowed out of her eyes. She cried and cried, face in her hands, heart left broken on the street.
She up and tried to run up to her room but nearly passed out. Opening her eyes she realized she had now bumped into Tommy's chest. He wrapped his arms around her. She let him, crying into him. "I'm sorry," she kept repeating over and over again.
"It's not your fault. It's mine, I should've left things as they were,"
"No, I needed to tell him it was bothering me anyway. I just wish he hadn't taken it so hard," she said crying harder.
"Well you didn't have to stick with what I said, you know," he said rocking her back and forth.
"Yes I did. I don't lie to Ephram. I love him too much to ever lie to him. You're my best friend, Tommy," she said pulling away from him, "But I'm in love with Ephram, and I need him back,"
"Well are you guys okay?"
"I don't think so,"
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much..."
Chapter 17 uses "Big Big World" by Emilia. Okay everyone, this song is supposed to be read as if she's saying it and not meaning it. I think you'll see what I mean when you read it.
Chapter 17: Big Big World
"I said ANSWER ME!" Ephram said shaking Bright back and forth. Still no answer.
"God, Bright, just answer him!" Amy shouted between sobs.
"Because I'm envious of the two of you okay?!" he said lowering his voice. "You and my sister honestly, deep down love each other. I'm 18 and I still haven't found someone I can truthfully say I loved."
"I . . . I haven't either," Tommy spoke up, and coughed nervously.
Amy and Ephram fell silent. Ephram slowly dropped his hand from Bright's shoulder, releasing the hold he had put on him that was so forcefully he was shoved against the wall. He knew Bright was serious; everyone knew. So once again, Ephram was left feeling like the ass.
"I didn't know, I'm sorry man." Ephram said, setting his hand back on Bright's shoulder, this time out of care.
"Bright, this still doesn't excuse what you did you know," Amy responded gently.
"I guess I was just sick of seeing you guys so happy. I want to be happy like that, and, I never have."
"Tommy, what do you have to say to all of this?" Ephram asked, still angry with Tommy for complying with Bright's dare.
"I'm not trying to take your girl, man," he said raising his hands as if being accused. A cocky look spread over his face.
"How'd it feel to kiss her then? Feel good? It's been what? A few weeks since you have? Bet you missed it, didn't you? DIDN'T YOU?!" he yelled now.
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much.
I can see the first leaf falling
it's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
like the way I'm feeling inside"
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"Don't make him out to be the bad guy here, no one is," Amy said, facing Ephram with her feelings for the first time. "I'm sick of people judging him."
Ephram's feelings were twisting and turning inside of him. One minute he sympathized with Bright, the next he was angry with Tommy. He didn't need to add Amy to the list of things to worry about.
"Don't do this, Amy, you don't have to," Ephram replied, gently sitting her back down on the couch. "This is between Tommy and me,"
"No it's not!" Amy said standing up in protest.
"Amy . . ." Tommy said calmly.
"No, it's okay Tommy. This needs to be said anyway," she started. She turned to Ephram and smoothed out her skirt, as if getting ready for a speech.
"I don't like where this is going," Bright said getting up,
"Sit your ass down, you started all this!" Amy said pointing at the couch. He obeyed. No one was about to defy Amy right now, she looked pissed. "Ephram, there's something that's been bothering me lately,"
"Let's do this in private, huh?" Ephram said trying to brush Amy's hair away from her neck. She pulled away.
"No, we're doing this now." Ephram sat down, "Tommy and I are FRIENDS. Friends. Nothing more, nothing for you to worry about."
"Yes, so I've been told," Ephram responded.
"Don't you trust me, then?" she asked starting to tear up. She knew this was the wrong question to ask.
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
Outside it's now raining
and tears are falling from my eyes
why did it all have to happen
why did it all have to end"
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"Trust you? I'd love to, if you'd make it possible," he explained.
"This isn't like you, Ephram! Making harsh responses. What's happened to you?"
"Ask this guy," he said pointing at Tommy. "I want you to stop hanging around him,"
"Absolutely not, you cannot tell me what I can and can't do. You can't tell me who to hang out with and who not to."
"CAN'T you see he's bad news? I'm not just being jealous, I love you." He said seriously, trying not to lose his temper with her.
"If you love me then let me make my own decisions,"
"Tommy, back to you now. How'd it FEEL, huh? Kissing my girlfriend."
"You already asked that," Tommy said seriously.
"You didn't answer,"
"I don't know . . ." he started; Amy closed her eyes in defeat. He continued, "kissing my best friend. . ."
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much...
I have your arms around me ooooh like fire
but when I open my eyes
you're gone..."
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Ephram walked up to him, "best friend?"
"Yes," Tommy responded seriously. "Amy's my best friend," Bright made odd "oooooo" noises in the background until Amy shot him a death glare.
"Amy, I thought I was your best friend," Ephram said defensively turning toward Amy.
"I . . . I love you, Ephram, with all of my heart . . . I . . ." she said starting to cry again.
"I know you do," he said rubbing her cheek with the back of his hand, gliding gently across her salty skin. "But I need you as my best friend too,"
"Ephram, I can't help how I feel. Tommy and I connect, not romantically, but friendly we do. We need each other and I can't give him up, you shouldn't ask me to,"
Tommy looked uncomfortably at Ephram, who seemed to be growing with anger.
"Why are you so scared of Tommy and I being friends?" she asked looking him right in the eye. "You weren't afraid of you and me becoming friend when I was dating Colin,"
"Yes, well look what happened. I fell in love with you,"
"Is that what you're afraid is going to happen? You think I fall in love with everyone I become friends with? Yes, I fell in love with Colin, yes with you . . . but there's no pattern . . ."
"I need to leave," he said, feeling sad and jealous and angry, "thank you for having me," he kissed Amy on the cheek, "I'll see you around then,"
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
miss you much..."
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"Ephram, wait!" she said as he made his way to the front door. Bright and Tommy stood in the distance watching.
"No, Amy, I can't do this anymore. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe you are. I don't know right now. Maybe I'll never know. I can't stand to see you with him. Maybe I'm the worst boyfriend in the whole world, and that's why I have to do this. Because I'm a jerk and I'm not being fair to you, I love you, you shouldn't have to deal with me being this way."
"I can deal with it, please, Ephram, I'm sorry," she said crying. "Just don't be jealous,"
"I can't do that right now," he said trying to break away from her.
"Where are you going?" she shouted after him.
"I don't know,"
"I'll call you tonight, we'll go out,"
"I don't think so." He said as he continued to walk. Amy ran into the house, tripping over her tears as they seemed to come down so forcefully. She bumped into Bright and then ran into the living room, wiping away the rivers that flowed out of her eyes. She cried and cried, face in her hands, heart left broken on the street.
She up and tried to run up to her room but nearly passed out. Opening her eyes she realized she had now bumped into Tommy's chest. He wrapped his arms around her. She let him, crying into him. "I'm sorry," she kept repeating over and over again.
"It's not your fault. It's mine, I should've left things as they were,"
"No, I needed to tell him it was bothering me anyway. I just wish he hadn't taken it so hard," she said crying harder.
"Well you didn't have to stick with what I said, you know," he said rocking her back and forth.
"Yes I did. I don't lie to Ephram. I love him too much to ever lie to him. You're my best friend, Tommy," she said pulling away from him, "But I'm in love with Ephram, and I need him back,"
"Well are you guys okay?"
"I don't think so,"
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"I'm a big big girl
in a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
but I do feel I will miss you much
miss you much..."