Unusual Feelings...
Summary: Yet another Depressed!Helga story... but this one is different... her savior is none other than Gerald! ::gasp:: Not a good summaries but I can't write summary worth cheese cows!
Disclaimer: I don't own it...
A/N: Hi! Here is an update... hope you enjoy!
Sighing deeply I stare out into the dark black sky. The full moon is shining brightly, and the stars are twinkling. An airplane flying overhead, ruining the perfect sky. Then again, what is perfect excatly? He was once perfect, he was the best guy in this world. That's done and over with thought, and now we don't even talk.
The nights we spent together were the best, I was so happy. Atleast, I thought I was happy. What is happiness? What does it feel like to be anything but depressed or angry? I'll never find out real emotions, besides those two.
I slowly raise from my sitting postion by my window and walk toward my bed. Sighing deeply I get into the warm comforter of my bed. The one place that I feel safe and warm. Falling to sleep is always hard now, so it takes awhile before I fall into an uneasy sleep. The next morning is hectic like always. I'm up late, because my 'mom forgot' to wake me. That's not unusual around here, she and my 'dad' are always forgetting me. Everything is about my stupid, smart, snobby, hot sister. There are so many words to describe her, and most of them are good. Everyone loves Olga and I don't exsist around her. Most words that discribe me are boring and plain. I have yet to gain curves and I am the ugliest person. My friend Faith disagrees though.
Faith moved in a few months ago and we became instant friends. Her being what most people call goth and me being goth and basically a outcast. We bonded instantly. Phoebe, my best friend in middle school, ditched me and started to date my ex, who was my boyfriend at the time. So I was alone and she was alone, guess that is what bought us together. Although I like to think it was fate that did. I mean Hillwood doesn't usually get new people like Faith.
"Olga?" My father calls pulling me out of my depressing thoughts.
"It's Helga dad," I reply in an annoyed voice.
"You are going to be late and don't take that tone with me."
"Right bye," I say walking out of the house.
Sitting on the sidewalk in front of me is Faith. Her rollerblades on her feet already as I sit down to put mine on.
"What's up?" she asked, concerned.
"You know the same old crap," I respond smiling slightly pulling my other skate on.
"Oh my god!" she says in her highest voice, "Like you just smiled! Did is hurt?"
"Shut up fucking bitch," I say but mumble the last part.
"What was that?" she ask.
"Nothing, nothing."
"Righty-o yo!"
"Let's go," I tell her getting to my feet.
We start to blade to school, slowly, in a comfortable silence. The area hasn't changed much since I was a kid. The older buildings have been knocked down and replaced with newer ones. The vacant lot, also known as Gerald Field, is still here. Although I don't go there much, well I don't ever go there anymore.
See I am not an outcast, someone everyone loves to hate. Someone no one gives a second glance to, unless they want to glare. I guess being a bully in elementary and middle gave me a bad reputation. Although I don't see why I am the one who is to blame. I mean they were the ones that made me the way that I am. Then again I can choose how I act, most of the time. There is always that fear of letting someone in and getting hurt again.
"Helga?!" Faith yells pulling me from my depressing thoughts.
"Huh?" I ask, dazed.
"You spaced out and got the look again," she responds concern.
"It's all roast chicken dude," I reply.
"Righty o."
The rest of the skate was spend in a silence, not as comfortable as before. I could tell she was concerned and I felt bad because I didn't tell her what was really wrong. Slowly sitting down on the stairs, I take off my blades. Looking up I see him, the one guy I thought I had loved, with my ex best friend, Phoebe. She ditched me long ago to be with him, thing is they were dating behind my back. Both betrayed me in a way that could never be forgiven.
That is when I turned what most people would call goth. I guess that is there own opinion right? I look back down at my vans, which are a few inches away from me and grab them. Sighing as I slip them on my feet, I feel eyes on me. Lifting my head up my blue eyes met the golden brown eyes of an old childhood friend.
"Hey Helga," his deep voice says.
"Gerald," I reply in my emotionless voice.
I have stopped teasing people and using childish nicknames. He looks me over once and for some odd reason I blush. Cursing at my reaction I get up and say a quick bye to him and rush off.
'What the fuck was up with that?' I ask myself as I make my way to my homeroom class.
"Helga!" Faith calls from behind me.
"Sorry," I reply as she walks up next to me.
"No prob. Gerald is shocked on your sudden departure though."
"Why is he suddently talking to me now?"
"I don't know. I better get going I have to meet up with the others."
"Alrighty bye!" I call to her retreating back.
A/N: Well there is the second chapter... Sorry it is short but I don't know if people are actually reading it... Review for me! I'll love you forever!
Review Thanks:
Witchytara24: Hehe...I don't know? I feel loved that you reviewed it! Well I must go... being attacked by Yahoo IMs... ::sigh:: Thanks again you get a duck!
A/N2: Well review... and if you must talk to me Yahoo: Lakiepoo89 AIM: FucEmotions and msn: Lake89115
Summary: Yet another Depressed!Helga story... but this one is different... her savior is none other than Gerald! ::gasp:: Not a good summaries but I can't write summary worth cheese cows!
Disclaimer: I don't own it...
A/N: Hi! Here is an update... hope you enjoy!
Sighing deeply I stare out into the dark black sky. The full moon is shining brightly, and the stars are twinkling. An airplane flying overhead, ruining the perfect sky. Then again, what is perfect excatly? He was once perfect, he was the best guy in this world. That's done and over with thought, and now we don't even talk.
The nights we spent together were the best, I was so happy. Atleast, I thought I was happy. What is happiness? What does it feel like to be anything but depressed or angry? I'll never find out real emotions, besides those two.
I slowly raise from my sitting postion by my window and walk toward my bed. Sighing deeply I get into the warm comforter of my bed. The one place that I feel safe and warm. Falling to sleep is always hard now, so it takes awhile before I fall into an uneasy sleep. The next morning is hectic like always. I'm up late, because my 'mom forgot' to wake me. That's not unusual around here, she and my 'dad' are always forgetting me. Everything is about my stupid, smart, snobby, hot sister. There are so many words to describe her, and most of them are good. Everyone loves Olga and I don't exsist around her. Most words that discribe me are boring and plain. I have yet to gain curves and I am the ugliest person. My friend Faith disagrees though.
Faith moved in a few months ago and we became instant friends. Her being what most people call goth and me being goth and basically a outcast. We bonded instantly. Phoebe, my best friend in middle school, ditched me and started to date my ex, who was my boyfriend at the time. So I was alone and she was alone, guess that is what bought us together. Although I like to think it was fate that did. I mean Hillwood doesn't usually get new people like Faith.
"Olga?" My father calls pulling me out of my depressing thoughts.
"It's Helga dad," I reply in an annoyed voice.
"You are going to be late and don't take that tone with me."
"Right bye," I say walking out of the house.
Sitting on the sidewalk in front of me is Faith. Her rollerblades on her feet already as I sit down to put mine on.
"What's up?" she asked, concerned.
"You know the same old crap," I respond smiling slightly pulling my other skate on.
"Oh my god!" she says in her highest voice, "Like you just smiled! Did is hurt?"
"Shut up fucking bitch," I say but mumble the last part.
"What was that?" she ask.
"Nothing, nothing."
"Righty-o yo!"
"Let's go," I tell her getting to my feet.
We start to blade to school, slowly, in a comfortable silence. The area hasn't changed much since I was a kid. The older buildings have been knocked down and replaced with newer ones. The vacant lot, also known as Gerald Field, is still here. Although I don't go there much, well I don't ever go there anymore.
See I am not an outcast, someone everyone loves to hate. Someone no one gives a second glance to, unless they want to glare. I guess being a bully in elementary and middle gave me a bad reputation. Although I don't see why I am the one who is to blame. I mean they were the ones that made me the way that I am. Then again I can choose how I act, most of the time. There is always that fear of letting someone in and getting hurt again.
"Helga?!" Faith yells pulling me from my depressing thoughts.
"Huh?" I ask, dazed.
"You spaced out and got the look again," she responds concern.
"It's all roast chicken dude," I reply.
"Righty o."
The rest of the skate was spend in a silence, not as comfortable as before. I could tell she was concerned and I felt bad because I didn't tell her what was really wrong. Slowly sitting down on the stairs, I take off my blades. Looking up I see him, the one guy I thought I had loved, with my ex best friend, Phoebe. She ditched me long ago to be with him, thing is they were dating behind my back. Both betrayed me in a way that could never be forgiven.
That is when I turned what most people would call goth. I guess that is there own opinion right? I look back down at my vans, which are a few inches away from me and grab them. Sighing as I slip them on my feet, I feel eyes on me. Lifting my head up my blue eyes met the golden brown eyes of an old childhood friend.
"Hey Helga," his deep voice says.
"Gerald," I reply in my emotionless voice.
I have stopped teasing people and using childish nicknames. He looks me over once and for some odd reason I blush. Cursing at my reaction I get up and say a quick bye to him and rush off.
'What the fuck was up with that?' I ask myself as I make my way to my homeroom class.
"Helga!" Faith calls from behind me.
"Sorry," I reply as she walks up next to me.
"No prob. Gerald is shocked on your sudden departure though."
"Why is he suddently talking to me now?"
"I don't know. I better get going I have to meet up with the others."
"Alrighty bye!" I call to her retreating back.
A/N: Well there is the second chapter... Sorry it is short but I don't know if people are actually reading it... Review for me! I'll love you forever!
Review Thanks:
Witchytara24: Hehe...I don't know? I feel loved that you reviewed it! Well I must go... being attacked by Yahoo IMs... ::sigh:: Thanks again you get a duck!
A/N2: Well review... and if you must talk to me Yahoo: Lakiepoo89 AIM: FucEmotions and msn: Lake89115