Kaoru sat still not wanting to move. She wanted to cry and rejoice at the same time. Kenshin walked out of her house and back to his home. Kaoru sat there for a long time pondering on what had happen and what should happen.
'I know Kenshin is right, Kenshin knows kenshin is right, hell even Misao knows kenshin is right.' Kaoru thought her head resting on the rail. She was happy he was gone, because she no longer had to fight with him. But she had wanted him to stay.
She wanted all this fighting to be gone. She didn't want every one to hate her because they thought she was just an attention seeker. Every one knows them, but Kaoru never thought she was one.
"The first step in recovery is admitting the problem." Kaoru said to herself.
"I have a problem...I don't trust people and seek the attention I get from acting like a bad ass." Kaoru said to herself quietly.
"I don't trust people and seek the attention I get from acting like a bad ass." Kaoru said a little louder. She continued to repeat that sentence until she was practically screaming into the vast farmland surrounding her house.
She could hear her voice echo and she smiled. "Wow." She said awestricken. "That really did feel good." She said in amazement. She stood up and walked back into her house closing the door shut behind her. The smile that tugged at her lips remained as she walked down the hallway and stairs and towards the front door.
She grabbed a coat and her keys then glanced at the clock. Her smile dropped to a frown and she dropped her coat throwing her keys on the table. She picked up the digital clock and threw it to the ground.
It read 4:00 AM. "Its too late to go now. I'll just have to do it at school. He better be there!" Kaoru said to herself running up to her room and laying her head on the pillow. Once her head made contact with the soft squishy pillow she was asleep.
"BEEP, BEEP, BEEP!" Kaorus alarm sang just a few hours later. She put her pillow over her head and clicked the snooze button. A few seconds later she looked at the clock and realized that was the fifth time she had done that.
The clock read 7:45. She jumped out of her bead wrestled into jeans and a black tank top. She brushed her hair and teeth and flew out the door grabbing her keys. She jumped in her car and sped down the road. She slowed to almost a stop when she saw a co-p car. She smiled and winked at him She flew to her school and ran inside her backpack full of books.
She threw her locker open shoved her backpack in it and turned quickly searching the halls for her favorite mop top. She saw a head of red hair and ran towards it. Just as she held her hands out and pushed threw the crowed she saw that it wasn't Kenshin.
Her smile pulled down to a frown and she walked away. She searched the halls for him once again but to no avail. The bell had rung and she was alone in the halls. She walked to the principal's office and was disappointed to see it was not Kenshins period to sit bored in the office. She walked strait to the principal and opened his door harshly.
"Kaoru?" The principal asked confused to why she was here on her will.
"Were is Kenshin Himura?" Kaoru asked quickly and to the point.
"Why do you need to know?" He asked.
"I need to tell him something very important." Kaoru said urgently.
"What do you need to tell him?" The principal asked slowly beating around the bush.
"If you can't tell me just say that. You're wasting my time." Kaoru said looking at the clock and finding that wandering through the halls ate half the period.
"Then im sorry but im wasting your time." The principal said watching her rush out of the room. She ran to the parking lot and drove to a nearby café. She quickly ordered some coffee and tried not to snap at the other costumers.
"What's wrong honey?" The woman behind the counter asked giving her coffee to go. The woman was large in size with small kind eyes. She had a broken heart tattooed on her forearm and thick red lipstick plastered on her lips. Gaudy blue eye shadow contrasting against her pink outfit spread across her eyelids.
"I stayed up all night figuring out the I love this man, but I need to waist half an hour before I can try to see him again." She said slowly sipping her coffee.
"That's deep. At least you know you love him." The woman said hurt in her eyes. "How old are ya child?" She asked.
"18." Kaoru said not looking at the woman.
"You look like you've lived a lot of life in a few years." She said calmly. Kaoru just nodded drinking her coffee and slamming the large cup down for some more. The woman refilled it and Kaoru drank till she couldn't any more. Soon she stood up left the money on the counter nodded to the woman and walked out of the store.
She ran to her car and drove to the school searching the outside word for her red head. She ran inside happy she caught the passing period and looked high and low for him. Finally she heard his voice. Her ears perked up listening intently for it. She heard it again. It was him, it was Kenshin!
She turned around quickly and saw him a few feet away talking to another girl and laughing. She was angry but who could blame him. She walked closer suddenly a rush of butterflies the size of mini-vans flooded into her belly threatening to make her sick.
He tried to calm herself but the more she thought about him the more butterflies flew into her tummy. She shook her head ridding of bad thoughts and took another step towards the couple. As she got closer kenshin got closer to the girl. Suddenly as Kaoru opened her mouth Kenshin leaned in a kissed the girl on the lips quickly then looked around for teachers.
Kaorus world crashed beneath her and all she knew was to run. She just ran. Her breath labored her forehead wet and her legs stinging she had reached her car parked far from the door. She jumped in pulled out her keys and tears threatened to fall. Kenshin kissing her kept replaying in her head over and over but she didn't want to cry anymore. She didn't want to cry for him.
She drove her foot slammed on the gas unrelenting. She sped through a clearing at a red light and all the way home. She drove like a maniac swerving back and fourth as the tears fell from her reddening face.
She jumped from the car not bothering with the door and unlocked the door. After what seemed like eternity she got in her house and left a trail of tearstains on the carpet up to her room were her pillow was thoroughly soaked within minutes.
She cried until her tear ducts were dry as a bone and then some. She just couldn't cry any more. Either there was no more extra water for her to cry out or her eyes just wouldn't do it. She ran down stairs and drank a few glasses of water savagely. After practically inhaling her water she sat at the table moping about.
She couldn't cry, she couldn't trust, and everything Kenshin had told her was bullshit. "You can trust me Kaoru he says, why can't you trust me he says. I'll tell ya why buster! I put my trust in the wrong people and they turn around and beat me! Though I have no bruises you beat me Kenshin!" Kaoru screamed angrily.
She bitterly glared at an imaginary Kenshin and stood up walking into the dojo in her back yard. She slipped on a training gi and pulled down a light wooden bokken from the wall.
She slammed it down on the ground and cringed when she heard a small crack. She swung the wooden stick in the air as hard as she could. She spun around attacking the air ferociously. It was getting late, Kaoru noticed it was dark outside already.
"What did the atmosphere do to you?" Came a voice from the doorway. Kaorus shoulders rose and fell steadily as she was breathing hard. The sweat on her forehead, upper lip, and neck began to slip from her skin and slid down her face. She dropped her bokken and smiled her eyes sparkling. She ran towards him the air-cooling her down. Her hair, which had been stuck to her face, flew back as she ran towards the man in the doorway.
"DAD!" Kaoru yelled excited that her father had come home from business. Her father was a tall man with dark hair and blindingly green eyes. He always seemed to have a 5 'o' clock shadow and was wearing a button down complex shirt. Khaki pants and dark shoes donned his legs and feet. His arms were spread wide as he embraced his daughter.
He picked her up slightly and spun in a circle. She laughed lightly, music to his ears. "I missed you my darling." He said to her gently releasing her. She jumped up.
"I missed you to dad. How was the job?" She asked forgetting about kenshin.
"I'll tell you about that as soon as you tell me what has been happening and why you look like you were crying." Her dad said.
"I was just training for a while." Kaoru said.
"And crying." He said laughing.
"How do parents always know?" kaoru mumbled out as her father began to walk back into the house.
"It's a sixth sense. Get washed up and come tell Me." her father said as kaoru set the bokken on the wall and took off her gi running to the bathroom. She washed up quickly then dressed. She ran into the kitchen and saw her father sitting peacefully at the counter sipping coffee.
Kaoru was excited to tell her father everything that happened because one of two things could happen. 1) Her father could give her good advice and a way to help her get over Kenshin, or 2) he could kick Kenshin's ass and Kaoru wouldn't have to worry about him.
"So tell me about this boy." her father said slowly.
"How do you know?" Kaoru asked her voice high and squeaky. Some times her father could be very scary.
"I just do. So what did he do to make you so angry?" her father asked curiously.
"Well, first it was like every other boy, he tried to kiss me. Then he followed me home, and listened to my conversation hiding in my closet. I basically said I hated him but realized... I was lying. I didn't know he was in the closet and begged for forgiveness when he asked me if I hated him.
"He asked me if I could trust him and we got in a big argument were he told me im just a attention seeking snob. I ran to the balcony crying and realized, at 4:00 AM that...that I... love him. This morning I went to school and searched for him. But when I found him, he was kissing another girl. After he had told me a dozen times that I could trust him." Kaoru said slowly.
A flare of anger and sadness filled her eyes. Her father nodded occasionally waiting for her to finish her story before speaking. "Well." He said shocked. "You've certainly been busy." Kaoru giggled, excited that her father had come home.
"But you don't seem as upset as you were. What changed your mind?" He asked.
"You don't understand. Im still upset. In fact just talking about it makes me want to go over there and give him a piece of my mind!" Kaoru shouted. Her dad eyed her suspiciously then smiled staring at her and waiting for her to calm don't a bit.
"Why don't you?" He asked after a pause. Kaoru was enraged and was breathing hard when he said that. She just looked at him her rage dissipating and her mind reeling. Confusion washed over her face like high tide and she stared at him her mouth agape.
"Because... because. I don't know, I never thought about that." Kaoru said baffled. Her father smiled.
"Some times you need to stop thinking your way and try thinking his way." Her father said, the voice of experience. Kaoru looked thoughtful then jumped up and pushed in her chair. She ran to her father kissed him and hugged him tightly then ran form the house grabbing a coat and shouting good-bye quickly.
She threw on the coat after she felt a ripple of shivers roll up her arms when the chilled night air splashed against her soft skin. Moonlight spilled onto her pale complexion making her face look ghostly.
She hoped in her car not bothering to open the door and buckled up. She pulled out of her driveway thinking about what her father said.
'Try thinking like him. Try thinking like him. Try thinking like him...what's that supposed to mean? I guess it means I need to try thinking how Kenshin thinks. Then I can get inside his head and clear mine.' She thought.
'Well I need to get to get angry. I cant just waltz into Kenshin's house happy and jumpy because my dad is home.' She thought her eyebrows dipping down and a frown pulling at the corners of her mouth.
She pictured Kenshin kissing that other girl and the spark of anger that had died down exploded into a raging fire. She began to feel the angry frenzy buzzing in her blood stream. Hate was pumping in her blood imbedding itself into her system.
She gripped the steering wheel tightly her knuckles turning white. Her eyes flared red and she tried to calm herself down again. "Man. When I get mad, I get MAD!" Kaoru said watching the speedometer fall back to its rightful place. She quickly searched her mirrors and looked around making sure the feds didn't see her hundred-mile fiasco.
She found herself getting bored with the drive there and she turned on the music on a rock station. She bobbed her head up and down feeling her foot press a little harder on the gas petal. She wanted to see his shocked face when she told him she saw his cheating ass.
Even though technically they aren't going out, but it was still cheating. You don't go trying to kiss someone and make her trust you then turn around and kiss some hoochie. Kaoru took a deep breath thinking of what to say when he opens the door and says hello with that small welcoming smile.
She found herself thinking about him then replayed what she had seen that morning. She thought about the whole day, why she was so tired, it was because of that jerk.
Everything was Kenshins fault. She was doing fine when she met him, she had just finished a masterpiece, and wasn't having any guy trouble. Her friends were happy and Misao was getting further with Aoshi, she was actually talking to him.
Then she had to scrub the wall of with him. His charisma was probably what drew her to him then she had to invite him in her ditching and everything took a turn for the worse.
Kaoru looked in the mirror and found her red puffy face had deflated and returned to its normal state. Except for fatigue dripping down her face she looked standard. She smiled thankful that the tear stains and red bloating had left her face. She didn't want Kenshin to know she had been crying over him. She made a sharp right turn and pulled up to his house. She sat in her car staring at the towering mansion standing tall above her head. She sat still in her car for a good five minutes hoping everything would just go away.
It didn't.
Kaoru stood up and walked up the large steps and towards the door. She walked timidly up to it and forced herself to look at his image kissing the strange girls one more time to build up confidence. She ached and for the first time in her ride here she just wanted to go home and curl up in her bed listening to her dads trip.
She brought her hand up to the door clenched in a fist and rapped on the door hearing a dull thud. She wasn't sure if he could even hear it. When a few minutes went by and no one came to the door she pushed the doorbell and listened to the sweet tune drift through the air.
The large door swung open and a fiery welcoming smile met her uneasy one. Blue eyes met purple and Kaoru snapped out of her nervousness at the sight of him. Just by looking at the betraying man Kaoru's rage grew to new heights. Her fists unnoticeably balled into fists and her eyes flashed a dangerous light blue.
Her kind deep ocean blue eyes grew slightly lighter glaring at his kind purple eyes. He realized who was standing infront of him and his slackened posture straitened. He looked into her eyes, melting inside from the intense hate vibe he was receiving.
"Kaoru, how are you would you like to come in?" Kenshin asked holding a hand out to his house. Kaoru smiled disappointed at him shaking her head.
"You don't know why im here do you?" Kaoru asked keeping her shaking voice rough and stern.
"Because you realized you love me and cant live with out me." Kenshin said smiling and laughing lightly. Kaoru glared seriously.
'He's making a joke at a time like this!' she thought.