Although Tohru's cancer was treated at an early stage….well..it, it, spread. The cancer spread and there was nothing that I could do about it. I just hated this-this-this thing!!!!!! I just hated this so much. I hated knowing that my new friend was dying and I was always at her bed side watching her slowly and yet surely almost letting go her tight grasp on life. I would bring her little presents, like flowers, books, and cute little teddy bears and even though she was weak, she would always turn her head to smile at me. It was a smile that seemed to say "Don't worry about me; I'll be fine. Things will only get better." On the outside, Tohru seemed absolutely fearless, but the look in her eyes didn't lie. She really was scared…she didn't know what was going to happen.
See, the doctor had suggested putting Tohru on a breathing tube to the nuns, but the cost of the tube was just too expensive and on top of that she would have to be placed in a specially prepared room to get the right body temperature. I was really shocked at the fact that the nuns couldn't provide all of this for her…that they are just going to let her die.
Tohru really loved the visits that my friends and I gave to her. She looked really happy. We would all sit near Tohru's bed and just talk to her, tell her some great stories of our adventures. Tohru really like the story about how we were all on a game show and the whole entire continual existence of Earth was left in our hands.
Carl had been very quiet through our visits with Tohru; I suppose that he was quite sad because of all this. I mean, I can't blame him for being sad. There would be times when he couldn't take it anymore and just burst out of the room crying his eyes out.
I ran out of the room to follow him
"What's the matter, Carl? Tell me what's wrong." I told him.
"Jimmy, I'm scared..I'm scared for Tohru." Carl sobbed.
"Scared?…..But why?" I asked him. "Tohru is a tough girl…She can take care of herself. You'll see everything will be a-okay!"
"I guess you're right, Jimmy. You're always right…well 99.9 of the time…" sighed Carl.
"That's the spirit!" I said as I gave Carl a pat on the back. But really, to tell you the truth, I wasn't so sure about what I said. I was very uncomfortable because I knew, in my heart, that I had lied to Carl. I wasn't sure if everything would get better, in fact, I wasn't sure of anything at all.
Sheen and Libby….well, Sheen put a stop to his insane wackiness for a while. Libby was always by Tohru and Cindy. The two of them didn't look emotionally effected….but I have seen Sheen and Libby crying together in a secluded area during school. They sat close together as they patted each other on the back. I've never seen Sheen cry before and if he ever did it was probably over Ultralord.
As for Cindy…….. One day we both decided to go visit Tohru together after school. By now, Tohru's cancer had perhaps spread throughout her body tissue and we both knew that she didn't have much time left.
When we got there, Tohru was sleeping…..She slept throughout our whole visit. But we still talked to her; I guess we thought that she could probably hear us. We told her about what had happened at school and what was going on among our friends.
"I really hope that you get better soon, Tohru." Cindy softly said.
"Yeah…." I joined.
"We had so much fun on our last trip didn't we?" Cindy asked me.
"Oh boy we sure did!" I perked up.
"Remember when we went to the Candy Bar? That sundae tasted so good when we ate it with you!" Cindy giggled. "I think the look on your face when you first laid eyes of Retroland was adorable."
"Tohru, we had so much fun. I really liked it when we went on the Bat Outta Heck together! That was awesome; your were screaming your heart out." I laughed.
"Don't worry, Tohru, once you get better we'll take you again to Retroland. This time we will have more fun than the last trip. Next time, we'll all go on ever single darn ride twice!" Cindy said with a hopeful smile on her face.
For a moment…I forgot where I was…….I was lost in my own thoughts. I knew that there wasn't going to be a "next time." I knew that I would never see Tohru's smiling face ever again. I knew that she was….was going to die. The look on Cindy's face just totally gave it away…..
"We'd better go now." I told Cindy.
"I guess you're right, Jimmy,-wait….you go on ahead….."Cindy replied. "There's something that I really need to take care of that can't wait."
I didn't want to mess with Cindy, so I just followed her command by leaving the room. As I walked out I was pretty thankful that my grandmother was safe and that she has already checked out of the hospital. Who knows what she's doing right now……probably something crazy, like entering a car race.
But then it hit me. I thought that Cindy was going to cover Tohru with her blanket, but Cindy did something else too. I decided to remain quietly by the doorway to see what Cindy was up to. With my back against the wall, I peered into the doorway. Cindy was right by Tohru's ear.
I think that Cindy was whispering something to Tohru….I know that it is really impolite to eavesdrop, but I just couldn't help myself….
I picked up some words that were like: "I don't know how to say it……..you've taught me to always think of others instead of myself……You are the person……I trust….my secret……he's everything that I want….love him…..hard to show feelings……..affection."
I couldn't hear the rest of what she was saying nor could I hear the end. I didn't want her to know that I was listening, so I made a mad dash towards the elevator.
As I walked into the elevator, I was wondering who was Cindy talking about and what did she mean by "hard to show feelings"? I was totally confused, but at the same time I was really curious. Little did I know, that my confusion would soon end.