Previously on In the Open…
"No, no .no don't you dare start that again mister you have responsibilities now you can't just leave me! Before I could overlook it, but now? You're going to be a father now Jesse! Whether you like it or not. You can't just pick up and leave once a week because you feel guilty. That's not how it works. I don't want this baby to grow up in a broken home. Either you're going to be this baby's father or I'll find someone else to do the job. It's your choice. But right now I'm going upstairs to lie down because I am tired up putting up with this. Come and get me when you've decided to grow up."
With that I ran up the stairs to our bedroom. How could he do this to me? He knew how I felt about this baby how could he think I regret it?
I love him and I thought he knew that. I sacrificed everything for him and now when we finally have a chance to be almost normal he acts like he doesn't want it.
I don't understand. It's not like he didn't want children. We used to dream about then a little girl and a little boy. A sweet little girl with an overprotective Jesse like brother to look after her.
But what if that's all he wanted? To dream about having a family? What if he never wanted it? What if he was just saying it to make me happy because he knew it would never happen?
Oh my God. Jesse doesn't want this baby. The father oh my child could care less that he's going to be one. A father that is.
No I'm not going to believe that. Why wouldn't Jesse want this baby? He would never lie to me. I'm sure of it. At least I think I'm sure.
But what if he is lying? What else has he lied about? Does he even love me? Or am I just a way to take care of his manly needs?
I mean he does disappear once a week. He could be off with some other shifter or mediator. Who knows what he does!
At least now I know why he doesn't want this baby. He doesn't want to be responsible. I mean cheating on your wife is one thing but cheating on your pregnant wife is another.
Okay I have got to stop thinking about this these hormones are making me think this. None of this can be true .he loves me .he loves our baby. He's just confused. He'll come around. In fact I think I'll go call him right now.
We can talk about this and fix whatever insecurities he has. I ran down to the kitchen where we were talking before. Sat down at the table and took a deep breath.
"JESSE!!"
Except he never came.