Title: She's only happy when it Rains
Chapter: These Feelings, I haven't
Once upon a time
Somewhere far away from here
I was drowning in a deep sleep
Got no ground beneath my feet
And there's so many faces
I'm New York and I'm Japan
There's so many things that I want to know
But I'll never understand...
(Chorus)
Now I'm dreaming in red
Just drifting away
I'm dreaming in red
Come and take me away
I just got to get it right
Before I make it wrong
Cause I'm breaking out and rising up
While the world is falling down...
(Chorus)
I see the sun behind the night, sky
One last moment before I say goodbye...
Once upon a time
Somewhere far away from here...
(Chorus)
'Dreaming In Red' –The Calling
(a month later)
"Hitokoe" Kikyou murmured in her sleep, then flung up eyes bulging "WHAT AM I SAYING!?" she looked around the room and hoped that Hitokoe hadn't heard her, 'I can't believe I feel this way......' she thought in her head cursing out loud under her breath. Kikyou groaned and then attempted to get out of bed only to succeed in getting her foot caught in the covers, which made her flip and land with a thud on her head, "Yeah, this is only the 20th time I've done this..." she yelped in pain as she felt the numerous bumps on the top of her head.
Hitokoe kept telling her to be careful, 'God he's like some kinda of manly mother!' Kikyou gave a crooked smile 'A really cute manly mother....ack! God damnit if I keep thinking these things I just might say them allowed on accident...' untangling her foot from the covers Kikyou stood up with a huff then making sure she wasn't ready to trip on something else walked out of her room.
Kikyou stopped in the doorway of the kitchen, she had finally found out what to call this room (also finding out the 'demon' was really just a way to store food). Hitokoe had his back turned to her and was covered in flour, apparently the bag had fallen from the top of the shelves. 'That was my fault' Kikyou smirked remembering that she had put it back lazily at the very edge of the shelf after attempting to make cookies earlier that week. Hitokoe looked at the (now) empty bag angrily cursing and trying to brush the flour off of him, causing it to spread and smear even worse.
"Baka." Kikyou said in an amused tone, Hitokoe turned around and smiled at her "I see the ice queen has woken and left her royal chambers." He looked down at his flour covered cloths and then back up at her "This is so you're doing...." It was like he could read her mind. "Why is everything my fault?" Kikyou said trying to put on an innocent look but her eyes gave it away, "You!" Hitokoe said shaking his fist at her, Kikyou laughed 'When was the last time that I've laughed like this....'Kikyou stopped laughing.
She heard a little voice in her head say: "Kikyou you should be miserable, everything that you've loved has left you and died. You should not be allowed to feel happy, laugh, smile; you should be erased, pitiful to fall for a human....a stranger."
Kikyou closed her eyes, 'I know I just....just....help it.' Then the happiness she had felt moments before became a memory she heard the voice again: "What makes you think that this man even would consider you that way the only reason he hasn't thrown you out is because your just your probably just another girl to sleep with".
Kikyou looked at Hitokoe, 'is that what I am.....a whore....' The voice hissed: "What else could you be to this man?". Kikyou shuddered and let out a soft sob 'but I think......I love him...' she looked at him, he was still muttering and ranting about how careless she was and how it was a waste of flour. He was the only reason she had stayed in this strange place.
"I shouldn't feel this way..." Kikyou said tears filling her eyes, 'what is this feeling? It's so warm. In the pit of my stomach; I haven't felt this way in a long time....why now?' "WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY!?" she screamed at Hitokoe who looked at her with blank surprise, "what?" he said confused. Kikyou just wiped a tear away from her cheek and walked solemnly out of the room and into the bathroom that was next to her room, locking the door behind her.
(Kagome's V.P.)
It had been and month and still Kagome hadn't been able too reach her normal time, she stood at the bottom of the well, now part of her daily ritual, "I just don't understand..." she wasn't sad anymore just confused. "Hey Kagome! You gonna stay down there all day or what!?" She heard Inuyasha's voice say impatiently, "Just a moment!" she answered back to the hanyou.
Kagome thought she had seen something out of the corner of her eye on the ground, yes there was something! Kneeling down to get a closer look at what ever it was Kagome let out a gasp of surprise there laying on the old worn stones of the well's bottom was an arrow.
She did not recognize it as her own but it was similar to hers and the only other person who.....'No it can't be....' Kagome picked up the arrow and a white light left from it, a spirit, "It's.....its Kikyou's!" Kagome said out loud. "What?!" Inuyasha yelled down, Kagome looked at the arrow ignoring Inuyasha 'but why.....'
(Hitokoe's V.P)
Hitokoe stood there outside of the bathroom door, "Kikyou.....Is there something wrong? Did I say something to upset you?" he heard sobs through the door and Kikyou didn't answer. 'I hope I didn't hurt Kikyou's feelings some how....god girls are so weird.' He knocked one more time, "Kikyou...." "Just leave me alone!" Kikyou yelled from inside the bathroom.
Hitokoe thought about just leaving Kikyou in there for a while, even just putting a chair up to the door handle and leaving her in there; but figured when she go out, if she even tried to come out, she would have a chainsaw and a death list (he'd be the first to go). "Kikyou I'm not going. Just let me in." Hitokoe said in a firm voice, there was no answer and then he heard the door click. Hitokoe took a deep breath and then opened the door walking in to discover Kikyou sitting on the toilet with her knees pulled up to her chest sobbing into them.
'What am I getting myself into? I don't know anything about girls.....besides the fact that they're crazy, they like to shop and eat a lot of ice cream.' ( a bit of a bleak perspective don't ya think....) Hitokoe leaned against the sink counter and looked at Kikyou 'Why is she so sad?'. Kikyou Finally looked at him, and the look she gave him bothered Hitokoe to no extent, it was full of hate, despair, confusion, and something else that he couldn't place, Hitokoe tried not to shudder but did anyways, 'That look....'.
Hola Peoples, sorry for the super long wait, but you know me, a procrastinator to the end. Anyways I tried to give you an extra long Chappie to make up for it....but I'm not the sure if it's as long as it feels to me....I'm not use to this kinda extent of talent (I can only use mine when I'm guilted into it by angry reviewers after all...). Oh yeah notice the change in lyrics!? Woot woot!
Ok well hope you liked this Chappie, dun know when I'll write again, so just cross your fingers and hope my muse visits me often!
-Rag