Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters. They all belong to Degrassi: The Next Generation, except for maybe the rapist. I don't know where he's coming from yet.

Chapter 1: What They Don't See.

She didn't want to be in her own skin. It felt foreign to her like she didn't belong to it. Sometimes in class she would scratch at it until she finally drew blood. Other times she would try to see if she could make it disappear with a pep-to pink eraser.

It has been this way for only a week, and no one has noticed. Not even her mother, who has the lovely duty of having to wash the red lively fluid that stained her shirt everyday. People would still just look at her and automatically think Miss. Crusader, because apparently she wasn't aloud to have feelings.

The only person she didn't expect to care was Snake, because Degrassi was updating its computer system. He had to get new screen names and passwords from everybody, and then put it all into the new system. So she understood that the only thing she could expect from him was to be ignored even if he was her stepfather.

Everyday she'd go to her new D-Mail.

FreakofNature: 0 friends, 0 new messages.

The only messages she ever would get were announcements from Liberty or Mr. Raditch.

As much as she hated being in school she didn't want the bell to ring. The warmth of home has disappeared with yet another lingering of cancer. Even worse was the free-and-confidential Plan Parenthood Clinic that was her first stop today..

When the bell finally did ring at the end of the day she didn't want to move. Her eyes were glued to the media immersion window watching the halls fill with unthreatened bodies, and then empty to a hall with nothing but flying paper.

"Hey, Space Girl." Sean Cameron said waving his hand in front of her face. He had gotten another detention from mouthing off to the sub. "You know, when the bell rings, you're supposed to leave."

All she could do was look at him, and examine his strong arms. She used to love being consumed by them, but now they kind of scared her. "It wasn't him." She could tell herself. "He didn't hurt me." Still no matter how much she tired all men were condemned to her.

Her legs shacked like the rest of her, and she quickly raced her way out of the room.

She sat in the front of the car looking out the window. Her boyfriend's hand rested on her thigh, and the other one was steering the wheel. "Why are we going to Plan Parenthood again?" He asked. She laughed to herself a little. She secretly loved his naïve male persona.

"Free condoms, Jay. And free pregnancy tests."

"Why do you need pregnancy tests if we're getting condoms?" The fact that she could feel the fear build up in him was yet another amusing trait of his. She blew off his question so that common since might one day be apart of his mind.

They scrambled out of the car straight into the building so that no one would catch sight of them. Alex marveled at the amount of paperwork an "anonymous" person had to fill out just to get freebees.

"Hey, look." Jay said interrupting her just to point out a blonde.

"Hey. I'm you're girlfriend, remember. If not we're wasting a lot of time." She looked at him in the most serious and blank way possible.

"No. It's Nature Girl." He pointed again to Emma Nelson speaking to a doctor. Tears were flooding down her face as she looked at the transparent picture they had just taken from her stomach.

"Why is Goody Good here?" Jay asked no able to take his eyes of his best friend's ex-mess.

"Why else would a young not-so-innocent girl come to Plan Parenthood?" The second the words came out of her mouth she knew he wouldn't comprehend. "She's not here for the free condoms."

"You're still in your first trimester. Your options are still open." The doctor tried to comfort her, but Emma shook her head in his failure.

"No. I can't." Despite everything her beliefs were still pro-life in every aspect of her own. An abortion would kill her no matter who the father was. "I want to keep my baby."

They had heard it right. Alex was taken over with shock from the latest revelation that she didn't even notice the boxes the women behind the counter was trying to give her. She started to get annoyed when she heard Jay start to laugh. "Cause Girl got knocked up." His girlfriend hit him at the end of his sentence.

Emma stood there with her mind moving in different directions. Finally when she was able to tear her eyes off of them she turned to the woman at the counter, and gave her a small slip of paper. "We have this same time open next month." Emma nodded, and then headed for the door

"Dude, you'll never guess who we saw at Plan Parenthood." Jay came ramming through the door to Sean's house.

"Why were you at Plan Parenthood?" Sean sat on his coach watching tv.

"Emma Nelson." He yelled with a wide smile. Sean looked up at him, and then to Alex who didn't look so happy. "She got knocked up." Alex rolled her eyes, and went to answer the door someone was pounding on.

No one ever expected to see the same blonde girl in Sean's house as the one at Plan Parenting. "Hi." She said holding a oversized jacket around her. By the way she was shaking they wouldn't have been able to tell if she was nervous or just really cold. After a moment of seeing nothing but their stares she finally opened her mouth. "Please don't tell." As plain and simple as it was it couldn't have made them any more confused.

"Why? You've told your mom right?" Sean said thinking about how Emma is just reliving her mother's life. What was worse is that she knew that was what he was thinking, even though it couldn't be farther from the case.

"No, and I'm not going to." Her words were firm, and all to sure of themselves.

"You can't hide that forever, Emma." Alex was the next to speak up, because Sean was too busy going over all the times he had witness Emma and Spike's Mother/Daughter relationship. It didn't add up.

"No, but I'll figure I'll do a good job until my water breaks."