I woke up to see that Ivy and my mother were making a pact against Theresa. I put my hand on top of theirs. I wanted to ensure that Theresa stayed away from my husband, my baby, and me. There was no way she was going to take my baby girl when she had just killed my precious Sara and my little boy. It's all her fault that I don't have all three of my children. Two of my babies have died because of her. My precious baby boy. You were going to be Ethan's first son. He was going to be so proud of me. I was going to give him a son to carry on his name. My little Nathan! I'll always mourn your death and remember how Theresa had you killed. My precious Sara! I know you are in Heaven watching down on your father and I. I know that you can see the love we have for both of you. Please take care of your brother up there. Don't worry my darlings. I won't let Theresa destroy my time with your other sister Ashley. I'm so sorry that you had to be killed for Theresa's wrongdoings. She will pay. She will burn in hell for killing you.
Yes! My baby girl has finally seen the light. I know I've always had to push her into wanting to help me but at least this time it's different. Gwen has always been the one that wants to make her enemies pay but is too afraid to do so. That's why I've always had to push her. Except this time, she has joined our little pact all on her own. Now nothing will stop Ivy, Gwen and me from destroying that little twit once and for all. Theresa has messed with Gwen for the last time. She took Sara, her son, and now she's trying to steal her daughter . There is no way in hell I will allow that piece of trash to raise my granddaughter. No, this time Theresa has definitely gone too far.
I can't believe that my son actually fell for Theresa. Who could love someone that has constantly tried to take your family away from you? She's killed his children and yet he still wants her. He still thinks about her and yes, he still loves her. This isn't fair to Gwen. She wasn't the one that got pregnant by Julian Crane. She didn't destroy his chance to become ruler of the Crane throne. Gwen's not like that. She is a good, pure, honest woman. She wouldn't hurt anyone the way Theresa has constantly hurt Ethan. If you ask me, that isn't true love. Theresa isn't in love with my son. She's just obsessed with him. Why can't he just love Gwen and only Gwen?
You know as mad as Theresa has made me in the past, I still love her. I love Gwen as well but it's just not the same kind of love. I remember when I first met Theresa. I thought she was the one that was stalking me but it turned out to be in my head. To me, Gwen is more of a friend. I care about her deeply. I want her to be happy and I want her to have a good life. She deserves that. She doesn't deserve to be treated so wrongly by me or Theresa. I wish Gwen had moved on. I wish she had found someone when I had dumped her the first time. Instead, I used her as a scapegoat. She was just a way to forget about Theresa. She was like a safety net for me. You know, someone that would always be there for me. She wasn't someone I was madly in love with. I loved her just not in the way that she wanted me to. I know that Theresa is the love of my love but Gwen is the one that I married. I know it's wrong to stay with someone out of guilt but the truth is I can't leave her side. Theresa and I might have a daughter together but that's all we'll ever share. Gwen is the one I want to be with because I owe it to her. I also owe her that little girl in there. I don't care if it is Theresa's baby with me. Theresa already has a son. She can take care of him. As soon as I give this baby to Gwen, Theresa will have little Ethan back. Then we'll all finally get what we want.
I hate Gwen but I know how she feels. I know how she feels because she took my son from me. You know when we came back from LA, all I wanted to do was be with my son and get on with my life. I was dating Fox and things were going great. Gwen couldn't take it so she took him from me. She forced him to call her mommy. She laughed in my face about it. She thought she was so smug, so much better than me. Look at what she's done. Is she any better off than she was before? She has lost not only a daughter but a son as well. Her son could have lived if she had just left me alone. I know that this little girl is my baby. I can feel it in my heart. All I want is my daughter and my son. I want Ethan to finally see that I am his family. Not Gwen. Gwen had to have it her way and look at how it turned out.
I got out of that hospital bed as quickly as I could. I need to be with my baby girl. When I got to NICU, I saw Ethan and his father standing there. I asked him if he finally got the court order against that bitch. He said no. I almost freaked out. What could possibly keep him from going to the courthouse. He should be worried about me and the baby. Not Theresa. There she is with my Ashley. She's in there stroking her head and talking to her softly. I should be doing that. I should be in there stroking her head and singing to her. She's my baby not Theresa's. She came from my egg. Just because Theresa carried her for a few months doesn't give her a right to my baby.