Joyce sat in her living room sipping coffee and watching Ella play with one
of her Barbie dolls, it was a shame, Ella was such a kind, happy, lovable
little girl with many qualities and her family had been torn apart. Joyce
sighed; this was the kind of stuff that affected kids mentally.
"Joyce?" Ella looked up and Joyce smiled down at her,
"Who was that man who was in bed with mommy?" Joyce felt overwhelmed with pity for her granddaughter but knew that there was already far too much lies to keep track of so decided to tell the truth,
"Ella, when I tell you this, you must remember that you're Daddy and I love you and we will both always be there for you, do you understand?"
"Yes"
"That man was your mommy's boyfriend, she doesn't love your Daddy anymore but loves him, and she won't be around anymore" Joyce watched as pain and sadness filled the eyes of the little girl in front of her, the pain finally reached its peak, and Ella burst into tears.
Buffy and Spike were snuggled up on the sofa together watching T.V, drinking hot chocolate and eating chocolate chip cookies. Buffy was surprised at how Spike could be so cute and lovable but so fucking hot at the same time.
She turned off the T.V and took his hand; they looked into each other's eyes before she spoke,
"Spike" she whispered,
"Yes Luv"
"Will you promise me something?"
"Anything"
"Promise me that you'll never leave me just like everyone else has, I love you so much...I couldn't bear to lose you"
"I love you too much to leave you" he leaned down to kiss her softly and they broke apart, looking at each other with so much love and passion, Buffy thought that they were going to burn up in flames.
Angel lead in his bed, although Buffy had left him, he still felt that he had cheated on her with Chantelle. He thought of Spike; he had never held so much hatred for one person before in his whole life, they were probably in his apartment now, making love. Oh how he wished that the knife attack had killed him, it would have made everything much simpler, Buffy would have been upset and Angel would have just swooped in like the knight in armour that she never had.
But he had survived, and that angered Angel to no end.
"Okay I've just made the appointment; four O clock tomorrow" Buffy said, putting the phone down and sitting back on the sofa with Spike,
"will we be able to know it's sex yet?" Spike asked,
"I dunno, but isn't this exciting, we're gonna see our baby on the sonogram!"
"Buffy" Spike said and Buffy was a little taken aback by the serious tone in his voice,
"What?"
"I know we've got a lot to look forward to but..." Spike hesitated,
"But what?" Buffy said, leaning closer to him,
"You're mother, you're daughter...does it bother you that if you don't do something soon you're probably never gonna see them again"
"I...I guess so but they'll come round, I mean I have arguments like this all the time with my mom and we always make up later on..." Spike nodded,
"So tomorrow we're actually gonna see our baby for the first time" he said, changing the subject,
"Yeah" excited as she was about her second child, her first child held a special place in her heart and without her, there was a gap that needed filling.
Joyce looked lovingly down at the sleeping five year old in her arms. After about forty minutes of none stop crying, Ella had fallen asleep and Joyce's heart melted for her granddaughter. She looked over at her phone on the table next to the sofa, all it would take was a single phone call and she could at least try and settle things with Buffy. Although Buffy had angered her, she was still her daughter and it would make Ella so much happier knowing that her mom was going to be around again.
She gently lifted Ella up to let herself stand up and then put her back sown on the sofa again. Joyce picked up the phone and looked at her watch- it was a couple of minutes past ten so Buffy should still be up.
Buffy smiled as she looked up at Spike's sleeping form, he had nodded off whilst they had been snuggling on the sofa. She placed a very light kiss on his lips and buried her head in his bare chest, she was just closing her eyes when the phone rang,
"Hello?" she answered,
"Hello Buffy" she heard her mom's voice on the line,
"Mom! What do you want? I thought you made it quite clear that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore"
"I know, honey I'm so sorry about the way I acted before. I just want to let you know that Ella misses you...please come home" Buffy softened slightly at her mother's kind apology but looked over at Spike- she wanted to be with him and if that meant leaving her family then, God help her, so be it.
"I can't" she said, "mom listen to me. I love you and Ella so much and I'll still see you frequently but I'm with Spike now and I'm not coming home" she heard her mother take a deep breath on the other end of the phone,
"are you sure?" Joyce asked her,
"Yeah" there was a long, uncomfortable silence until Buffy shelved her pride and spoke up,
"Mom I need your help...I don't know what to do. I mean, I want to see Ella but I also want to stay with Spike and have his baby but I know that Angel will want to carry on seeing Ella, which is understandable" Joyce smiled when she heard Buffy ask for her help,
"Alright, I'll tell you what- Ella can stay at my house tonight, Angel knows where she is, and you and Spike can come round to my house tomorrow morning and we'll discuss it then, okay?"
"Okay, thank you mom, so much, I love you bye"
"Bye sweetheart" Buffy hung up the phone and looked over to see that Spike was awake,
"So, we're going round to your mother's house tomorrow?" he asked her as she sat down next to him and he put his arms around her,
"Yeah, is that okay?"
"It's fine, somehow I don't think that Ella will be too pleased to see me though"
"Well she'll have to get used to it because if she wants to see me then she'll have to see you too" Buffy said, leaning up and kissing him softly.
Angel woke up and looked over at the clock- it was nine O clock in the morning.
"Better get up" he said to himself, he pulled on a pair of jeans and a shirt, he wanted to see Ella, she could always make him smile when he was depressed.
Buffy rang the doorbell to Joyce's house twice before she answered it, smiling a little too enthusiastically, she let Buffy and Spike inside.
Ella was drawing pictures in the kitchen and Joyce guided them into the living room, she wasn't really sure about Ella meeting Spike properly yet. Closing the door, she sat on an armchair opposite Spike and Buffy, who were sat a little too closely for her liking on the sofa.
"So, we have a difficult situation here don't we?" she said and the too lovers nodded,
Just as she was about to offer the couple advice, she heard the doorbell ring again, "Excuse me for a second" she said, going up to answer the door. As soon as she opened it, Angel stormed in,
"Where's Ella?" he asked, "I want to see my little girl..." he looked into the living room and saw Buffy and Spike sat there, his rage built up inside him as he saw the one person he wished death upon. He couldn't take it anymore, forgetting about Joyce, he walked in and grabbed Spike by the collar, forcing him to stand up.
"Angel no!" Buffy yelled at her husband but gasped as Angel's fist made contact with Spike's nose very quickly, she shrieked as Spike punched him back in the same spot, a sickening crack sound filling the room and Angel stood there, clutching his broken face. Buffy watched in horror as he picked Spike up with ease and threw him across the room and into the fireplace. It took a few seconds before Spike got up again but he wasted no time punching Angel again, another crack sound was heard before Joyce finally got in the middle of the two and pulled them apart, pointing them to sit down- Spike on the sofa next to Buffy and Angel on the armchair where she was sat before.
"I am extremely displeased with the both of you; brawling like animals and ruining my fireplace in the process!" Joyce yelled and the two men looked down at the floor, nodding in agreement with her,
"Just who do you think you are? Hmm? My daughter is pregnant as she does not need the stress that you two are causing her!" Buffy looked at both Angel and Spike; Spike had a black eye and Angel's nose was bleeding.
"I think you two should go" Joyce said softly, "I think I need to have a serious talk with Angel, we'll talk another time"
Buffy and Spike said goodbye to Joyce and walked out of the front door holding hands, Angel's eyes narrowed.
As soon as she heard Spike's car drive away Joyce began talking to Angel,
"She loves him" she said and Angel clenched his jaw, "Angel you have to understand that she didn't mean to hurt you but..."
"She didn't mean to hurt me?" Angel butted in, "What did she expect me to feel? Did she think that I'd be happy for the two of them? Overjoyed that the child I once thought was mine is actually his?"
"Angel," Joyce said softly and he calmed a little, "It just happened, she didn't mean to fall in love with him but she did. Do you really think that fighting with him is going to make her leave him and come back to you?"
"No" Angel said sadly, "It won't"
"Honey are you sure you're okay?" Buffy asked Spike as she shut the door to the apartment,
"I'm fine" he said, getting a beer out of the fridge, "you want something to drink?" he said, opening it,
"I know I really shouldn't because of the baby but I could really do with a glass or two of wine"
"Coming right up" he said, taking a bottle of red wine out of a wine rack and pouring a glass, he took the bottle and the wine and put them on the table in front of were Buffy was now sat on the sofa and sat next to her with his beer in his hand.
She took the glass and sipped, "Mmmmm, this is great wine" she said turning the bottle around so that she could see the label,
She took another sip and turned to face Spike,
"What time is it?" she asked and Spike looked at his watch,
"Just gone noon" he said smiling as he looked at the glass Buffy was holding, "I've gotta say, I've never had a woman who drinks this early,"
"Yeah well, this is a one off...what with you and Angel I think I need one"
"Just don't drink too much; you don't want to be drunk when we go to the appointment at four"
She slapped him playfully on the arm before putting the glass down next to the bottle, she took the beer out of his hand and put it on the table and snuggled up next to him,
"I understand why Angel was mad and everything, but behaving like that, and with Ella in the next room..." Spike felt her tension and started massaging her back, making her moan.
"I just don't understand it; he's never been a particularly violent person"
"I know luv...I know, it's just, love makes you do stupid things" Buffy sighed, she had to ask...
"Spike, do you think it was right of me to leave Ella like that?"
"Do you want my honest opinion?"
"Yeah"
"No, Buffy. I know Ella probably hates me right now, but if...never mind"
"But if what?"
"Well...I was thinking maybe Ella could come here for a little while, I like that kid. I think she's dealt with everything in a really mature way, how old is she? Eight? Nine?"
"Five" Buffy said,
"Five?! Wow! If this had happened to me when I was five I would have..." Spike stopped talking when he saw the look on Buffy's face and continued,
"I think that maybe she could come and stay here with us for a little while. She's gonna be seeing a lot more of us together and I think that she should get used to it"
"You really think so?"
"Yeah"
"Okay, but I don't think it's gonna be easy convincing Angel or my mom"
"I know, but she's your daughter Buffy. She's part of you, fight for her" Buffy looked into Spike's eyes and nodded,
"Okay, I will" Spike looked at his watch,
"Come on Buffy, we gotta go to our appointment"
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"Joyce?" Ella looked up and Joyce smiled down at her,
"Who was that man who was in bed with mommy?" Joyce felt overwhelmed with pity for her granddaughter but knew that there was already far too much lies to keep track of so decided to tell the truth,
"Ella, when I tell you this, you must remember that you're Daddy and I love you and we will both always be there for you, do you understand?"
"Yes"
"That man was your mommy's boyfriend, she doesn't love your Daddy anymore but loves him, and she won't be around anymore" Joyce watched as pain and sadness filled the eyes of the little girl in front of her, the pain finally reached its peak, and Ella burst into tears.
Buffy and Spike were snuggled up on the sofa together watching T.V, drinking hot chocolate and eating chocolate chip cookies. Buffy was surprised at how Spike could be so cute and lovable but so fucking hot at the same time.
She turned off the T.V and took his hand; they looked into each other's eyes before she spoke,
"Spike" she whispered,
"Yes Luv"
"Will you promise me something?"
"Anything"
"Promise me that you'll never leave me just like everyone else has, I love you so much...I couldn't bear to lose you"
"I love you too much to leave you" he leaned down to kiss her softly and they broke apart, looking at each other with so much love and passion, Buffy thought that they were going to burn up in flames.
Angel lead in his bed, although Buffy had left him, he still felt that he had cheated on her with Chantelle. He thought of Spike; he had never held so much hatred for one person before in his whole life, they were probably in his apartment now, making love. Oh how he wished that the knife attack had killed him, it would have made everything much simpler, Buffy would have been upset and Angel would have just swooped in like the knight in armour that she never had.
But he had survived, and that angered Angel to no end.
"Okay I've just made the appointment; four O clock tomorrow" Buffy said, putting the phone down and sitting back on the sofa with Spike,
"will we be able to know it's sex yet?" Spike asked,
"I dunno, but isn't this exciting, we're gonna see our baby on the sonogram!"
"Buffy" Spike said and Buffy was a little taken aback by the serious tone in his voice,
"What?"
"I know we've got a lot to look forward to but..." Spike hesitated,
"But what?" Buffy said, leaning closer to him,
"You're mother, you're daughter...does it bother you that if you don't do something soon you're probably never gonna see them again"
"I...I guess so but they'll come round, I mean I have arguments like this all the time with my mom and we always make up later on..." Spike nodded,
"So tomorrow we're actually gonna see our baby for the first time" he said, changing the subject,
"Yeah" excited as she was about her second child, her first child held a special place in her heart and without her, there was a gap that needed filling.
Joyce looked lovingly down at the sleeping five year old in her arms. After about forty minutes of none stop crying, Ella had fallen asleep and Joyce's heart melted for her granddaughter. She looked over at her phone on the table next to the sofa, all it would take was a single phone call and she could at least try and settle things with Buffy. Although Buffy had angered her, she was still her daughter and it would make Ella so much happier knowing that her mom was going to be around again.
She gently lifted Ella up to let herself stand up and then put her back sown on the sofa again. Joyce picked up the phone and looked at her watch- it was a couple of minutes past ten so Buffy should still be up.
Buffy smiled as she looked up at Spike's sleeping form, he had nodded off whilst they had been snuggling on the sofa. She placed a very light kiss on his lips and buried her head in his bare chest, she was just closing her eyes when the phone rang,
"Hello?" she answered,
"Hello Buffy" she heard her mom's voice on the line,
"Mom! What do you want? I thought you made it quite clear that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore"
"I know, honey I'm so sorry about the way I acted before. I just want to let you know that Ella misses you...please come home" Buffy softened slightly at her mother's kind apology but looked over at Spike- she wanted to be with him and if that meant leaving her family then, God help her, so be it.
"I can't" she said, "mom listen to me. I love you and Ella so much and I'll still see you frequently but I'm with Spike now and I'm not coming home" she heard her mother take a deep breath on the other end of the phone,
"are you sure?" Joyce asked her,
"Yeah" there was a long, uncomfortable silence until Buffy shelved her pride and spoke up,
"Mom I need your help...I don't know what to do. I mean, I want to see Ella but I also want to stay with Spike and have his baby but I know that Angel will want to carry on seeing Ella, which is understandable" Joyce smiled when she heard Buffy ask for her help,
"Alright, I'll tell you what- Ella can stay at my house tonight, Angel knows where she is, and you and Spike can come round to my house tomorrow morning and we'll discuss it then, okay?"
"Okay, thank you mom, so much, I love you bye"
"Bye sweetheart" Buffy hung up the phone and looked over to see that Spike was awake,
"So, we're going round to your mother's house tomorrow?" he asked her as she sat down next to him and he put his arms around her,
"Yeah, is that okay?"
"It's fine, somehow I don't think that Ella will be too pleased to see me though"
"Well she'll have to get used to it because if she wants to see me then she'll have to see you too" Buffy said, leaning up and kissing him softly.
Angel woke up and looked over at the clock- it was nine O clock in the morning.
"Better get up" he said to himself, he pulled on a pair of jeans and a shirt, he wanted to see Ella, she could always make him smile when he was depressed.
Buffy rang the doorbell to Joyce's house twice before she answered it, smiling a little too enthusiastically, she let Buffy and Spike inside.
Ella was drawing pictures in the kitchen and Joyce guided them into the living room, she wasn't really sure about Ella meeting Spike properly yet. Closing the door, she sat on an armchair opposite Spike and Buffy, who were sat a little too closely for her liking on the sofa.
"So, we have a difficult situation here don't we?" she said and the too lovers nodded,
Just as she was about to offer the couple advice, she heard the doorbell ring again, "Excuse me for a second" she said, going up to answer the door. As soon as she opened it, Angel stormed in,
"Where's Ella?" he asked, "I want to see my little girl..." he looked into the living room and saw Buffy and Spike sat there, his rage built up inside him as he saw the one person he wished death upon. He couldn't take it anymore, forgetting about Joyce, he walked in and grabbed Spike by the collar, forcing him to stand up.
"Angel no!" Buffy yelled at her husband but gasped as Angel's fist made contact with Spike's nose very quickly, she shrieked as Spike punched him back in the same spot, a sickening crack sound filling the room and Angel stood there, clutching his broken face. Buffy watched in horror as he picked Spike up with ease and threw him across the room and into the fireplace. It took a few seconds before Spike got up again but he wasted no time punching Angel again, another crack sound was heard before Joyce finally got in the middle of the two and pulled them apart, pointing them to sit down- Spike on the sofa next to Buffy and Angel on the armchair where she was sat before.
"I am extremely displeased with the both of you; brawling like animals and ruining my fireplace in the process!" Joyce yelled and the two men looked down at the floor, nodding in agreement with her,
"Just who do you think you are? Hmm? My daughter is pregnant as she does not need the stress that you two are causing her!" Buffy looked at both Angel and Spike; Spike had a black eye and Angel's nose was bleeding.
"I think you two should go" Joyce said softly, "I think I need to have a serious talk with Angel, we'll talk another time"
Buffy and Spike said goodbye to Joyce and walked out of the front door holding hands, Angel's eyes narrowed.
As soon as she heard Spike's car drive away Joyce began talking to Angel,
"She loves him" she said and Angel clenched his jaw, "Angel you have to understand that she didn't mean to hurt you but..."
"She didn't mean to hurt me?" Angel butted in, "What did she expect me to feel? Did she think that I'd be happy for the two of them? Overjoyed that the child I once thought was mine is actually his?"
"Angel," Joyce said softly and he calmed a little, "It just happened, she didn't mean to fall in love with him but she did. Do you really think that fighting with him is going to make her leave him and come back to you?"
"No" Angel said sadly, "It won't"
"Honey are you sure you're okay?" Buffy asked Spike as she shut the door to the apartment,
"I'm fine" he said, getting a beer out of the fridge, "you want something to drink?" he said, opening it,
"I know I really shouldn't because of the baby but I could really do with a glass or two of wine"
"Coming right up" he said, taking a bottle of red wine out of a wine rack and pouring a glass, he took the bottle and the wine and put them on the table in front of were Buffy was now sat on the sofa and sat next to her with his beer in his hand.
She took the glass and sipped, "Mmmmm, this is great wine" she said turning the bottle around so that she could see the label,
She took another sip and turned to face Spike,
"What time is it?" she asked and Spike looked at his watch,
"Just gone noon" he said smiling as he looked at the glass Buffy was holding, "I've gotta say, I've never had a woman who drinks this early,"
"Yeah well, this is a one off...what with you and Angel I think I need one"
"Just don't drink too much; you don't want to be drunk when we go to the appointment at four"
She slapped him playfully on the arm before putting the glass down next to the bottle, she took the beer out of his hand and put it on the table and snuggled up next to him,
"I understand why Angel was mad and everything, but behaving like that, and with Ella in the next room..." Spike felt her tension and started massaging her back, making her moan.
"I just don't understand it; he's never been a particularly violent person"
"I know luv...I know, it's just, love makes you do stupid things" Buffy sighed, she had to ask...
"Spike, do you think it was right of me to leave Ella like that?"
"Do you want my honest opinion?"
"Yeah"
"No, Buffy. I know Ella probably hates me right now, but if...never mind"
"But if what?"
"Well...I was thinking maybe Ella could come here for a little while, I like that kid. I think she's dealt with everything in a really mature way, how old is she? Eight? Nine?"
"Five" Buffy said,
"Five?! Wow! If this had happened to me when I was five I would have..." Spike stopped talking when he saw the look on Buffy's face and continued,
"I think that maybe she could come and stay here with us for a little while. She's gonna be seeing a lot more of us together and I think that she should get used to it"
"You really think so?"
"Yeah"
"Okay, but I don't think it's gonna be easy convincing Angel or my mom"
"I know, but she's your daughter Buffy. She's part of you, fight for her" Buffy looked into Spike's eyes and nodded,
"Okay, I will" Spike looked at his watch,
"Come on Buffy, we gotta go to our appointment"
Please review, love,
Brittany
xxx