A/N: Oh, gosh, someone shoot me. I haven't updated in forever! The worst part being that I actually have the story completed!!!!!!!!! I suck...... On with the fic! The song is Solitude from Evanescence, more inspired from the title.
Chapter Seven: Solitude
My reflection is mocking me. Constantly mocking me.
It loves to remind me of the face that I ran away from. The one who I long for. The one who I still long for. The one I can never have in a million years.
As I stare into the reflection I wrap my arms around myself for warmth. I am truly alone. I have not yet returned to my hikari, but I am always worrying if he is all right. Through our link I can tell that he is alive, but I do not know if he is healed. I wish I could speak to him, but I am afraid to.
I don't even have to ask myself if he will accept me again. After what I've done to him, who would? I guess I've known that for a long time now.
But this isn't so bad. Being alone. I have no one to scorn me, no one to hurt me. I have no one. Just the shadows.
That and my reflection. This awful, twisted reflection.
Yes, solitude is horrible. Like I said, there is no one. No one to hold my hand or body, no one to dry my tears. No one to comfort me and help me forget my thoughts.
Wait.
There is one thing that will help me forget.
I shudder at the thought. It is a dreadful idea, but I must go through with it. In my plan, I will forget everything. Every pain, every sorrow, every dark thought. EVERYTHING. All that misery will be set aside for good. And it will be better than the whiskey.
But for now I wait. Wait here in the shadows of myself, rotting away in this fiendish solitude. With not a soul beside.
Just me and my shadow.