Unusual Feelings...
Summary: Yet another Depressed!Helga story... but this one is different... her savior is none other than Gerald! ::gasp:: Not a good summaries but I can't write summary worth cheese cows!
Disclaimer: I don't own it...
A/N: I like unusual pairings! I'm weird like that alright! Plus I'm kinda sick of H/A pairings all the time... It gets boring... So if you feel the need to flame on my pairing... go right ahead... it will be ignored... now if you flame on my lack of writing skills than that's another story! Well on to the story! (Experiment first chapter) Will continue depending on response!
Black turned into a dim gray as the sun was rising. The sky reflecting the same moods as one lone girl. One girl who never had anything in her life. Who was always outcasted, looked over by her parents. Never knowing what love was, never learning how to love herself. Of course she always thought she loved a boy with a weird shaped head.
Just recently she found out it was never love. It was an obession that started because he showed the slightest care in the world for her. He complimented her on her pink bow, because it matched her pants. Yeah the two went out for sometime, but she soon realized, she never really loved him. She couldn't love, she didn't know how.
This one lone girl never could let down her walls, never trust anyone fulling. Scared of being hurt, scared of being betrayed, what could she do? Live an unhappy life for ever, never knowing the warmth that love can bring. Never knowing the joy of being loved and returning it. She evenually pushed the one person she thought she loved away. He never tried to stop her, never said he loved her. Hell, he dated another girl behind her back. Boy did that bring this girl down, made her so mad, she started to hurt herself. Sure she knew she never loved him, but the pain she felt, the betrayal.
'How could he do that to me?' always played in her head at night. 'How can the one person who actually cared about me do that?' was the thought that always bought tears to her eyes. She stayed up late every night, crying her eyes out. She would sit next to the window watching the day turn to night, or night turn today. The wonderful sky blue turn into pink, orange and yellow, which soon turned black. Black like her heart. The cold air was so numbing, just like her soul which was numbing everyday.
No one noticed this girl, no one really cared. Why would they care about someone who bullied them for most of their lives? Why would anyone care for Helga G. Pataki? Even her best friend left her, left her to be with her one crush, whom she thought she loved, Arnold. Helga has become numb to the world, numb to any emotions. Scared to trust again, scared to have people come near her.
Why do I care that she is alone? Why do I care that she might kill herself soon? That's what scares me the most, I do care. I don't know when these weird feelings for Helga came about, but I know I can't lose her. I'm her only friend now, not that she knows I consider her a friend. I'm just another face in the crowd, just another passerby. Just someone who she thinks hates her, and I feel guilty that I can't tell her the truth.
"I promise you Helga, I will save you," I whisper walking out of the shadow in front of her window and heading back to my home.
A/N: Ohhhh!!!! That was like one of the deepest things I've ever wrote... well besides my poems... Read and review...
Review thanks for my other story 'Everything Is Gone'
just me...: You requested a longer story on how Helga and Gerald got together... well here it is! Hope you like it... thanks for the review!
Brat Child2: Well I've started a whole new story on how the got together... I hope you enjoy it! Thanks for the review!
FROZENsun: I read your poem, but I was to lazy to review... I'll review when I'm not so lazy... Thanks for the review!
Gwynn: I really don't know where this came from... My mind works in strange ways! Well thanks for the review!
Pointy Objects: Thanks for saying my poem doesn't suck... Yeah... thanks for the review!
laura buzali: Nope, haven't been suicidal for awhile acutally. If my poems seem all depressing and junk, it's because I write them when I am depressed... Like I always say, "Poems/Songs don't leave scars." So yeah thanks for the review!
A/N2: Well yeah! I'm looking forward to some reviews or flames... whatever floats your goat... Gotta love Will and Grace! Well talk to me on AIM: FucEmotions or Yahoo: Lakiepoo89 or or give me your MSN name and I'll add you to my list! And if you read my story In The Woods... well that won't be updated for a long time... writers block... that's basically why I'm writing this and I wrote Everything Is Gone... Well bye now!
Summary: Yet another Depressed!Helga story... but this one is different... her savior is none other than Gerald! ::gasp:: Not a good summaries but I can't write summary worth cheese cows!
Disclaimer: I don't own it...
A/N: I like unusual pairings! I'm weird like that alright! Plus I'm kinda sick of H/A pairings all the time... It gets boring... So if you feel the need to flame on my pairing... go right ahead... it will be ignored... now if you flame on my lack of writing skills than that's another story! Well on to the story! (Experiment first chapter) Will continue depending on response!
Black turned into a dim gray as the sun was rising. The sky reflecting the same moods as one lone girl. One girl who never had anything in her life. Who was always outcasted, looked over by her parents. Never knowing what love was, never learning how to love herself. Of course she always thought she loved a boy with a weird shaped head.
Just recently she found out it was never love. It was an obession that started because he showed the slightest care in the world for her. He complimented her on her pink bow, because it matched her pants. Yeah the two went out for sometime, but she soon realized, she never really loved him. She couldn't love, she didn't know how.
This one lone girl never could let down her walls, never trust anyone fulling. Scared of being hurt, scared of being betrayed, what could she do? Live an unhappy life for ever, never knowing the warmth that love can bring. Never knowing the joy of being loved and returning it. She evenually pushed the one person she thought she loved away. He never tried to stop her, never said he loved her. Hell, he dated another girl behind her back. Boy did that bring this girl down, made her so mad, she started to hurt herself. Sure she knew she never loved him, but the pain she felt, the betrayal.
'How could he do that to me?' always played in her head at night. 'How can the one person who actually cared about me do that?' was the thought that always bought tears to her eyes. She stayed up late every night, crying her eyes out. She would sit next to the window watching the day turn to night, or night turn today. The wonderful sky blue turn into pink, orange and yellow, which soon turned black. Black like her heart. The cold air was so numbing, just like her soul which was numbing everyday.
No one noticed this girl, no one really cared. Why would they care about someone who bullied them for most of their lives? Why would anyone care for Helga G. Pataki? Even her best friend left her, left her to be with her one crush, whom she thought she loved, Arnold. Helga has become numb to the world, numb to any emotions. Scared to trust again, scared to have people come near her.
Why do I care that she is alone? Why do I care that she might kill herself soon? That's what scares me the most, I do care. I don't know when these weird feelings for Helga came about, but I know I can't lose her. I'm her only friend now, not that she knows I consider her a friend. I'm just another face in the crowd, just another passerby. Just someone who she thinks hates her, and I feel guilty that I can't tell her the truth.
"I promise you Helga, I will save you," I whisper walking out of the shadow in front of her window and heading back to my home.
A/N: Ohhhh!!!! That was like one of the deepest things I've ever wrote... well besides my poems... Read and review...
Review thanks for my other story 'Everything Is Gone'
just me...: You requested a longer story on how Helga and Gerald got together... well here it is! Hope you like it... thanks for the review!
Brat Child2: Well I've started a whole new story on how the got together... I hope you enjoy it! Thanks for the review!
FROZENsun: I read your poem, but I was to lazy to review... I'll review when I'm not so lazy... Thanks for the review!
Gwynn: I really don't know where this came from... My mind works in strange ways! Well thanks for the review!
Pointy Objects: Thanks for saying my poem doesn't suck... Yeah... thanks for the review!
laura buzali: Nope, haven't been suicidal for awhile acutally. If my poems seem all depressing and junk, it's because I write them when I am depressed... Like I always say, "Poems/Songs don't leave scars." So yeah thanks for the review!
A/N2: Well yeah! I'm looking forward to some reviews or flames... whatever floats your goat... Gotta love Will and Grace! Well talk to me on AIM: FucEmotions or Yahoo: Lakiepoo89 or or give me your MSN name and I'll add you to my list! And if you read my story In The Woods... well that won't be updated for a long time... writers block... that's basically why I'm writing this and I wrote Everything Is Gone... Well bye now!