Well, this is going to probably become a ritual for me after each story I write. This is kind of like the author's view on the story; the troubles I ran into, inspirational facts and so on. So here we go!

Into the sweetly twisted mind of Doogy A.K.A. Jessica

Inspiration:

Well, I am so proud to have written this. The idea for this story popped into my head one night back in December as I was cleaning my room and clearing negative energy from the past year. I noticed how normal it seemed to be cleaning a room. Something that pretty much every teenager does. I also noticed my South Park DVD lying on the floor amongst some various magazines and CDs. Now, Stan has always been one of my favorite characters. I like him because he's funny and sane. I go on everyday and read SP stories. So, as I am eyeing the DVD and piling crap into my closet, I get a wonderfully devious idea; I'd like to dwell further into Stan's mind with my own creative writing.

You know how you have your Math/Science kids and then you've got your English/Social kids? Well, I've always been particularly strong in English. So, I eventually get my cleaning chore done, find a notebook and begin to write down my ideas, forming my plot, throwing in a few "creative" problems, and voila! I've got my story. I write the very first chapter the next day.

Now, as far as music goes, I listen to it all the time. Whether I'm doing homework, studying, or writing, it's always my background sound. As I wrote this story, my playlist consisted of mostly Evanescence (just because their music is oh-so-dramatic and angsty), Alanis Morsette (just for some normality to it all), and some different pieces by Thomas Newman (he's king, what can I say?).

I kept my eyes peeled in school and outside my home for inspiration. I watched some little fights between my friends occur in order to create the same kind of friction between Stan and Kyle. I studied my image in the mirror and figured out what I looked at most, which was either my eyes or my hair.

I found I wrote my best chapters when I was upset or having a bad day. It just adds on somehow.

Problems:

Well, we all run into writer's block. It sucks big time. I hated it. I'd literally sit down and force myself to write and all that would happen in the end is I would delete all that I had written because I simply was not satisfied. So, from my experience, my biggest suggestion for overcoming writer's block is to shut your computer off, sleep and see how you feel the next day. Keep doing it until you feel some inspiration. Do NOT force yourself to write. It just causes frustration.

Alrighty, I did quite a bit of research on bulimia and for the most part, I think it turned out quite well. But, I got a review for the last chapter from E2K that made me think twice. I didn't even think about researching the Jewish beliefs of death and burial. So, I apologize for that. I wanted this story to seem as realistic as possible and I goofed up on that one. Thank you, E2K, for bringing that to my attention! I'll know better for next time.

Another problem was my schoolwork. I know, I know. Schoolwork should come first, but to me, as far as writing goes, schoolwork is my last resort. I'm so bad, Haha. I was trying so hard to find the time to write and balance my schoolwork at the same time. I'm also mentioning that my newest story will probably be started next Friday because my last exam is on Thursday. It'll burrow into Kyle's mind and I think you will all come to like it. So, stay tuned for that one!

Favorites:

I LOVED getting reviews. As soon as I posted my first chapter, I was suddenly filled with worry about the feedback I'd get. I was so afraid of what people would think of it. However, this all changed when I got my first six reviews. They were all great and I was so happy! I love all my fans and I hope you all continue reading my stuff. You made this story happen and you all deserve chocolate … which I would provide if I had the money to right now … Haha.

My favorite chapters I wrote were Bese Primero and Making Angels Cry. I absolutely could NOT wait to write about Stan and Kyle's kiss. I suppose it got really fluffy and cutesy but I don't care!! I was so pleased with the end result; I celebrated with a can of coca cola. The last chapter was also my favorite because I love stories and movies that end on a note like that. They don't go onto future details. They leave you hanging there, allowing you to decide what happens next. I've always wanted to end a story like that.

Well, I'm going to stop rambling on now. Thanks so much for reading and reviewing and stay tuned for my next story! Hugs and Kisses. You all make my writing worth doing.

-Jessica