A/N: Thank you Xina for that lovely review. It was really nice and had a lot of truth to it. Well, this song is from the Nightwish song "Feel For You." Once again, check out for the lyrics. This chapter isn't too much thinking, but it has dialogue for a change. I hope it turned out okay, and it is longer than the other chapters.

Disclaimer: When I become empress of the world my first priority will be getting the rights to every anime and song...

Chapter 4: Feel For You

"Mariku?"

I looked behind me and saw my hikari standing on the sand. He had downcast eyes and wore a thick jacket with a thin scarf around his throat.

Standing slowly from the ground I quirked my lips. Why is it that it is so hard to smile and not make it look like a smirk? It was hard enough with all the thoughts running about in my mind.

"What is it, hikari?"

My voice still did not sound kind.

The teenage boy still wasn't looking at me. Not even when he spoke.

Like I said, people fear the darkness and I am exactly that.

"It's winter. You shouldn't be outside without something warm on."

His voice was also unkind.

"Well, hikair, you shouldn't be out either."

Why can I never make my voice sound caring?!

"Come back to the house," was his short reply.

He may say that, but I knew if he had his way I wouldn't even have my own body or allowed at the house. The only reason he stays is because Isis is always telling her little brother to give me a second chance. Though I know she too holds me in contempt.

My hikari began to walk off. I took quick notice of his fast steps.

"Hikari, why do you leave me?"

"It's cold. I want warmth."

I thought for a second.

"Come here, hikari."

I could see his hesitation, but he slowly turned and walked back to me. He still kept a safe distance.

Despite that I reached my arms out to him and pulled him close to my body, my arms wrapping around his thin waist.

His muscles were getting tense and he squirmed, unsure of what I was doing.

I did not mind too much. I just enjoyed being this close to my hikari.

This is all I want. If I could, I would stay here holding him forever.

I want to tell him for all of eternity what I feel.

"My sweet hikari," I purred softly. "I want to tell you something very important."

"Let me go, Yami."

He seemed desperate to get out of my grasp.

Lowering my mouth to his ear I whispered something into his ear that I knew made his beautiful lavender eyes go wide.

"I love you."

For a few moments no words were spoken or any noises made. Just breathing and the gentle lull of the ocean's waves.

Placing my hands on his shoulders I placed him a little further away, just enough so I could see his face.

His eyes were very wide and his mouth was slightly ajar in surprise. He must not of known what to say.

I knew not how to react to this.

Was he angry? Was he sad? Was he confused?

Did he love me too?

Whatever he felt I did not know.

Bringing my stunned hikari closer to me again I lowered my face to his. I could feel his breath mix in with mine.

At long last I placed my lips on his.

Suddenly my hikari placed his hands on my chest and roughly shoved me way before I could properly kiss him. As I staggered back I saw his face full of anger.

"Hikari? What's wrong?"

"You do not love me!"

What?

What was he talking about?

"Of course I love you, hikari."

"No you don't! You are not capable of love!"

My pulse quickened. My eyes widened.

...Not capable of love?

What did that mean?

"After all that you've to everyone? After all you've done to me? Now you say you love me?"

"Hikari, I'm so-"

"NO! No you're not sorry!"

What was he talking about? Of course I was!

"And I do not love you!"

My heart nearly ceased to beat.

Does not love me...?

Why?

WHY DOESN'T HE LOVE ME?

"Yami, you told me once that you were the darkness. If that is true then you cannot love me."

"But, but hikari, darkness wants and needs love too."

Those lavender eyes narrowed at me. It made me flinch.

"No, Yami. Darkness doesn't need love. Darkness is cold. Darkness is pain, and pain is sorrow."

...Sorrow?

I am sorrow?

"Do you know what the darkness also is, Yami?"

Why was his voice so cold?

"Darkness is nothing. You are darkness. You are nothing.

"Nothing cannot love."