Pain... Hate...Anger... Sadness... Helplessness... Fear...Regret...Love....

Jamie couldn't describe the feelings' that she had for Landon. She knew that she still loved him; as much as she tried to disbelieve that, she knew she couldn't change the fact. Yet, Jamie now had a new feeling directed towards Landon; something she's never felt for anyone before- Curiosity. Yes, Jamie Sullivan was curious. Although Sally had answered all Jamie's questions, Jamie still wondered about him. She wondered about Landon's life, wondered about his feelings, his likes... dislikes. He was this totally new person to her. He no longer was 'Landon Carter', but an image of one of her worst nightmares. Drugs, Sluts, Alcohol... the life of a badass teenager.

Jamie knew something was wrong, she knew what she saw the other night was a fake. Jamie had seen Landon's good side, his gentle and caring side. But one thing she knew above all, she knew that the man she saw the other night was not the man she fell in love with.

(Jamie's POV)

It had been a few days since I last saw Landon at the football game. I moved on with my life since then and he never once entered my mind. He was my past and Beaufort was my future. Although, I now regretted staying in Beaufort because I knew Landon lived here, I knew this was my home, the place I would spend my last year of high school and the town where I would make my dreams become a reality.

I was so grateful to find a friend like Sally. She's been my savior to say the least. Even when I was at my darkest days, she never gave up on me. Since the football game we became even closer than friends- now were like sisters. We share all our thoughts and tell each other our most embarrassing secrets. We lean on each other when we need a hand and she's always there for me.

Unfortunately, it was Monday, the start of another new and long week. I woke up late again, but I knew Sally would wait for me. We walk to school together everyday since we live so close to each other. It was the third school day in a row that I woke up late, and it was becoming a habit that I would pick up Sally at her house and we would drive to school, just so we would make it to our homeroom just as the late bell would sound. Today it would be another day like that. I did my usual late routine - wake-up, brush my teeth, skip breakfast, quickly shower, dry my hair, get dressed, do some finishing touches to my image, then scoot out the door and leave for Sally's. My father's been away for 3 days now; he had a retreat that he had to go on with the church so he should be back in about 6 days.

After picking up Sally, we quickly made our way for school. I parked in the closest parking spot I could find and we ran into the school in a mad dash. We didn't have any time to stop at our lockers, so we just ran to our 1st period, English.

We were the last one's thought the door like usual, so we casually made our way to our seats which were next to each other and unpacked our notebooks. I quickly scammed the class to become aware of my surroundings and there he was. Landon Carter was sitting in the third row, two seats down from mine. I panicked.... like never before. What was he doing here and on time, something I would have never expected from a person like him. I called to Sally, she turned to me with a shocked expression on her face; obviously she had seen him too. ' It must be a dream', I thought. ' How can this be real??'

"Class..." My teacher called out. She was plump and round and was often made fun of.... Her name didn't help her either- Mrs. Flabby. "I want to introduce a new student that just transferred to this class... Landon" She called to him to state an introduction.

Landon rose from his seat and walked to the front of the room. All eyes were glued on him and you could tell he felt uncomfortable.

"Alright, everyone here knows me, so can we please carry on with class..." Landon said with cockiness. 'Yep, there's the guy I saw at the football game' I said to myself. Landon obviously was not going to let his reputation as the high school rebel, fail. But one thing surprised me. During his little, 'introduction to the class' he looked at me. His eyes' pierced mine and I felt the same love that I had for him before the football game. Landon acknowledged me, something I thought and hoped would never happen again.

I bowed my head down. I was confused and awe-struck by everything that happened in 10 minutes. I began having flashbacks of the day we first met, our first kiss... Our happy memories that I promised myself to forget.

Mrs. Flabby's voice erupted my thoughts yet again. This time she was partnering people up for projects.

"Cole and Kara... Sally and John (at least Sally would be happy, she had a major crush on John)... Mick and Jeanie..." The people left for pairing-up became smaller and smaller, and my name had not yet been called.

' Please God, not Landon!! Anyone but Landon...' I silently thought

Mrs. Flabby continued, "Erik and Taryn... well, it looks like the only two people that are left are Jamie and Landon. Please pair up with your partner now, so you can discuss your projects.

' Oh no, Oh gosh no... this can't be happening.' I turned to look at Landon who was already making his way over to my desk.

I felt sick. My head was spinning and my heart was throbbing.

' Oh God, tell me what to do... do I pretend to have to go to the nurse, do I talk to him and act like nothing happened...'

"Uh.... Hey Jamie... I guess were partners huh?" Landon asked, already knowing the answer, just trying to strike conversation.

' How could he be so naïve. He thinks that just because were partners that I'm supposed to talk to him. How dare he!!'

Landon's voice awoke me again, "Jamie?"

"How dare you... How dare you give me the best summer of my life and then throw it away. Landon, if you didn't know already, I saw you at the last football game, underneath the bleachers ( I added that, just to show how angry I was)... I gave my heart to you, thinking you were someone I could trust and, and, and..." I began to stutter. This was all to over- whelming for me. I suddenly began to feel sick again. I took all my stuff together in one hand, scooped it up, and ran out of the room. The students were so noisy that the teacher didn't even notice that I left the room.

"Jamie, please wait" I heard Landon yell.

' Oh please tell me he is not going run after me'

I ran though the hallways, not knowing where to run. I wanted to go to the nurse because I did feel sick, but then again, I knew Landon would always be there when I returned. I took a sharp turn and ran out though the door, to the outside.

Yes, I was skipping school. I knew it was wrong and that I couldn't run from my problems, but at this point I didn't care. With my backpack over my shoulder and several books tucked under my arm, I ran straight for my car. I rummaged through my bag for my keys, put them in the car door and was just about to plop my books down on the car seat, when a sturdy hand closed my car door shut. I looked over my shoulder and there standing tall and out of breath was Landon.

A/N!! this is just a shout out to all my BBFL!! Isa, Vicki and Kelley!! Love ya Chickies!!