Im lying to you lying to me and were both blind because we cant see.Sputtering word of love to make the other happy.
So you see we both think the other loves us when in truth we're not in love.
But we are to blind to notice. I cant see the casual slips you pass to HIM. I'm almost certain we both know.
For sometime we will laugh and embrace kiss and make love both thinking its what the other one wants. We dont know that what the other one wants is just out of our grasp because we love each other too much to hurt the other.
There had always been a connection between us maybe it was the love we continue to lie about, but if it was it has faded by now. The years have weathered it making it a sharp rivalry of heart ache leaving us both in a disparing hole .
We think we see ourselves in each others eyes but in truth the both belong to two blondes and imortal prince and a silent shieldmadien.
Both share our love this we both know, but we know the other too much to not stay. So we condem ourselvs to a loveless mariage that niether of us wanted.
In so many ways you and I are alike. You and I both seem to have a strength to us as peple always comment. We both have a certain beuty about us. You with your rugged handsome-ness. Me i have my gentle elvish qualities.
You obviously have a thing for elves Me than him but then again I must have a thing for humans You than her so I have no place to talk.
How can I be blind how can I not see you love him.
How can you not see i love her.
Why are we blind. How come when you walk up to me and I say "I love you." I dont notice when you say"I love you too." your looking past me and at the golden prince just like I was looking past you away from your deep eyes into softer toned green ones.
Your eyes when I first saw them I thought. I could fall in love with man. And I did but I also fell out. Your beautiful grey eyes that remind me off what ive lost the gray hevans. My people. My father.
I know what anyone would think how stupid i must be. To stay when I dont even love you. I didnt stay for my child or because Middle Earth.
I stayed because I love you not like a brother of a friend like a lover.
And yet I dont love you like a lover.
Confusing?
I know I'm having the same problem right now as I lay with my blonde and I know you are with yours.
If I'm not in love with you but with my blond.
Why do I still feel guily?