A light breeze stirred the leaves on the trees, the colors an array of red, orange, and brown. These colors brought out your amber eyes, so it's no wonder why fall never ceases to remind me of you. I can remember your laughter that always brought a smile to my face. I remember the way you were able to read straight through my façade, and see into the real me. I remember night together that we would spend cuddling in my bedroom, and the cuddling slowly progressing to an expression of our deepest love. I thought I was in love, but those thoughts of love were just foolish. I gave up everything for you, and I never expected too much in return. I just wanted us to be together forever, because to me, it was to be Golden Pair forever.
It's been nearly a year to that faithful day when you told me the truth. I already sensed that something was wrong. You seemed to be seeing less and less of me and the smallest things I did irritated you. You turned your back on me. You avoided my eyes in the hallway, and your normal sweet, loving hug, was now limp and emotionless. Each time you smiled, I could see the insincerity of it, and there was a shadow of sadness in your amber eyes that I fell in love with. At first I kept on fooling myself and lied over an over saying that it was just how you were, and you were just stressed or something was wrong at home. I didn't want to admit to myself that maybe we were going to be over. But then came that day when I had to confront the painful truth. You may have thought it was a mutual agreement, since I approached you to ask about our relationship with each other, but in reality my heart tugged at me to beg you not to leave. I just wanted you to be happy, and if it meant sacrificing my love for you so that you would be happy, I would. It may seem foolish, but it was my decision and I stood by it with uneasy determination.
You told me "It's not you, it's me." And my heart sank at this lie. Every relationship has that question and it always seems to be the same answer, but in reality both of us knew it was the both of us that went wrong. Time changed the both of us, and the time we stopped spending with each other made us complete strangers. Our parents did everything they could to keep us from each other, forbade us to make contact with the other except at school. The time I wanted to spend with you was now spent with other people, and that made me jealous. I've always had a jealousy problem, but nothing like this. Every time I saw you laughing with your friends my stomach inflated and turned to lead, my heart clenched, and I wanted to yell "WHY CAN'T YOU LAUGH LIKE THAT WITH ME ANYMORE?" Eventually, my jealousy took me to the wrong road and landed me here.
I honestly can say that I love you still. You never gave me a reason as to why you broke up with me, a truthful one; one that would hurt my feelings but give me the closure that I needed. So, I'm waiting here for you to come to me. I'm waiting for you approach me, talk to me and tell me that you want to be my friend again; that you want to start back where we left off, as friends; as best friends, like we were in the 7th grade. I never forgot our relationship we worked so hard to build over 2 years time, but it seemed easy for you to forget. I hope that you will remember me, and one day realize how much our friendship means to me, to us. But for now, I wait. Here, I stand on the ground that we first kissed one year ago, and I celebrate our anniversary, and the memory of the Golden Pair.