Chapter 3

To Watch

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Chapter 3 (Jin Pov)

To watch…

I watch her leave the school a smile on her face. She always gets me… I follow as she walks to her apartment. I yearn badly to talk to her, to hold her… Wait where did that come from I thought. Then I realized I should denying it, no matter how I wished it wasn't I was in love with Ling Xiaoyu. I should have known, visiting her in her apartment brought back feelings, that I wish weren't there but they were. I knew that it could never be, I couldn't put her in danger like this, not matter how selfish I was. It wouldn't be fair to her; she had her whole life before, to find real, normal love. To grow as a person and to enjoy life, and for that I could never be… I was a monster, a wretched creature and I needed to have my revenge. That was all I thought about, revenge. I had trained day and night for the tournament and I plan to find my revenge… But always in the back of my head my thoughts would go back to the pig-tailed girl with the kind heart and how she had mine…

I tried to deny it several times, I Kazama; Jin does not love Xiao-chan. Then I realize I use her pet name, and I think of her… while I wasn't training I had been following my Xiao-chan around. I had enlisted the aid of Miharu Hirano, Xiao-chan's best friend to protect her in my absence. I realized Xiao-chan would kill me, if she knew what I had done but I felt it necessary, Heihachi was a despicable man… He had shot me, his grandson, what would he have done to Xiao-chan… The thought frightened me as I followed Xiao-chan. As she steered from the path home she headed towards a small café. She headed inside and I watched from afar, as Xiao-chan sat down to a very familiar face. It was Julia Chang, she had come in town, most likely coming early to prepare for the next tournament. I had known Xiao-chan and Julia had become friends during the third tournament. As the two began to talk Jin sat discreetly on a bench making sure no one saw him. I knew it was wrong to watch her like this but he couldn't help it. The two in the café got comfortable and they began to order. Xiao-chan flashed a bright smile and I was anxiously watching the two.

The two ate a light meal as Xiao-chan talked merrily. I couldn't hear a word she was saying but I listening intently anyways. The meal was done and she gave Julia a hug as the two parted and Xiao-chan returned to her path home. I followed her home remembering it by heart. This wasn't the first time I've done it since I came back, I've been watching her for some time. I yearned to talk to her, to make things better between us .

Xiao-chan was in her apartment as I watched her. She lived on the second floor of the apartment complex, which was perfect. Her window was a perfect way to watch her. Xiao-chan over the 2 years had calmed in demeanor, no longer as bubbly as the girl of 2 years past she was mature and sophisticated while still keeping her magnetic charm. I would admit to myself, I as the male of the species, I was attractive to her physically as I was mentally. She was beautiful, her petite body, her beautiful eyes, her curves that I wish to explore… But that was wrong…. I knew, it was wrong to thing of Xiao-chan in such a way. I had to respect her, but my body had desired her, to hold her, and to take care of her. She began to change, I turned away but still watched with my other eye feeling extremely shameful. She had matured to a young woman, her body more defined, and that made her more appealing.

Now you question, are you mistaking love for lust? No, I'm sure of that. I think of her all the time, memories of her making me happy. I loved Xiao-chan, her mind, her heart, body and soul. I loved the way she smiled, the way her hairs smells like strawberries, everything… I watch just completely absorbed by her. The phone rings, Miharu Hirano right on time. Miharu was perfect for the job, she was dependable and called Xiao-chan every day at 5 to make sure she was safe, without ever exposing their secret. As Xiao-chan hangs up she turns to look for something she had lost in the room and for a second I think we make eye contact. I disappear immediately and run…

Xiao-chan had reacted and within an instant her window was open and she was yelling, Jin? Jin? Jin? Her face full of questions… After not receiving an answer she had bolted out the door chasing after me… I was long gone but close enough to watch her. She stopped when she left to find no one outside her apartment complex. She stood quietly for a few seconds and began to return to the warmth of her apartment complex… Then I realized this was unfair… If I were to tell her that nothing could ever happen,I needed to tell her, not let he be stuck in this utter state of confusion.

Xiao-chan opened the door in shock to find me there. She closed and locked the door behind as she looked at me. The quietness filled the room as none of us moved from out place. I broke the silence and with my head now said, "It hurts… You know…"

In understanding tone she replied back, "I know…" I don't remember what had happened that night. Arguing as I suspected to happen but in a great moment of vulnerability, Xiao-chan ask me to spend the night.

I woke up with my arm wrapped around Xiao-chan, her hair messed up and still sleeping in the clothes from yesterday. I left the room quietly, knowing I had somewhere to be. I looked back at the sleeping beauty on the bed. It was a simple night, she asked me to hold her and how could I say no? We talked… and she fell asleep in my arms… That night I had the best sleep in awhile… I knew tomorrow Xiao-chan and I would have to speak of everything and what to sort out. But for I now I enjoyed the moment and the smell of strawberry she left ingrained in my memory.