Inuyasha © Rumiko Takahashi

All I have left is two more days, two days to tell Kagome that I love her. Now, I'm starting to question about our relationship, Miroku and Sango made it clearly to me that they didn't even care if I die. Would you? Of course, she would care...right now; I don't even know myself, or who to trust anymore.

"Maybe this was supposed to happen..." I said in a whisper staring at the sun raising. I heard someone walk outside of the hut, and I quickly turned to see who that person might be.

"Inuyasha, what did you mean by 'maybe this was suppose to happen'?" I heard Kagome asking me. What should I say? Should I tell her right now that I love her? Would she accept my love or will she reject it...I just don't know anymore.

"Nothing, Kagome. You don't need to worry about my problems. Why are you awake so early? Shouldn't you still be asleep?" I asked trying to change the subject. Hopefully it would work.

"Oh me? I couldn't sleep, so I walked out to see what you were doing, and if you were awake or not." I turned to Kagome; she was fiddling with her nails. How beautiful she looks at the break of dawn.

"I see...well, as you can tell, I am fully awake. What about everyone else? Are they still asleep?" I asked once more. Maybe I should at least try and not remember about me dying? Heh, that would be impossible.

"Miroku, Sango, and Shippou are still sleeping, and you been asking a lot of questions, maybe it's my turn to ask you questions." Kagome replied. Great now, she's going to ask me questions...this going to be hell.

"Umm...okay, I guess. What do you want to know?" Maybe after a few questions, she'll be tired again and go back to sleep. So, that means I should make my answers really long.

"Okay then...question number one, you haven't been talking a lot and you been staring off to space. Is there something that you would like to share, Inuyasha?"

"I guess, I have been thinking about some things. It's nothing really important, really. So, don't need to worry about a thing." Damn it, I was supposed to make it long, real nice, Inuyasha, real nice.

"Inuyasha, I'm worry about you. You really seem out of it, maybe it's me, but you look more relax. It's really freaking me out right now." Kagome, I want to tell you everything that happens these past few days. It's not because I don't care about the jewel of four souls, but I just want to spend these last days telling everybody the truth.

"Well...it's really nothing, I just want to take a small break from shard hunting and spend some time with everybody, you know. And I don't really feel like talking about it right now." I looked as Kagome turned away, I raised my arm and place it on her shoulder, but she just shrugs it off. Kagome turned around to face me and she was crying. Did I do something wrong?

"Inuyasha, I thought you could trust me with your problems. I guess I was wrong." I wanted to wipe every single tear away that were falling on her beautiful face, but something, inside of me, told me no.

"Kagome, I really do trust you, but it's not something I want to talk about right now." I knew Kagome wasn't even paying attention, since she wasn't even here.

I saw a fur ball coming my way, and it started hitting me. "Inuyasha, you big jerk! Why did you make Kagome cry again, you always make her cry for no reason? I hate you, Inuyasha. Right now, I don't even care if you just fall down and die! You hurt Kagome so many times and she still comes back. I don't even know why anymore. Maybe it is just because she wants to see us."

I looked at Shippou in shocked, I grabbed his tail to make him let go of my leg, and started walking away from every pain and betrayal that I was feeling inside of me. When I reach my destination, I sat down on the sacred tree. "I thought I will never have to feel any pain that hurt as much when Kikyou betrayed me. I guess, I was completely wrong on that."

I stared at the sky and watched the clouds drift by slowly. I felt my stomach rumbling, but I didn't care. I knew it was lunch time now, but I just didn't feel like eating. Even if I am starving myself.

I returned my glaze at the path which leads to Kaede's hut, but I really doubt anybody would at least notice I wasn't there. I looked the other way finding grass was more interesting than the path, which wasn't really true. I heard footsteps coming my way. I looked up and found myself staring into two beautiful, brown orbs.

"Inuyasha, what are you doing here? It's already lunch, so why don't you come with me and join with the others. I haven't seen you for the whole entire morning and I was beginning to wonder a bit." Kagome said as I sat still in my tree.

I finally found my voice to respond. "I'm not hungry-" I was cut off by my stomach rumbling. Damn my stomach of mine, of all times!

"I think, your stomach disagrees with you, Inuyasha. Let's go, before the food gets cold, you wouldn't want cold food, would you? I don't think so." Kagome said smiling, how I love it when she smiles, and how she brings warmth inside of me.

"Forget my stomach; like I said before, I'm not hungry." Maybe I was being a little too stubborn, but she just got to get that fact that I'm not hungry, and even if I was, I would starve myself.

"Inuyasha, stop being stubborn and let's go! You might not mind your food cold, but I certainly do. Now get off your lazy ass, follow me and eat." I knew Kagome was angry and annoyed with me, but I know eating won't take my pain away from me...from what everybody said. It was the truth; I can definitely tell...they hated me.

"Kagome, I'm not hungry at all! My stomach is being stupid, okay?" Even if I was hungry...I don't want to face Miroku, Sango, and Shippou.

"Fine, whatever. I'll just bring your food over here, so you can be a loner." After that, Kagome started walking back to the village, getting my food and bringing it to me.

I took a scroll from my sleeve and began writing a letter. I could already hear Kagome's footsteps coming closer and closer. I quickly hide the scroll away before she ask me what I was doing.

"Here, your favorite. Enjoy. I'll be back where Miroku, Sango, and Shippou are. If you need anything just walk to the village, cause I am not going to be listening for you to say anything." With that Kagome left my bowl of Ramen, and started walking back.

I look at the sky once more. The sun was already setting. "Damn, it's already this late, I guess, I should eat a little." I got up from my branch and picked up my bowl of Ramen, and took a bite. It was so delicious.

After I was done eating my lunch or dinner. I started walking back to the village hoping that I do not bump into Miroku, Sango, or Shippou.

When I arrived, I quickly gave Kagome my bowl, and started walking away. I suddenly felt a tiny jolt on my shoulder. I thought Kaede said I won't feel any pain until the fifth day. Was she lying? No, she can't be lying. I hurry to Kaede's hut and searched for her ignoring everybody's glances.

I finally found her meditating in her room. "Kaede..." I said at the door. I quickly walked in shutting the door so nobody can intrude.

"What is the matter with ye, Inuyasha?" Kaede asked me. I can't scream at her because then everybody would walk in and ask what is happening.

"I should be the one that asking you that, Kaede. I just felt a tiny jolt from my shoulder; you said that spell will subdue all the pain." I said quietly, hoping nobody could hear our discussion.

"I see...this is a very complicated issue we have here. It is also a very difficult spell to cast. I really have doubt that a little pain can do anything to the spell." 'Or maybe the spell is weakening, that could be a bad thing.' "Inuyasha, have ye told anybody yet? You only have two more days. Wait...less then two day, more like one."

"Thanks, Kaede. You have my spirits so high up...not. This is going all wrong; I haven't even gotten a chance to tell anybody yet." I said trying to look away from all this.

"What ye mean ye haven't told anybody this? This is very serious, Inuyasha. Have ye even tried to talk to them at all? This is your life, we are talking about."

"I know it is! Every time I try to tell them, they all got mad at me, well, I haven't talked to Kagome yet, but still." I sat down on Kaede's bed. I stared at the floor and cover my face with my hands.

"What ye mean they get mad at you? Have ye been doing something to them? Tell me, Inuyasha, so I can help ye." Kaede went over towards me and place on of her hand on my back, patting my back to comfort me.

"I don't know. I just don't know anymore. I know, I have to tell them sooner or later, but I don't want to hurt Kagome." Everything is just too complicated...of all reasons, why am I the one that has to be poison and die.

"Inuyasha, it's getting late, go and sleep, tomorrow might be a little bit better. Good night." Kaede walked me out of her room. When I was outside of her room, I saw everybody was already sleeping without a care in the world. I went outside to my branch, once again and drifted off to sleep.