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A/N: Chapter 9 is now FINALLY up! I'm really sorry for the wait. I hope you guys are still interested in this story. Anywayz Karasu has finally been defeated, only one problem…….Hiei is un- conscience and is about to lose his life unless Yusuke and the rest can save him in time. Plus Kurama and Hiei encounter some problems.

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"Is It Love….Or Not?"

Hiei's eyes slowly began to open. Barely being able to move his head around, he slowly looked around to gather in his surroundings and stopped when his eye caught a blurry, red figure sitting next to him. I t was Kurama. He had been watching Hiei practically all night, not taking one eye off of him.

"K-Kurama? Is that really you?"

Kurama smiled at the half asleep bishonen as his eyes lit up with glee.

"Shhh… yes Hiei it's me but try not too much, you're body has to gain all its energy back."

"I must be in heaven, for I see an angel hovering over me," Hiei smiled.

Kurama chuckled to himself as he sat back down and pulled the chair up closer to Hiei's bedside.

"Hmm….seems as though they have given you a bit too much anesthesia by the way you are acting. But no you're in the hospital, or Koenma's care center I should say. We brought you here after you were badly injured."

Hiei's eyes now began to widen as he started to sit up balancing on the palm of his hands. He looked around the plain room to see nothing but machines hooked up to him and took notice in the long colored wires that were attached to his skin by needles. They followed to the tall metal object standing beside him with a plastic looking bag with liquid inside.

"What am I doing here? I thought I died…."

Kurama got up once again and firmly took a hold of Hiei's shoulders and gently pushed him back down into the bed.

"Well, yes you did in fact die for a few moments, but then I realized I could save you."

"What are you talking about?"

"Yusuke, Kuwabara and I gave up some of our energy and transferred it into you. We only had a limited of time because you were un-conscience, so we rushed you over here as quick as we could."

"Why did you do that Kurama!? I told you not to bother with trying to bring me back. You wasted perfectly good energy on saving my life and it was highly un-necessary."

Kurama fell silent for a few seconds not believing what the aggravated demon had just told him. Could all that sweet talk been a joke?

"How can you say that Hiei? You know how much I care about you and I know you feel the same about me. You even said it before you died. Or maybe you didn't mean it all…."

Hiei sat up, glanced up at Kurama and then lowered his head and sighed.

"Kurama you baka…..of course I meant it, but that's not the point. I had my reasons for sacrificing myself and I tended to show no remorse."

"…..and may I ask what those reasons were?"

With a hesitated look Hiei answered, "I …I can't tell you."

"What do you mean you can't? You know you can tell me anything Hiei, we always never kept secrets from each other."

"I'm sorry Kurama, I can't, please try to accept that. Trust me it would only make matters worse."

Kurama sat down on Hiei's bedside next to him, looking into his crimson eyes.

"What's happening to us Hiei."

"Hn? What are you talking about?"

"You've been like this for a while now…..like you've been wanting death so soon. It's not like you to want to be gone without having a reason."

Hiei rolled his eyes.

"I already told you, I have my reasons, I just can't tell you, it's hard for me to explain why."

"But, I still don't understand. Hiei, don't you realize how many loved ones you have here? Don't you care?"

Hiei sat up and crossed his arms, trying to look as serious as possible.

"Kurama…it has nothing to do with that….I just felt that I had served my purpose on earth already. We've fought our amount of battles together, had our moments and now I can finally leave this planet knowing that Yukina will be safe."

"Yes….but what about us Hiei? Have you ever thought that maybe we were meant to be side by side, that maybe there's something you're not telling me perhaps?"

"……."

Kurama stood up with his head lowered, not once looking Hiei in the eye.

"I see…."

Kurama slowly turned around and casually walked towards the door to the hallway when Kuwabara and Yusuke were waiting. Kurama could feel Hiei's eyes in his back, but never turned around to acknowledge him.

Once Hiei saw that Kurama had totally stepped out of the room, he let out a heavy sigh and quickly fell back against his pillow, staring blankly at the ceiling. He knew what he had done. He wanted to tell Kurama the truth of why he took his life, but he cared for Kurama and didn't want to hurt him any worse than he had a few moments ago. He was his angel, the only one who really understood him, but mostly….he loved him. However, he wanted more than to just explain it in words, he wanted to show his love to Kurama, mentally as well as physically, but he had to prove it to him first. Hiei slowly came out of his trance and sat up on his bed with his legs crossed and looked over towards the door.

I'll show you Kurama….I'll show you exactly how I feel…..but I'm weak in words and I wouldn't know the first thing about expressing my feelings.

Kurama walked to the end of the hallway, and cracked a small smile once he saw Yusuke and Kuwabara. Yusuke gave Kuwabara a hard shove to wake him up from hs snoring slumber. He reacted with a small snort and usual big grin while nervously scratching the back of his head.

"Hey Kurama….how is he? Is he going to be alright?"

"He will be fine, just minor cuts and burns, and of course his energy loss which he is slowly recovering from."

"Well that's good, nice to know the little guy is hard to get rid of."

"Yea……unfortunately, shrimp ," whispered Kuwabara.

"Is it all right if we go see him?"

"Yes of course he's in the last room on the left, I will be heading home now, I have lots of work to do."

"But wait Kurama, you're still pretty beat up….maybe you should seek medical attention as well just in case."

"No I will be fine….besides the only part of my body that is probably beat up is my heart…."

Without even looking back, Kurama casually walked towards the exit of the hallway, leaving the two boys bewildered.

"Kurama?"

"Come on Urameshi! Let's hurry up and see how the little twerp is doing…"

"Better watch what you say, he might have enough energy left to kick your ass back to the human world," he smirked.

"Pshh yea right, I know the runt and he wouldn't dare tackle the great Kuwabara," he said with a cocky attitude and ridiculous grin across his face. He then realized he was the only person standing in the hallway.

"Hey wait up Urameshi!"

Yusuke casually walked into the room Hiei was standing in and went up to his bed where he still hasn't moved from his spot since Kurama left.

"Hey Hiei…. You doing alright? Kurama said that you should be recovered by tomorrow."

"Hn…"

Just then Kuwabara stammered into the room out of breath from running to catch up with Yusuke.

"Heh heh, hey pee-wee, I see you lived."

"Hn."

"Heh, yep he's going to be alright."

"Something wrong Hiei? You seem a bit distracted by something, anything I can do?"

Hiei stared back at him with a kind of expression that Yusuke had never seen before. His eyes had a sort of soft sadness in them as well as hurt which caused a small shiver to run through Yusuke's spine. Kuwabara wandered around the room fiddling with equipment that he was not supposed to mess with then soon realized the silence in the room.

"Duh….I don't get it, what's going on here? Did I miss something?"

Yusuke rolled his eyes. "Hey Kuwabara, ya mind stepping out for a minute? I wanna talk with Hiei."

"Pshh…fine, but I still don't see how talking to him is going to make him even less than a shrimp," he snorted.

As soon as Kuwabara completely left the room, Yusuke shut the door and walked back to Hiei's bedside where he stared blankly at his bedsheets. Before Yusuke was about to speak, Hiei interrupted him.

"Don't. I know what you are going to say and frankly I don't know what's wrong with me…"

"Just explain this. How do you express your feelings when you've never done it your whole life?"

There was a brief silence and Yusuke mentally slapped Hiei across the head.

"Just tell him that you love him…."

Hiei's head shot up with bulging eyes towards Yusuke.

"How….how did you-"

"I knew all the time Hiei. I just didn't want to spoil it between you two, and don't worry, I kept it to myself."

Hiei still sat dumbfounded and speechless. He didn't know if he should kill Yusuke on the spot or be thankful that he understood what he was going through. Yusuke smirked at the confused demon.

"Well, I guess I should let you think this out, but just remember Hiei, Kurama feels a lot towards you and it would way the hell suck if you lost him."

As Yusuke left the room, Hiei thought really hard of what the raven haired boy had told him, and he was right. Hiei didn't wasn't to lose the one he loved over his stubbornness.

I love Kurama with all my heart, I would do anything for him. Hell, I even just sacrificed my life just to save his….but now because of my stupidity, he might never want to speak to me again.

A/N: Wow…so finally I posted this chapter after months and months of waiting. I'm sorry for the long delay, hopefully you guys will still want to read it. Anyway please R&R! Thanx