I'm awake. Damn. And I'm still in this room. Damn. And those assholes cleaned up the floor and walls. Damn! And—and what the hell is on my arms?
The patient glanced down and was surprised to discover that his arms were wrapped with white, medical gauze. Curiously, experimentally, he poked at the bandages.
Ouch. Heh. Guess I really did a number on myself back there if they still hurt this much. Jesus, I didn't mean to do anything that serious. Wait a second…
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Oh, shit. Goddamn it! I still didn't get any answers!
Well, you guys are real organized. I'll give you that. You obviously don't want me to know what's going on around here. Letting me knock myself out before you came to get me…that was a real stroke of genius, you know. After all, you wouldn't want me to see any of you again. Not after that first time anyways. Because I'll ask questions and you all know it. But you know what? None of that justifies you sons of bitches locking me in here completely alone with NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL ANY OF THIS IS ALL ABOUT!
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You…you want to know what it is about you guys that really pisses me off? I hope so, because I'm going to tell you straight out. You guys don't play fair. Seriously. You bring me here to this piece of shit room and you lock me in here and then you sit there watching me from somewhere where I won't be able to see you. Yes, I know you're watching me. Or maybe you're just listening. I don't know. I don't really give a shit. The point is, I know that you know what I'm doing and I can't do a damn thing about it. I can't know when you're listening and when you're not, so I can't really talk to you. I can't see you, so I don't know who the hell any of you are. And I sure as hell can't get close enough to any of you assholes to actually hurt you.
So there you go. You guys are a bunch of cowards who don't play fair. And you know what? That REALLY PISSES ME OFF!
The patient could restrain his rage no longer. With a vengeful growl, he drove his fist into one of the white walls. A dull "thud" echoed through the room and a staggering pain erupted across his knuckles and shrieked down his arm. He smiled, welcoming the pain as something that was real, something that he and only he had the power to control.
He laughed and rammed his fist against into the wall a second time, and then a third. His knuckles split and bled and left a series of red dots on the white wall.
The patient smiled, pleased with his handiwork and hit the wall once more, just for good measure. He stood back and eyed the blood-spattered wall, positively beaming.
This is one thing you bastards can't take away from me. This is the one thing that YOU DON'T HAVE ANY CONTROL OVER!
The patient gasped, horrified and clutched at his bleeding hand, realizing too late that now the Watchers would find a way to control it. Oh, they wouldn't necessarily need to find it right away. Why would they?All that mattered was thatsooner or later, even this last tiny thread of control that the patient held over his own life would be destroyed.
He felt as though he had lost a wonderful treasure. With a defeated sigh, he sank down to the ground, hugging his knees to his chest.
It's not fair….
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IT'S NOT FAIR! YOU BASTARDS! IT'S NOT FAIR; IT'S NOT FAIR; IT'S NOT FAIR! I…I…I hate…you…all….
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April 20th. Fourth test run complete. Very interesting indeed. Patient appears to have a deeply psychological need to feel "in control." Perhaps in part because patient was raised in a home without two parental figures present? This need to feel "in control" may explain motivation behind certain actions; however further study must be conducted in order to obtain conclusive proof. Currently administering controlled amounts of anesthetic drugs every three hours, to ensure that the patient remains asleep until next test run, scheduled to commence in one week.
Author's Notes: Well, there you have it. Another chapter, hot off the presses! If all goes as planned, there will be five more chapters to this story. In the meantime, feel free to leave me reviews / guesses / constructive crticism!
Thanks to Silently Broken, the nameless, shadowwaker, Karimaru, Hiro.P, and Angela for reviewing the last chapter!